Is it better to have a little bit of beta in your character so you feel insecure enough to not have the balls to do this?

Where are the guys who know how to treat a woman right? Emyzeth

>>935783925 (OP)
I don't want to say this is bad advice, because there's always an element of luck in all gambling, but if you've lost your job (and your insurance, presumably) over what you view as a minor addiction then you should probably seek professional help