My guy friend of 4 years has a gf as of recent. We stopped talking for about a year but we always had a bond that could pick up again whenever and we met up a few days ago to check in on each other.

I'm happy he has a gf...however, now I have thoughts of ruining his relationship so he gets together with me.

I feel bad because I'm not sure I even love him, the thought of this big plot gives me euphoria....you know, how I'm going to execute it while giving him the best attention, suspense, heartbreak, healing and affection of his life...it makes me smile just thinking about it.

We are both 22.

He is my only guy friend. He has been there for me when I cooked, played a game, bought a phone, got my uni results, got a job and had anxiety attack for the first time. I was his first time in many things but nothing sexual at all.

We are just people comforted by eachothers company, now my attention is gone and limited.

How do I handle this problem and redirect my emotions elsewhere?

>>33403856 (OP)
>How do I handle this problem and redirect my emotions elsewhere?

find another guy to obsess over?

literally just work on yourself and find a boyfriend. this is what happens when you try to keep close to opposite sex friends in adulthood. at least 1 person is going to be attracted to the other

>>33403861
Yeah but literally no one else interests me. He has many guy friends but they all get high and sleep with women, he is an introvert who just drinks and goes home to play games.

I currently have one guy who chases me around telling me his life's purpose is me but I know he just wants to move in with me because he doesn't have a permanent residence.

Perhaps I should now find a boyfriend...but for me, I date to marry only, saving my virginity. Not the typical date 2 years then get married, if I'm going to date then I expet to get married in less than a month. No need to a wedding, just sign us off.

>>33403882
>he is an introvert who just drinks and goes home to play games.

this is literally the average male in his 20's

>if I'm going to date then I expet to get married in less than a month

why the fuck would a sane person get married in less than 30 days?

>>33403856 (OP)
If I found out the bitch I once knew did this to me I would not be able to control my anger lol

>>33403888
we'd talk about the purpose of life, what his vision of life is in the next few years, what he wants to build and I'll be his helpmate by his side until the end.

>>33403894
if I asked for forgiveness, he would forgive me.

>>33403917
>if I asked for forgiveness, he would forgive me.
you might think that but there's always the chance you break the camels back. I used to think I'd forgive her but there is not a chance in hell I wont take every opportunity to destroy her life if it's given to me right now.

>>33403917
cool, you completely ignored what i said and started yapping about other shit

normal people do not get married in less than a month, you are BPD or retarded or something. try learning

>>33403923
what do you think would take for her to make it up to you though? If she genuinely was sorry for ruining your life?

>>33403925
I come from a Christian background so we are strong on courtship and purpose and I like it as well because it puts more value on the other person as well and so out intimacy is strong idk

>>33403928
There is nothing she could do, she could act out my every desire and at the end of the day my hatred will remain.

I'm fucking seething just thinking about it.

>>33403934
you're retarded. have a nice day

>>33403856 (OP)
Assuming you actually want to destroy his relationship and dont care about causing them both extreme hurt:
Try to find a good therapist or psychologist and say you suspect you might have narcissistic personality disorder or histrionic personality disorder and you want to get help in curing it. There is probably some deep trauma in your past that you have maladapted too by losing your empathy. You might not even know what the trauma is. It's also possible but very unlikely that you were just born evil.

If you dont actually want to do it but are just ruminating about it, I dunno. Eat more carbs, calm down, try to find anything else to think about.

>>33403935
I see....

>>33403939
Hit home. Thank you for this lovely insight. Sounds the most accurate. I'll do what the first anon said and work on myself more with this anon's advice in mind.

I shall rebrand myself and move on.

Some power fantasy fuelled by jealousy, saviour complex, and being an all-round loser
Why would you even need somebody to accompany you in all that dumb shit, leave him alone you incompetent dysfunctional femoid frick

>>33403959
I've done something similar before to him, maybe that's why I'm so confident.

But I only did it because I found out he was leaking my vents to another person then he apologized.

>>33403967
so you just want revenge lol

>>33403856 (OP)
Literally just stop being crazy. Just stop it. When you have your completely fucking retarded thoughts, catch yourself and think "this is retarded" then stop.

>>33403856 (OP)
A man wrote this

>>33403947
I'm >>33403939
Watch the movie "revolver" by guy ritchie and try to find your own voice rather than creating a new mask for yourself. Watch the original UK/global version of the movie, and then maybe watch the USA cut if you want to rewatch it. They are slightly different