>on holiday in UK
>coworker I like tells me she has a bf
>probably the first woman I have truly loved, beyond a crush
>become alcoholic wreck
>two days later visiting St Pauls cathedral
>not religious but have nothing to lose
>god please make them break up
>three days later
>they breakup

What the fuck, probably a coincidence but still my schizo-autistic ass can't help but wonder

You were never an atheist you were just schizo contrarian.
A real atheist doesn’t attribute either bad or good happenings upon a higher being, life is just random like that.

well, whatever the case, time to shoot for the rebound position i guess. don't waste your shot.
maybe donate to the cathedral as well just to stay on the safe side.