It's genuinely fucking over for me. When I was younger, I was raped by a family member who was someone I thought was doing good for me. Years later, Ive come to terms that it has affected my sexual well being and preferences in the dating market. I have a strong attraction to men which Ive hid for years, however with the introduction of BP going mainstream and many teens in our generation looking up to models, I felt I can let loose and leave a little trail behind. This however has made many people close to me start cutting me off for being "gay" or "bisexual" which was honestly expected ( I just didn't think it would be this bad). *check images for context* Im not confused with my sexuality, I just can't come to terms with it. Im a fairly good looking guy as Ive pulled many chicks that other men would never have the chance to be able to pull. I just don't see anything with them, so I play with their feelings to fuel my torn mind. With everything going on in my life, I just can't hang on to it all, and I might kill myself.

>>33401619 (OP)
>I might kill myself.
Then please get on with that, and stop bugging us.

idk if you noticed this but you didn't actually name a problem that you want solved, you just went through all the things that are presumably emotionally engaging for you. but you didn't describe what the problem is and what kind of solution you are hoping for. advice can only be given in view of a goal or a good.

>>33401619 (OP)
i'm sorry you're surrounded by shitheads but at least those people are gone from your life now. and you should definitely report those death threats to the police. they probably won't do anything but it's best to start documenting stuff early in case they start harassing you or something

also that chat is literal projection. you don't make death threats unless you're a fucked up person. not deep down but very much on the surface

>>33401619 (OP)
Get those people out of your life pronto, my friend. So what if you're a little gay? It's not the end of the world. Just be safe about it, and don't break women's hearts just for the hell of it. That's shitty behavior too.

>>33401619 (OP)
I don't know what to say except sorry for all that stuff anon. But you had the courage to come out of the closet which is huge. I'm also testing the waters throwing jokes or stuff like that to friends, but idk if I have the guts to do so. Just that good luck with everything and I hope the best for you. Those people are trash and much better to have them out of your life. Just so you know, there are plenty of supportive people you can surround yourself and maybe that can make you feel better. Find groups and people that can help you would be my advice I guess. But don't let your life be ruined by some fuckers, you need to outlive your enemies

>I felt I can let loose and leave a little trail behind
What does this mean

I’m not sure if you want this advice or not, or if it will even help you but I had a similar experience. I liked men sexually but not psychically. The thing that helped me get rid of this was quitting porn. It weirdly does make you more gay but this isn’t the case with everyone

I ment porn does make you more gay

>>33401619 (OP)
OP where do you live? I'll give you a hug. Maybe we could smooch a little.

>>33401619 (OP)
Bp meaning blackpill?
Yeah uh modernshit times have really trash shit for role models, don't feed into that bs
You probs don't wanna go gay, just find a wamen that's not fucking femoid snooty scum