>>936114799 (OP)in some ways yes. I do have quite low self esteem, and relish in being degraded because i think i desrve it, think of myself as both inferior and superior to my peers, and lack a real personality due to social isolation.
but i am pretty happy generally. Probably moreso than most, if all the doomerposting is anything to go by. I like myself, despite everything. I'm aware that's hypocritical, and i don't really care. My desires aren't unattainable either; I want a job that pays $70,000/year, a shitty cheap apartment with roomates, to finish my shitty unity games, and get laid by a 4/10 fatty at least once every couple years.