>>936361927
go punch a cop in the face, if you're in jail long enough, they'll deworm your ass and you'll have somewhere to sleep and three square meals a day until you're released in probably 2-5 years
alternatively, if you do decide to go through with it, smaller caliber is probably better, you want it to bounce around your skull, not just go straight through to lower your chance of survival. You could also just lay in a kiddie pool with some dry ice or sit in your car with a big bottle of N02, both of which are painless, peaceful, and won't leave your disfigured body for your elderly mother to find