Thread 936137283

>Be male, gay, 26
>Realize I still want to be a self-hating closetfag who gets a wife, takes viagra, and thinks about men while doing it
Am I fucked up for considering it? Any advice if I do want to live a straight life? It seems way more appealing, but idk if anyone here understands.

>>936137283 (OP)
Bumpin

>>936137283 (OP)
Bumpin.

>>936137283 (OP)
>Am I fucked up for considering it?
No. You are absolutely right.
>Any advice if I do want to live a straight life?
Well, you can, just like you described:
>be a self-hating closetfag who gets a wife, takes viagra, and thinks about men while doing it
But you can also try to surpress your homosexuality and become straight.
>t. homophobe.

>>936138685
Oh fuck yeah. I want to be homophobic and hate my gayness to the point where I'm putting all the angst into tryhard sex with women.

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>>936138774
If that’s what you want man. Result may vary.

>>936137283 (OP)
just have sex with guys. see if your wife wants a threesome maybe, that could be a way to ease into it

>>936137283 (OP)
Its called psychopathy.

>>936140567
Fuck yeah. Ill be a cool psycho guy.

>>936140619
Then you have no more worries.

>>936137283 (OP)
Do it. Stop being gay. Get back in the closet.

>>936140710
Why do you suggest this?

>>936140730
because they only know "gay" from what they see on 4chan

>>936140803
What is your perspective?

>>936140730
You can be gay all you want. The most trouble of being a straight acting gay guy is girls who think they can turn you. And the jealousness from the straight guys wanting them.

>>936140828
im gay and married to a former marine and army vet. We're both the masculine type, him more than me. But we both have strong soft sides. You'd never know when we're together. I hate PDA he doesnt care. You probably pass gay guys all the time and never know it. My fashion is jeans and a t-shirt or cargo shorts and a t-shirt (Im 35)

>>936141109
well then...how did you accept your sexuality and become comfortable with it?

>>936140828

>>936141109
This is my perspective. I have never felt like I was treated different in any bad ways when I revealed to people my sexuality. In general I only reveal it when I have to correct someone, like when they use the word "wife" because of my ring. If they are men they just say "oh okay" and continue the convo like normal. If they are women its 50/50 if they do the same or say "oh okay.. whats your husbands name? Is that who you were with the other day? how did you guys meet? how long have you been together?"

>>936141137
Accepting it wasnt really a thing for me. I've been hardcore gay all my life. There was no accepting it lol. It just was. I had never seen the opposite sex as "desirable". Meaning i never saw them as lifelong companions but friends. Now the other part of being comfortable I dont have the answer. I was outed to my family at 17 and it was devastating for me in the moment. But it turned out to be no big deal. The stress of you yourself regardless of how people are going to react is more important.

I'm closeted and live with family but stay caged by my owner.

>>936141276
Fuck. Fuck!!!

>>936141604
You should stay caged then. Family know best?

>>936137283 (OP)
>Be me
>Bi
>Have a child with a woman who abuses me and though I loved her once I now hate
>want to leave her and go do gay shit or literally anything else
I'm in the opposite camp, OP. My life with this woman is terrible. She has horrible undiagnosed BPD and is emotionally everywhere all the time and violent , and extremely jealous. She accuses me of cheating all the time ( I have not, she is the only person I've had sex with in fact) , she hits me, she spits on me, and I endure all of it just so I can be with my daughter who is the only family I have left anymore. One moment she's happy, next she's angry, then sad, then an hour later happy again. She's paranoid, she projects all her insecurities on those around her which changes on a dime. But, I don't want my daughter to be dragged out through the court system while I battle with both sides of the family I hate, mine and hers, over rights for my daughter. She is more important than any of this. We dont have sex anymore, there's no love in the relationship, and every day I think about shooting myself but I have an obligation to be here for my daughter and try to make sure she has a better life than I ever had so I wont. The fact you would choose to be in a loveless relationship blows my mind.

But what I wouldn't do to just sit on some dudes cock, to just fuck and be free and love whoever I want. I don't think I could be in an actual relationship with another woman for a long time, and the most I've done with men has just been some making out and touching.

>>936142042
Yeah megans are like that. I'll let you sit on my diick.

>>936142042
You're kind of screwing up what I want. Push through and just keep fucking her. Your dick will thank you. Dont ever go back to men.

>>936142598
What do you want really though anon?

>>936142712
I want a gf who takes my thick gay cum all up inside her.

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>>936142712
you're still on the right track

>>936145988
Wdym? Right track with what?

Let's spice things up a little, shall we? emyzeth

>>936137283 (OP)
Do you have a big penis?

Lonely and looking for someone to change that... any takers? emyriion