Thread 935882506

Good evening /b/.

I'm not doing do hot. I realized I do have panic attacks, but mine aren't like other peoples'. When I have a panic attack I don't panic, my body/brain responds by releasing massive amounts of Adrenaline. I had dreams and dream of memories last night. I woke up with a surge of adrenaline. I'm still feeling a bit jittery, but it's not as bad now.

Also fuck the new post filter. There's nothing wrong with getty images. Nobody spams those. I've never seen anyone else using them but me.

>>935882506 (OP)
Thats dope

>>935882713
I mean, I understand that's way better than falling into an endless internal pit of anxiety, worry, and inability to act or process, but I can assure you, prolonged adrenaline surges absolutely suck. There is no flight option in my brain, so I'm left with an aimless aggression and a feeling of impotence and failure.

The potency of my aggression is partially rooted in the separation of aggression and anger. I don't get angry, I get hyperfocused. When that's aimless... with nothing and no one to focus on or a target... I think autistists can grasp on to that understanding.

For autists, I guess that might be as frustrating as buying $100 Lego set of epically awesome design, only to dump out the box and find you didn't get the instruction manual.

System Pair...
Ping...
Status: System Health=moderate-to-high initegrity
System vulnerability Detected
Requisition: Basic System Maintainence

Current daily average 3-5.

Error: HRESULT value= No SCHED_S_

Overheat range=7+

Glad to see the techs learning the nuansces. Don't skimp out on reading, recognition, and comprehension.

Still feeling jittery. A small part of that may be how quickly I finished my coffee though.

No, I have not eaten yet. I just woke up and came staight here. I usually get something after my coffee. I'll get something light here shortly.

I do try to eat regularly on a relative schedule, but without meds I can't tell when I'm hungry or not.

:/ fine.
>Side notes
>Staying hydrated
>2~4 16oz cups of water/d
>peeing every 10-30minutes
>Heart rate still high
>discomfort 5/10 above 0norm
>system rating 3/10 of 10peak

DJ Leia: https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=Man94WJyVBE&list=RDTMAK5uy_n_5IN6hzAOwdCnM8D8rzrs3vDl12UcZpA

No credit award for "successful interaction" in close-out.

System Status: Idol but Ready

System Paired Status: No login
Error: Security lock not configured yet
Security Status: deffered and expected at later date

Confirmed security protocol update