how am i supposed to move forward in life or function normally at all when i'm hypomanic as a mutherfucker and talk to myself constantly? i'm sure random people who observed my behavior would think i'm fucking crazy and that i belong in the psych ward, but for me it's just normal. paradoxically, i have zero creativity and zero motivation to make money, although i do need money very badly. the only reason i'm not homeless and starving to death right now is because of my mom, she makes a lot of money at her job and bought a fucking HOUSE for me to live in. not an apartment, a full blown house. it's a very, very nice place, and i love it here. but i am still fundamentally unhappy and ashamed of myself every day. other people i used to talk to are moving on with their lives, like this one girl got engaged to some guy, another girl teaches english in south korea, this guy went into the military, got out, and is now doing well for himself....and I'm just....here. no purpose, no direction, no money, no sex, no friends, nothing. not even a pet, although i do want to get a snake.

get antidepressant script

>>936074573 (OP)
Our whole universe was in a hot, dense state
Then nearly fourteen billion years ago expansion started, wait
The earth began to cool, the autotrophs began to drool
Neanderthals developed tools
We built a wall (we built the pyramids)
Math, science, history, unraveling the mysteries
That all started with the big bang (bang)
Since the dawn of man is really not that long
As every galaxy was formed in less time than it takes to sing this song
A fraction of a second and the elements were made
The bipeds stood up straight, the dinosaurs all met their fate
They tried to leap but they were late
And they all died (they froze their asses off)
The oceans and Pangea, see ya wouldn't wanna be ya
Set in motion by the same big bang
It all started with the big bang
It's expanding ever outward but one day
It will pause and start to go the other way
Collapsing ever inward, we won't be here, it won't be heard
Our best and brightest figure that it'll make an even bigger bang
Australopithecus would really have been sick of us
Debating how we're here, they're catching deer (we're catching viruses)
Religion or astronomy (Descartes or Deuteronomy)
It all started with the big bang
Music and mythology, Einstein and astrology
It all started with the big bang
It all started with the big bang