>>33419992My situation is weirder. I was like you up until 21. Then I obsessed over a project and it ended up making money. I became obsessed with making money, and I made a lot. Many gave me the benefit of the doubt, but I knew the truth, so I pushed them away. A few years later, I lost it all. Suffered a mental breakdown and came out on the other side with new perspective.
Then I obsessed over something else.
It took off 10x compared to before.
I moved out, became independent, but I still put on a persona. I was never.."me". I was that guy who made it, who moved out, and was making money. Got a lot of benefits of the doubt but I pushed them all away.
5 years of this and business gradually dried up.
Crisis at 29, wondering what would happen if business dried up.
Panic and obsessed again.
Turned business 10x
I am here
Goal is to make a lot of money
If I run out, I am nothing
Idk what to do
I went through a severe crisis at 29, a lot due to someone who gave me benefit of the doubt, got close, caused me to panic and then bounced because of it
I saw psychiatrists and everything
Learned how to "feel" but after a few months, all I feel right now is weird
I am currently a fucking mess, but I could see myself get a girlfriend, I would just never seek one out
Family and all that life? I have given up all hope for that a loong time ago