she's getting married - /adv/ (#33415349)

Anonymous
7/26/2025, 12:00:23 AM No.33415349
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so i havent really had a social circle since 2012, and ive been filling in that gap with streamers
when jerma moved to twitch he was my streamer; he did this bit where he muted to record multiple of the same voiceline, from a character who spoke through many mouths, and i still cherish the memory of seeing it, absolute classic, that was the moment i really got into streamers after really only watching starcraft esports
and over the years he had a good schedule and i got into a habit of keeping my time open to catch every stream
so over the years i picked up other streamers and i started in on asmr, and i had a real physical response to it for a while which is all gone now
but the asmr still comforts me without the physical response, and over time i got into lemonleaf and then found out she was a streamer and i started watching fauna
and fauna was, and probably still is, a talent akin to jerma for me, her streams were just as important, and i got into pomu and same there
november 2023 jerma announces he's retired (there's also a clip of him saying 'if i ever retire it'll be huge, big party,' and then one day he just said 'yeah, i'm retired, everybody knows'
i posted in /vt/ and someone said to find something to make progress in every day, so on top of the gym numbers going up i started playing runescape, where numbers also go up
and then january 2024 pomu retires/graduates and she has this great two weeks of streams where it is just quality time with her like the old days
and her graduation where i cried for 3 hours when it went to end screen and then for three days after that
then february 20th, a month after she graduated, i woke up and i just realized it hurt just as much as it did before and it wasnt getting better, and i got a drink
and then she redebuted as another streamer and i was happy about it, and still drinking
fauna graduates, no biggie since we all know she's redebuting at some point and she does real quick
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Anonymous
7/26/2025, 12:01:06 AM No.33415352
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>>33415349 (OP)
and so
she announced her marriage and im miserable
i dont want to be i didnt try to like, get weird about it like this and it just came out of nowhere and it's ruined me i cant eat or sleep or do the things i used to do to distract myself or enjoy my time
i can hardly cry and when i do it comes out in spurts and it gives no catharsis
i cant function at all im miserable
its just a streamer getting married but like, she's such a catch and the guy's lucky to get her and i just have no one and nothing and the light has shined on that
i cant enjoy any streams any more and im just wallowing

i dont even know what advice im asking for
i just hurt so much and i cant get away from it
i boot up a game and i shut it down in 5 minutes when i think about nimi
i lay in bed and she comes up
i go to the gym until it doesnt hurt any more and i fail after 5 hours
i cant sleep, im not hungry

sorry i dont really post anything anywhere, i dont chat in streams or post here or anything, i just read, so my writing is shit
actually, looking at it, no one's reading all that
fuck you guys or good luck or whatever
Anonymous
7/26/2025, 1:44:06 AM No.33415691
Look up para social relationships

None of this is real sadly. Hopefully you can start living in the real world again
Real a$s niga
7/26/2025, 5:07:44 AM No.33416436
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