Just got blacklisted from military service now I dont have any option but to kill myself. I've lost all my money. I'm living on a ranch in an RV in the middle of nowhere. My life sucks. Got rejected at MEPS for my medical history, can't get waivers. I'm out in the middle of nowhere and have no car to get back and forth to a job so i can start saving up money. Every day is agony. I'm 22, turning 23 soon. I used to be very handsome but the stress has taken my looks along with my sanity. I have nothing and no way out. My life used to be so good, and I still suffered. But now? Now with no way out I'm really fucked because suicide isn't an emotional thought for me anymore, just a logical one. Any advice the btards? I'm all out of solutions.

>>936612230 (OP)
You've got a ranch. You've got a RV. Go outside an d shoot some watermelons or something.
This doesn't sound like a bad life. Just a failure of imagination.

>>936612230 (OP)
what is your medical history ?
im going to ukraine foreign legion in a few months when i did save enough money as back up

search up ildu
its my only last option too

>>936612230 (OP)
What was the health reason the military rejected you? Can you try to be a cop despite your health thing?

You are still very young anon. Try trade school, electricity or plumbing pays very well.

>>936612288
I get absolutely no satisfaction from that and it's not my ranch. I'm a ranch hand and I have to do exhausting hours of work just to make my rent here, stealing the boss's rifle and shooting his livestock would bring me a temporary escape from the boredom but is no better than killing myself. I need a way out of this place. I need to build my life back, get my own apartment again, get my own car. I feel stuck though. I feel like there's no escape.

>>936612320
Suicidal ideation
Adhd/adderal prescription
Cocaine and alcohol abuse
PTSD
Violence toward medical staff causing forced sedation
Grand theft auto (though this one I was able to get a waiver for)
Terroristic threats toward an officer

>>936612325
Definitely can't become a cop, I have a light criminal background

>>936612325
How do I get into a trade school with no money to my name and no transportation?

>>936612230 (OP)
You are not eating spiders in the middle of Africa, carrying buckets of water 20 miles every day just to live.

So stop bitching and start saving a few dollars every week until you have enough to pay for a car.

If you cannot do that, you are not being paid enough by your boss and you need to get the RV running and take it to a town near a city, where you can park up and start looking for local work.

If you cannot do this in some form, maybe you will just die anyway, and I do not know what adapt and improvise means to someone like you so why the fucking military?

>>936612478
Well. As I said before you are still very young, I am in my late 20s and just finishing college, I am late at college because I took a lot of sabbatic years to relieve from the stress, thankfully I had the opportunity to do so. I used to feel like I am too late at finishing college but I stopped caring about that and I just do my own thing at my own rythm, since it's in engineering and I had a promising internship I think I'll be alright.

Try trading school anon, plumbing, electricity and stuff like that pays very well and it's not too hard, it's also very light work in terms of physical strain, at least compared to farm work, it's also satisfying to see stuff working once you manage to figure out what's wrong with it.

Don't give up anon, learn to enjoy life, I don't have a gf and I used to be sad about that but I just watch porn and jerk off, okay videogames and do my college assignments and feel good about it.

>>936612545
Some companies offer free training at first or so I heard.
Welding also pays well.

I am lucky because I got a government scholarship I applied to by showing I had no income, I am not in the US so I don't know how things work over there but I am sure if you ask around town or online you can find some kind of program to get educated in useful trades.

>>936612828
This is very useful thank you man I will look into it and try. I'm willing to try anything to avoid suicide because I'd hate to do that to my girls

I trust in you. 22/23 was/is the roughest time of my life.

>>936612230 (OP)
I bet ICE is about to start a hiring spree. Go be the Gestapo until you save up some money to do something better.

>>936612665
The RV is not mine, and I am very physically fit and would easily adapt to the military they wouldn't let me join because of my psychiatric evaluations. I got ultra high scores on all my tests, 120 line scores and an 88 on the asvab. I'd do great and I have a constant itch to murder people, I'm telling you military life adaption isn't the issue with me. It's poor people life adaption that is. I get paid $30/ day for my ranch hand work, because he takes the rest out of my pay for rent. They're Jewish. Shit sucks. I spend all my money on water and food. Nearest city is 20 miles away. Cost of a cheap car would be what like $2k? Thats 4 more months of ranch hand work if I save $15/day. Bro I'd rather kms.

>>936613066
You think ICE would let me work for them? I have suicidal ideation, violence toward hospital personal and heavy drug abuse on my medical record. Does ice pull medical records same way that military does? Because these things aren't on my criminal record, just medical record, and I have ways around the grand theft auto charge (I more or less got it expunged)

>>936612230 (OP)
dude, u got an RV? sweet. I'm living in a subaru imprezza, leeching bookstore wifi from across a parking lot rn.

Don't do it, just figure out day to day. No pressure.

>>936613168
>wanted to do tours in war zones for years.
>4 months shoveling shit makes him break.

Psych evaluation is correct.
Military service is a tiny percentage killing people, if that is why you wanted to join, they have done a great job at keeping you where you should be.

Shovel horse shit you freak.

Do not darken my LZ with your weird shit again.

>>936613264
No one should help this guy, not only does he want to kill himself and other people, but he also thinks he should work for organisations that are there to keep people safe and protected.

I wish I had not bothered to offer any advice now.

What a clusterfuck of a human waste receptacle this guys head is.

>>936613359
The golden years of my life are literally slipping away other men my age are living the dream while I soak in misery stuck in a pit of hell tf you mean "No pressure"

Atleast you're working towards something. I'm just rotting.

>>936613406
You sound just like those stupid nurses. I would follow you home and grab a needle from a crackhead outside your shitty house and stick it in your arm while you sleep for saying that to me you little fuck I'm a great person, your moms black

>>936613528
Those 'stupid' nurses spent years studying in med school; they could outmatch you in any debate or job you can get yourself into.

If you tried to stick me with a needle I WOULD BLOW YOUR KNECAPS OFF WITH MY PISTOL AND THEN TAKE YOUR EYES OUT SO YOU COULD NOT DO IT AGAIN.

IF YOU HAD GOT IN THE MILITARY, YOUR BROTHERS WOULD HAVE SEEN THROUGH YOUR SHIT AND FORGOT TO HAVE YOUR BACK WHEN THE SHIT HIT THE FAN, THAT WOULD HAVE BEEN ALL YOU WERE THEERE TO DO, DIE.

>>936613528
I HAVE STUDIED YOUR CASE AND THIS IS YOUR SITUATION:

Jobs Typically Unavailable (Due to Criminal Record or Mental Health History):
1. Healthcare Professions
Nurse
Doctor
EMT / Paramedic
Mental health counselor
Any role involving direct patient care
Most healthcare licensing boards do criminal background checks and consider violent behavior and mental stability.

2. Law Enforcement / Security
Police officer
Correctional officer
FBI / CIA / federal agent
Armed security guard
Airport TSA agent
These roles require clean criminal records and psychological evaluations.

3. Military and Government
Military service (may be disqualified depending on severity and time passed)
Civil service positions requiring security clearance
Federal employment with sensitive access (e.g., NSA, DOD)

4. Education and Childcare
Teacher

School administrator
Childcare provider / daycare worker
School counselor
These positions involve children and require background checks. A violent incident like assault will usually disqualify applicants.

5. Aviation / Transportation
Commercial pilot
Train operator
Truck driver (depending on employer and licensing board)
Any job requiring a transportation security clearance

6. Finance and Banking
Positions involving fiduciary responsibility (e.g., stockbroker, bank manager)
Jobs requiring FINRA, SEC, or other financial regulatory approval
Mental health flags and violence may be deemed high risk in trust-based financial roles.

>>936613528

Other Jobs with Barriers (But Possible With Time, Disclosure, or Legal Steps):
Legal professions (lawyer, paralegal) – If licensed after full disclosure and rehabilitation.

Tech industry – Private employers may still check criminal background and mental health flags.

Government contracting – If a security clearance is required, the record may disqualify.

Private security (unarmed) – Often blocked due to assault history.

Customer-facing roles (e.g., airline attendant, hotel manager) – Employers may hesitate due to potential liability.

>>936613528
>>936613958
>>936613973
SO FUCK YOU VERY MUCH, YOU ARE SHOVELLING HORSESHIT TIL YOU ARE 40

>>936613782
You're clearly begging to suck my cock man. I'm sorry buddy I don't swing that way. Maybe you can lick my cum out of your sister's mouth if i tell her to let you though. Also your spaghetti arms would snap I bet I could rape you even if I were handcuffed

>>936614027
I bet I'll end up selling you fent one day. Im a God in a losers gambit. You're a loser who hasn't hit rock bottom yet. Yo ucan talk shit all you want, im never letting your shit filled ass anywhere near my phat COCK

>>936613264
I’m sure they’re looking for even worse dickheads by design

>>936614167
>>936614041
Shut up you indentured slave boy

>>936614041
>>936614167
yOU HAVE A CHILDS GRASP OF HOW TO INSULT, OF THE MILITARY AND OF WORK ETHIC. I HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF YOU, YOU ARE A CORPSE WAITING TO HAPPEN.

>>936614247
Aren't we all :)

>>936614225
We're all endentured slaves to Israel. Have fun paying your taxes

>>936614167
>You're a loser who hasn't hit rock bottom yet
BY YOUR POSTS IN THIS THREAD, I HAVE SPENT YEARS IN SITUATIONS THAT WOULD MAKE YOU KILL YOURSELF IN MINUTES. I AM A WINNER BECAUSE I DID NOT AND I ADAPTED AND IMPROVISED.

>>936614428
YEAH BUT SOME OF US ARE CLOSER THAN OTHERS, CASE IN POINT THE GUY WHO THINKS EATING WELL AND HAVING A ROOF OVER HIS HEAD IN A SUNNY COUNTRYSIDE IS ROCK BOTTOM.

I HAVE SPENT YEARS IN MENTAL INSTITUTIONS AND I AM NOT AS MISALIGNED AS YOU BY FAR, AND I NEVER SAW FIT TO ATTACK PEOPLE TRYING TO MAKE ME NOT ILL.

YOU ARE SCUM, I WOULD SWAP MY TOWN LIFE AND MY TRANSPORT FOR YOUR BEAUTIFUL RANCH LIFE IN A HEARTBEAT, IF I CARED ENOUGH TO BOTHER. GET YOURSELF CHECKED. YOU NEED A SHRINK.

>>936614648
You have no idea what you're talking about. Those nurses were not trying to help me. I like to joke around but I don't just go around assaulting randos. Those nurses were the devil incarnate and I was trying to release him from their flesh capsules. Besides who becomes a male nurse, you deserve to be socked in the mouth if you kidnap me, onject me with ketamine and try to take my wallet and strap me down. They were also thieves, and not to mention niggers. They stole a 20 put of my wallet probably to go buy some fried chicken.

i was in a similar situation in my early 20s, youll dig yourself out of it eventually but your life is going to be hell for a while
youll look back on this time with a chuckle and wonder how you had the strength to make it through it
>>936614788
oh youre a schizo
parents must’ve not beat you enough while you were growing up

>>936614483
But you’re actually a sharecropper. Young slave boy

>>936613359
ngl i read this and for some reason it made me hella sad. God im a faggot

>>936614788
They injected you with Thorazine or something like it. If they injected you with ket you shoupd be thanking them for the drugs. And I don’t believe the rest.

Did you even vote for trump?

>>936614483
THERE'S A GOOD LITTLE STEREOTYPICAL SHEEP, STAY BELIEVING THE MINORITY IS THE THREAT SO YOU CANNOT ACTUALLY FIND THEM WHEN YOU FLIP OUT, JUST LIKE THE GLOBALISTS INTEND ON THE MASSES
>>936614788
EVERY SYSTEM KNOWN TO MAN HAS BAD APPLES IN IT MOMENTARILY, YOU SILLY FUCKING PRICK.

IT IS NOT A CONSPIRACY, THEY DO NOT INJECT YOU WITH DRUGS THAT DO NOT STOP YOUR INSANITY, FOR 20 BUCKS YOU ARE GOING TO HATE EVERY NURSE IN THE PROFESSION? WHAT A CATASTROPHIC NON-INTELLIGENCE.

I HAVE LITTLE INTEREST IN YOUR CHILD-LIKE DRIBBLING.
I HAVE HAD MORE REASONABLE CONVERSATIONS ON WARDS WITH THE DEFINITELY INSANE.

Kilo squad, command relay, how copy?
Kilo squad receiving

Desist operations against ineffective civilian targets; the clarity of might vs combatants must be maintained.

Squad to strategically withdraw and rest until the next mission relay. Command out.

Kilo squad confirms orders. Kilo out.

'In the journey towards light, many darknesses must be navigated, each distinctly different from the last. Let us not bend to believe we are immune to impaired vision, as our pride would dictate in our battles, when we believe we have right on our side. It is each man who has right on his side in different moments. Lest we forget.'

>>936612230 (OP)
reddit.com/r/japan/comments/2hy4fu/bbc_news_why_japans_beaches_are_deserted_despite/

Since you have a medical history talk to chatgpt about your condition. Find out about the steps you need to take to get any benefits you can. Health and human services / social services should be contacted. Find out about if you can get money or reduce your problems due to your condition.
Look into low income programs. There is a program for damn near everything if you qualify. Cars are expensive since he government likes to stick its nose in your business. Consider saving for an electric scooter. Talk to the local charities, churches, or the suicide hotline to see if there is any help they can offer or direction to point you in.
Maybe start a monetized channel about your job. Be wary of pissing off your boss as they may not appreciate it if you do. If you can find some public woods that you can do as you please in you might be able to make one of those build neat looking shelters in the woods channels that rake in hundreds of thousands of views.