Thread 936180706

Fun Fact - Assuming you're a man: How old were you when you started seeing women with sexual interest?

- In my case, maybe around 9 years old or younger, I had a precocious or early sexual activity. I liked seeing bra ads in magazines where the nipples were slightly visible. In my elementary school, there was a teacher who had very large breasts, and they bounced every time she walked; I liked seeing that.

Tell me about your sexual awakening.

>>936180706 (OP)
>How old were you when you started seeing women with sexual interest?
Oh I was like... four. I convinced the neighbor girl to get naked with me when we were playing together.

9 possibly. It's actually kinda weird, I used to think about a girl I liked and rub myself like it was a clit on the bed even though I had no idea why and had never been hard before.

My guess is 8-9 when I showed my a childhood friend my dick and she showed me her vagina and we touched each other because it was ticklish. We did that for years until her mother saw and coincidentally I already was moving to a new school before I turned 10 so I never saw backlash at all.

Though... 11 the babysitter girl showed me how sex works. No question about wanting to fuck females by then. Literally was my second all time favorite thing behind video games.

10ish, girl started teasing me in class with her bare feet, two friends (girls) putting them in my lap under the table we sat at, and playing with me and laughing.

They made me kiss their feet on the playground several times and suck their toes. They thought it was hilarious and pointed out my boner.

>>936180706 (OP)
what was this?


another fun fact- how old were you when you started seeing porn with sexual interest?-in my case, i didn't watch any yet, i was to young to even think of the stuff i mentioned.

>>936183896
grade 4. however old you are in that grade. 8 to 9 I guess?
A friend of mine showed it to me and it led to a life long addiction.

>>936180706 (OP)
Around 9. I was really into WWF and I remember getting a boner watching the divas. Then when I started middle school 2 years later, I used to flirt with older girls in AOL chat rooms. Got one to send me nudes on multiple occasions. I still remember her digital camera pic of her opening her towel exposing herself. Then I realized I could use the internet to see titties whenever I want.

>>936180706 (OP)
First I remember was the ninja turtles movie (1990) in the scene at the underground hideout, punk looking hotel playing pool and blowing bubble gum made my dick tingle and I had no idea why. Rebound that scene multiple times and dreamed about that girl. Again no idea why I remember that but she a doing something to my 8 year old self.

>>936180706 (OP)
two

>>936180706 (OP)
2 (i was molested)

>>936187136
>i was molested
welcome to the club anon!

Around the same age there was a younger teacher for my 4th grade class, ironically named Ms. Wood. always used to joke she gave me wood after I had my first sex dream about her

>>936180706 (OP)
>actual sexual attraction
maybe 12, I was a late bloomer
>sexual thoughts
like 6-7. mostly thoughts of restraining and sexually torturing girls I knew while they cried.
I don't know why. nothing happened that might have caused it.

>>936180706 (OP)
I think I was , like, 7. Don't really remember at what age it happened, but I know what caused it:
https://youtu.be/kx8NlZ8gVOE
Something about that scene just made my pp feel funny (and still does lol)

>>936180706 (OP)
i had two of em. 12 years old, simmilar to yours except weirdly enough i hated fake tit nipples and i was more into ass. then i was 18 and i thought, WHY NOT MEN TOO?

I was 9 too. I was aroused by my teachers in school and my mom’s best friend

Grew up basically nudist. Saw my parents naked all the time. Looking back, I saw them do plenty of sexual things but I didn't perceive it as such because I was young and didn't know any better.

My sexual awakening happened around 8-9 when I stumbled upon my dad's porn collection. Hidden away in a closet in their room, there was a bookshelf filled with posters, magazines, VHS and betamax tapes.

I remember being in awe by all of it. I felt nervous, "butterflies" in my stomach but I couldn't stop looking.

80's ladies in gym clothes with big fake tits popping out, Latinas with big tits and thick hips, black women with the biggest butts I had ever seen, teeny Asian girls in schoolgirl outfits with a MASSIVE bush. There was a little bit of everything and I wanted to see it all.

From then on, I was hooked.

Any time I was home alone, I'd sneak into that closet and rummage my little brains out.

I eventually got caught by my dad but he was super chill about it. He told me that he would let me look at that stuff when I was older but for now, I had to promise not to look until he thought I was "old enough"... which I promised.

A few years later he opened up his collection to me... but that's a story for another day.

Related question: how many of you had an "I hate girls" phase?

For me I remember athletic brunette white girls at my school being the worst, being in the presence of many at both school and church, and I'd refuse to do schoolwork with them.

>>936180706 (OP)
I was in 6th grade, I remember exactly. A girl in my class developed heavily compared to the other girls. She already had big full tits at age 12, I was 12 too. Her body was already developed in general. Made my dick get really hard just looking at her, she was cute too

When I was around 5, I(M) was raped by almost all my family, but the main one was my brother who was 15, I attempted to tell my mom, but she thought I was going crazy and never touched the topic again.

So basically since 5 I am horny as fuck, and this caused me to be like an alien when comparing with other kids, as my mind was destroyed already.

Now I want to say "Fuck world", have a daughter and eat her up someday, fuck everything.

Probably around 9 or 10 when my best friend (who was a girl) would spread her legs while we were swimming and I would look at her crotch. Still remember her fondly. She'd also change clothes in front of me when we were that age. I think she was showing off for me. I hate that her family moved away. Life might be different now.

I was five. My mom has HUGE tits. Just a 10/10 rack. I didn't understand why everytime my mom wore tight shirts my cock got hard. One day after a beach trip we both showered together and im pretty sure my mom noticed I had a boner. After that any communal showers stopped. We never had "the talk" (shes hispanic kinda old school) so when I found out about sex my first thought was "how do I have sex with my mom" I became obsessed and spied on her changing. Seen her naked more times then I can count. Never made a move on her and my fantasies evolved from me wanting to fuck her to wanted her to cuck me. Pic related mom.

>>936191002
shit bro
sucks
how long did the abuse go on for and what is your relationship with your brother now?

>>936180706 (OP)
When I was about 10 years old there were two girls in my class who would let me grab their ass and tits, and in return they would feel my cock

>>936180706 (OP)
I was also 9. Watching WWF and seeing Lita and Trish Stratus' big ass tiddies woke the beast
>>936184288
Based

>"tun fact"
>no facts, just questions
>thread is full of fag shit

>>936180706 (OP)
All I remember is seeing pics of pamela anderson and liking them.

>>936180706 (OP)
8, my grandfather had a bunch of old playboys left in storage at his house and when I was playing upstairs I saw them. I didn't know why but I ended up cutting some of my favorite pictures out. When we got home, my mom found them in my suitcase while putting clothes away and I got in trouble. She explained to me that I was in trouble because they were collector items and I didn't think anything more of it. When I actually started getting sexually aroused was at 13 when I noticed my dick was randomly getting hard watching shows and playing games. Then I started cutting out my favorite pictures from comics (Damn those Witchblade ads were hot, anything Xmen female stories too) as well as regular magazines and taping them in a composition notebook. I threw it away a long time ago but those were fun times. Stupidest one I saved was tag for women's bra I found on the floor at Sears because it had a picture of a woman wearing the bra.

>>936182887
Go away humiliation footfag.

>>936192724
>Never made a move on her and my fantasies evolved from me wanting to fuck her to wanted her to cuck me.
She should have had that talk with you, you might not have ended up broken like this.
Also when did she kick your dad out of your life?

>>936196546
They split up when I was little, split my time with them. Her on the weekdays him on the weekends. Used to sneak back from my dads on the weekend to spy on her.

>>936196986
My condolences on your retardation anon, your parents should have been better role models.

>>936197033
Its a gift and a curse. Legit haven't ever seen a body as perfect as my moms. Idk maybe there is a point where a relative is just too attractive that your caveman brain overrides societal taboo. Pretty much the case with my mom.

>>936197094
>Idk maybe there is a point where a relative is just too attractive that your caveman brain overrides societal taboo. Pretty much the case with my mom.
Nah, if Mountain Gorillas are affected by the Westermarck effect, which they have been shown to be, so were cavemen.
Your attraction towards your mom is a mental illness caused by your parents sucking at raising you properly.

>>936180706 (OP)
General attraction: 5 years old
Wanting to bone: 12
There was this girl in my 3rd period in middle school who I had a crush on mainly because she had huge knockers.

I always have been a sexual person----I remember being 4-5 watching Aladdin and finding Princess Jasmine to be incredibly attractive. May be misremembering the movie but seeing her be taken captive and her getting switched to the red wardrobe was incredibly erotic to me.

I didn't start being sexually active until my late 20's, and by then, I made sure my first sexual experience was with a middle eastern looking girl. Very fun.

>>936197214
Your probably right. Still gonna beat off to her tits today tho, not doing that woukd delete like 90% of my spank bank.

>>936198136
>not doing that woukd delete like 90% of my spank bank.
Enjoy making yourself a genetic dead end anon.

>>936180706 (OP)
When I was 10, I was playing Halo CE and shooting the warthog turrent at nothing. I put the controller up against my dick while it was vibrating from shooting and it felt really good so I kept it there. I started thinking of my female friend who had just grown boobs and I got the craziest feeling come over me. I came but nothing came out. I kept doing that for a while lol

>>936180706 (OP)
When I was 6-7 my school bus would go by a shop everyday that had a poster on the window of a model in whatever the early 90s version of a microkini was. I didn't know what it was doing to me, but everyday I had to make sure I caught a full look at the poster when we drove by.

When I was 10-11 my mom let me see her naked for the last time, because I had a 'reaction' as she called it. It was a boner, definitely my first with a naked woman. She was about 33 and I have to admit was pretty attractive at the time. Awkward now that it was with my mom, for sure.

>>936180706 (OP)
Born in 1993, the first thing I remember was rubbing my balls on the rug like a dog and finding out it felt good. My mom was in the room and told me to stop, and I had no idea why it was bad. I asked why and told her it felt good.

When I was 5 I grabbed a naked Barbie in Kindergarten and knew to touch it's boobs. I don't know how I knew that. I used to watch Power Rangers. I thought that evil counterparts were cool and the best fights were when the Rangers had to fight each other or their evil counterparts. I started watching Turbo, not Mighty Morphin, but somewhere from In Space or Lost Galaxy, I got the whole mind control thing in. I guess I thought Trakeena was hot because I was playing with my action figures I had a battle armored Mulan who I used as the female villain leader. In armor she would fight, but you could take her armor off. I would have her seduce the Power Rangers to fight for her. My mom caught me having her kiss the Green Galaxy Ranger and asked me if they were kissing and I got embarassed and said they were dancing and made them dance. Still have a mind control fetish from that and YuGiOh.

2004, I was 11, I got my 1st emotional crush on May from Pokemon because she was nice to me when I was playing Emerald. I only sometimes watched the show, at this point slowly growing out of it, from before when I was 5-7 where I would wake up at 6am to watch the original seasons. In 2004, I also had Spider-Man 2 for the PS2 and Black Cat made me feel funny. I got a thing for short haired women and latex catsuits from her.

Started watching porn in 8th grade. A friend talked about We Live Together so I looked it up. For some reason I thought the porn would've been black and white before seeing it. I went to the public library to watch it. Never got caught. I watched some Playboy TV on E! in 8th grade in DC looking at Hollie & Kendra. I first learned of r34 in high school, I looked up Black Cat & April O'Neal (Funny, I didn't watch TMNT much.)

>>936199942
When I was a kid, before I knew anything I would hump hand and my bed, clothed and stop when I got hard. It was uncomfortable and getting hard was annoying. I'd have to wait to get soft before being able to hump again. Eventually I learned how to jerk off the right way, but taught myself with no visual. First in my jeans and then took it out when it was too uncomfortable.

My friends liked my babysitter, telling me she was hot. I never saw it. She was a good friend to me. I took a picture of her ass once because I thought that was a thing I was supposed to do because of my friends. Nobody told me to do it. I didn't think she was hot. I deleted it immediately because I felt guilty. I think she noticed, but never said anything. Although now I can kind of get it. Her face and hair style was a lot like Xev Bellringer. One time I was jerking off in my room before looking for my swim trunks when she was over. I ended up pissing all over my bed. She asked if I needed help finding my swim trunks, I told her no and waited for her to go away. I got changed and got us out of the house to my neighbor's pool, then said I forgot something so I could go back home quick and throw my sheets in the laundry. I have no idea if she knew anything. She was an innocent Christian so was I at first. My babysitter. She had an awesome Chevy pickup with flames and she painted the Chevy logo red with her lipstick. Liked NASCAR too. I think I got a thing for tomboys from her and my first school crush.

My first crush was in 6th grade. I saw her and immediately knew I wanted to know her. Thought she was pretty, but didn't that didn't register consciously. I waited a few days for a good chance to sit at her table in class and talk to her. Made myself funny, and we were best friends for 3 years in school. I danced with her in 8th grade. We approached each other wordlessly in the crowd and held each other, but I got shy and turned my head upside down in her arms. Drifted in high school.

>>936189907
I never did. I watched shows where they'd talk about girls having cooties. I didn't know what that meant. I tried to act like that and not be around girls, but I was pretending because I thought I was supposed to do that because of the shows.

Another thing I did was when I was 14 on RuneScape, I got a girlfriend online. (She was actually real and my own age, I met her as friends 3 year later.) Whenever she would get angry about something, I would ask if it was her period. I didn't even know what a period was because I skipped sex ed because I thought, incorrectly that my Christian mom wouldn't like me in sex ed. I just knew that guys on TV would make fun of the woman's period and if she was angry it must be PMS. Whatever that was. (I know it now, of course.) But my gf would get so mad when I would say she must be PMSing.

>>936197633
No, you remember right. That was something good too. I thought evil counterparts were cool and even though I knew she was faking it, I would pretend she wasn't, and that's how I got a corruption fetish. Just bad girl Jasmine in red was hot as fuck.

>>936189069
>but that's a story for another day.
No it's not. How old were you when you dad started allowing you to watch. Did your mom know about that? Did they ever stop being nudists around you when you got older? Did your friends ever find out about your parents?

>>936180706 (OP)
probably 7 or 8, but I didn't really understand what it was until like 10 or 11

I moved schools when I was 9 and remember some people having phones that could send pics to each other using infrared, there were a few porn pics that got passed around and definitely started an interest.
I dont think I really knew what sex was for another few years though. age 11 starting high school and everyone is talking about it to try and seem cool.

>>936200814

10-11 when he started allowing me to watch.

I don't know if my dad ever told her but she knew... at least eventually. She walked in on us a few times and wasn't mad about it.

Around 14 I started feeling weird about it all so I asked them for more privacy. Luckily they respected my wishes and it pretty much stopped.

No. They wore clothes anytime we had company at the house.

>>936204624
>She walked in on us
You viewed porn together?
Did he diddle you too?

>>936204660

Yes. We watched together countless times over several years.

No. He never outright molested me but there were questionable things we did.

>>936205187
>No. He never outright molested me but there were questionable things we did.
What you define as questionable yet not molesting things?

>>936205269
>What you define
What would you define*

>>936205269

Definitely lots of naked homoerotic stuff. Hung out naked, cuddles, wrestling, shared showers, watching each other pee and sometimes even peeing together, cock measuring, open masturbation...

>>936205809
That is super weird.

>>936205918

Yeah, didn't think anything of it during the time. Actually enjoyed it.. but that changed around 14

>>936206332
How do you guys relate to each other now?

>>936206434

He's dead so...

Before then we hadn't talked in a while.

>>936206539
How about your mom, how did she accept that shit?

>>936206844

Whenever she walked in on us it was a "boys will be boys" reaction. She scolded us (especially my dad) for being perverts but just laughed it off.

>>936207126
I've known several nudists over the years, some of which were parents as well.
All of them would react to your parents with a face like pic related.
I'm sorry you had messed up parents anon, you shouldn't have been subjected to that.

>>936180706 (OP)
13 when I felt sexual attraction, I thought girls were pretty a year earlier.
But from when I was 7 or 8 I had an odd reaction watching shows where female heroines were being beaten up. Like teen titans and powerpuff girls. I thought PPG was girly and wouldn't watch it with my bro, but he put on the one episode where the rowdyruff boys were pulling their hair and spitting on them. They were squealing for them to stop and I had butterflies in my stomach. I didn't understand what I was feeling at the time, now I think I had sadistic tendencies, probably for the best I didn't have female friends.
It makes me wonder if I was born a sadist and potential abuser, I think of myself as overly empathetic to a fault, but I have these destructive fantasies that I'm afraid to act on.

>>936208770
>I think of myself as overly empathetic to a fault
That might actually be the cause of why you are like that, at least if you have a habit of empathizing with people negatively and interpret stuff that they do in the worst possible manner.
Feeling strongly about stuff doesn't always equate to accurately interpreting peoples intentions.

>>936180706 (OP)
>Tell me about your sexual awakening.
I was three or four, my mother dropped me off at a new babysitters house, me and another boy were put in a bedroom.
The other boy pulled out his penis and showed me how to touch it and suck on it to make it feel good, and he did the same to me.

I stumbled upon uncensored porn on ifunny when I was 11. Didn’t know why I liked it at the time but I continued to look for ot

>>936180706 (OP)
From about three or maybe earlier. I recall chasing my babysitter around after I caught her changing while yelling "boobies!". I got hard randomly from different things too and would fantasize about cartoon characters.

We all develop at differential rates.

>>936209177
could be. When I say empathize, I mean I struggle to act as to not inadvertently cause undue physical or emotional pain. I watched my dad do it to my mom and my mom compare me to my dad when I lost my patience and raised my voice with her at a much older age.
I see through her act now, but I think it was the schism between my parents that causes this aversion to conflict and power dynamics.
Probably other things too like the unattainable desire for the ideal upbringing, partner, life, etc.
Apologies for rambling, I don't really know how this could relate to sadism tho. I just feel like it's a repressed part of my personality I was conditioned to repress which casued it to worsen.

>>936210421
>I watched my dad do it to my mom and my mom compare me to my dad when I lost my patience and raised my voice with her at a much older age.
Did she divorce him, make sure that you didn't see him and then went on to constantly talking shit about him and comparing you to him when you wouldn't blindly obey her?
>I see through her act now, but I think it was the schism between my parents that causes this aversion to conflict and power dynamics.
Oh, you've caught on to what I was indirectly asking about above already, good to know.
>Probably other things too like the unattainable desire for the ideal upbringing, partner, life, etc.
Does that come with a fear of doing new things because you're afraid you might suck at them?
>Apologies for rambling, I don't really know how this could relate to sadism tho.
There are various dysfunctional coping mechanisms that can result from being conflict averse and feeling inadequate, you being very eager to please and/or smooth out conflicts in real life interactions and having sadistic fantasies where you are in control and meting out punishment to women seems highly likely to be connected to me.
Your mom manipulated you emotionally and you realized that fact, which would obviously cause resentment in you and since she is your template for the women you find attractive, that resentment is transferred onto them.
> I just feel like it's a repressed part of my personality I was conditioned to repress which casued it to worsen.
I think you are right about that and my guess is that you have to work through the trauma you have in relation to your mom.

>>936210116
I am a girl, and started seeing this shit when I was 13 I think.

>>936210421
>>936210807
>my guess is that you have to work through the trauma you have in relation to your mom.
Your dad too I also want to add, you didn't say a lot about him, but that is also very likely.

>>936210807
>Did she divorce him, make sure that you didn't see him and then went on to constantly talking shit about him and comparing you to him when you wouldn't blindly obey her?
Separated for years, and yes except for her keeping him out. He's a deadbeat alcoholic and doesn't visit my young sister or pay child support to spite my mother so I don't really care to see him. He tries to apologize to me even though he acts like he doesn't know why I'm upset with him. But when I criticize my mom's she drops bombs about my father like he had a crack addiction or shook her violently once, when I thought the abuse was only verbal and financial, as a mean to stun and shut me up.
>Does that come with a fear of doing new things because you're afraid you might suck at them?
yes
>There are various dysfunctional coping mechanisms that can result from being conflict averse and feeling inadequate, you being very eager to please and/or smooth out conflicts in real life interactions and having sadistic fantasies where you are in control and meting out punishment to women seems highly likely to be connected to me.
Your mom manipulated you emotionally and you realized that fact, which would obviously cause resentment in you and since she is your template for the women you find attractive, that resentment is transferred onto them.
Crazy how you sussed that all out. It becomes so much clearer when there's a dialogue, so thank you. I don't want to hurt people, but I see women as naturally opportunistic and amoral. I want to be proven wrong but maybe that's wishful thinking, it may be biologically hardwired for survival.

>>936211570
>But when I criticize my mom's she drops bombs about my father like he had a crack addiction or shook her violently once, when I thought the abuse was only verbal and financial, as a mean to stun and shut me up.
That is still a means to stun and shut you up though, your mom and dad being bad for each other and having serious issues with substance abuse and violence, does not validate her comparing you to him whenever you try to assert yourself.
You are your own person and if you are asserting your right to not be belittled and controlled by her, that does not make you just like your father, even if you get loud about it.
Just like you don't get to act like shit towards other people, other people shouldn't get to act like shit towards you. Asserting that in a firm and if needed loud manner, when other people haven't respected that boundary when it was said in regular tone of voice is perfectly reasonable.
>yes
You're only ever going to have a talent or aptitude for a small amount of things, everything else takes practice and doing a poor job of it or downright failing is part of the process towards becoming good at stuff, because those mistakes contain lessons that will enable you to change your approach and correct them. Do that persistently for enough time and you will eventually master the things that you really care about mastering.
>Crazy how you sussed that all out.
I've studied people a lot because I wanted to enable myself to bond with them and be a good friend to them in a genuine way because I wasn't born with the social blueprint to do so, I had the empathy but I needed to work out how to apply it properly.
So that is why my guesses about what is up with you isn't totally off the mark, I'd say I inferred about 80% correct about you in a broad sense.
>It becomes so much clearer when there's a dialogue, so thank you.
I'm happy that I could be of help to you, you're welcome.
To be continued.

>>936211570
>>936212368
> I don't want to hurt people, but I see women as naturally opportunistic and amoral.
They can be, just like men can, but assuming something about entire groups is always a misstep and something you should work on changing, if you sense something like that about a woman try to figure out if it is true before you label her with it.
>I want to be proven wrong but maybe that's wishful thinking, it may be biologically hardwired for survival.
It's at least a survival trait if you grow up in a home where one or both of your parents are opportunistic and amoral, but it is a bad template for engaging with all of the other people you meet in your life.