I don't want to die, nor am I suicidal. But if I were told that, say, I'll die in a week, I genuinely wouldn't give a fuck. I simply do not care.
I am not depressed—I have always been like this. My life isn't bad by any means, it is perfectly sufficient. So, then, why am I like this?

same with me, these days I am not afraid to make any mistakes or embarrass myself, if anything like that happens it wouldn't matter if I die lets say tomorrow or a week, so its kind of like giving freedom or something to do weird shi, cause anytime I can seize to exist anyday, its my choice. the very idea of having to control my own life is kind of relieving.
also i am just too lazy, everyday i try to enjoy the small things, procrastinate my plan of not existing lmao

>>33398902 (OP)
It's called being dissatisfied.
I'm the same, but I'm a work slave that has to pull 12-20hr (yes, 20) days.

If I was happy, satisfied, doing what I enjoy in life, I wouldn't be this way.

>>33398902 (OP)
>But if I were told that, say, I'll die in a week, I genuinely wouldn't give a fuck.
How do you know? It's easy to daydream about such things, or not think about them, but when, say, I inadvertently touched a live circuit I jerked my hand away and felt a rush of aversion that, if translated into speech would have been "no way!!"

>>33400105
That's a spinal reflex man so even the most suicidal person in the world would've done that

>>33398902 (OP)
>But if I were told that, say, I'll die in a week, I genuinely wouldn't give a fuck. I simply do not care.
this is a lie and i hope you never actually get told this, it's genuinely scary as fuck