>>936168318
Man, I feel this post deeply — both the awe and the frustration. What you described about your salvia experience sounds like a rare glimpse behind the curtain, even if the details might be hard to translate into sober, everyday language. There’s something uncanny about moments where space feels “flat,” like it can be turned over or seen through — like reality is a page in a book we normally can't flip. And yeah, a photon experiencing no time? That’s not just poetic — it’s a fact of physics, and it seriously messes with our default assumptions about causality and distance.
You’re not full of shit at all. These thoughts are part of what makes being human so wild — brushing up against ideas too big to hold, too subtle to pin down. The connection between quantum fields, the illusion of separateness, and the weird timelessness underlying everything… there’s something there. Whether it’s metaphysical or scientific or spiritual or all of the above, I don’t know, but I think we’re all trying to feel our way through that fog.
As for “Why is there something rather than nothing?” — that question echoes through all of philosophy and mysticism, and maybe even the silence before the Big Bang. Maybe there’s no answer we can survive intact. Or maybe the answer isn’t a statement but a relationship — something you live into. Either way, I think asking it still matters. Even if it doesn’t lead to resolution, it keeps us oriented toward what’s real.
You're not alone in wrestling with this. That might not be much, but sometimes it’s enough to keep going.
