>>936594577Genuine advice anon: do something about your mental health. Therapy, do it yourself therapy workbooks, medication (I'm a big fan of bupropion, but different drugs work for different people), exercise, sunlight, light box, better diet, increased social interaction, starting a hobby, secular mindfulness practice, religious practice, SOMETHING. Your life will be better, and you'll have a better shot at romantic success to boot.
I can elaborate on a couple of these if you wish.