"I'm such a failure. I fail at everything I attempt. I feel so dumb and I hate myself so much"

It's because you don't have Christ in your life.

Deuteronomy 30:9
>The LORD will make you prosperous in all that you do; you will have many children and a lot of livestock, and your fields will produce abundant crops. He will be as glad to make you prosperous as he was to make your ancestors prosperous,

funny thread, thanks for posting, i feel better now

>>33404850 (OP)
My soul has surrendered to him.

I will have no children, no livestock and I have no fields.

I don't even try anymore.