>>936123710 (OP)start by getting /fit/
you will find that the endorphins and dopamine you produce from working out will give you a natural high.
Next, start lurking in the woods near places where you can find rape victims. Build yourself a rape station nearby where you can take them and rape them in a controlled environment. You can also have bondage and torture devices located in that area. You can satisfy your cravings for power and sexual gratification via violent and brutal rape and murder. Bonus points if you live in any area where you have access to jewish victims.