>>936594574Thanks anon
Ive tried. And I'm tired.
My grandmum and mum died before they could see me at my best when I was we. Such a shame I couldntbbe good enough. Which is a damn shame.
Theyre the only ones I met in my dreams for almost a decade. Till I got promoted.
And those dream had us doing nothing, just walking around, silently
I haven't mourned their death cause I knew I wasn't strong enough to deal with it back then, much less now when I truly know my worth
Havent cried for either of them, not one goddamned tear for either one.
However, I'm surprised you knew that ive had an affinity towards the seas but why does it matter since with me on board they'd have more luck with the black plague than with my incompetence
Mum always told me I was a failure for 22y straight....and I spent the next decade trying to prove her and everyone else wrong
Turns out the joke was on me.
I was what they feared
I dont know how op has any hope for himself, but you're better off talking to him
I'm a lost cause.