I pulled the trigger on the .45 my grandfather left to me. The spring for the firing pin was missing, I guess he lost it when he was cleaning it or something. Needless to say I'm still here and I've been trying to get better but it's just not happening. I've decided I still want to check out but it's given me pause to consider the pain or even the possibility of survival if I do it incorrectly.
Now that I've got the gun operational I'm too much of a pussy to pull the trigger again. I've tried asphyxiation too but couldn't commit because of the pain. What say you, /b/, any advice on the mechanics or methods of suicide? I can't afford much but I could maybe get some poison or medications. I just want a way out that won't be agonizing.
>>936618786 (OP)Gunshot to the head with a shotgun will do it for sure. Dont think I could do it any other way bc I’m a pussy and don’t wanna feel any pain whatsoever
>>936618786 (OP)nigga that was a gift, not an accident. keep livin your life and stfu
>>936618786 (OP)maybe listen to what the universe is telling you nigger
keep going
>>936618786 (OP)stop being a coward and show us your dick
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>>936618786 (OP)keep living you dumb faggot
maybe gramps was watching over your candy ass because killing yourself is never the move
How about you don’t try again. Life can get better. There are always ways out that don’t end with you dead. I really hope you try to get the help you need anon. Please, just ask someone for help.
>>936618872I've thought about that, I do have a 12 gauge but I really don't want to risk getting the angle wrong and the length of even a sawed off like the one I have makes it difficult to aim. Trying to go through the forehead and angled slightly down to hit the brain stem as well and with a long gun I'm concerned that it'll slip or something and just take off my frontal lobe and leave me alive but hooked to machines.
Anyone trying to talk me out of it, I appreciate it but don't waste your time. I don't want to post my whole sob story here but I'm just done being alive
>>936618786 (OP)Shotgun would be my ticket out, if I was born in a country with basic human rights that is.
I've got 50ft of rope rated to 1200lbs of tensile strength, read into the history of hanging as capital punishment, and for your average person, anything over an 8ft drop is nearly guaranteed to decapitate you, worst case you're still snapping vertebrae for an instant lights out.
Pro tip, don't put the hangman's knot behind/to the side of your chin like in the movies. Place it directly under the chin.
>>936618786 (OP)please dont. i know im a total stranger but things will get better. i was in ur place too but now look at me. heres a peanuts comic for morale
>>936618786 (OP)the best i ever got with my
>>936618786 (OP)Back in 1994 when i was 14teen I was well beyond depressed because of reasons I'll spare you the boo hoo's Of my shitty life. I had a friend who's father was a aux Police officer and he had two 38 specials pistols. I use to go shooting with him and his dad as his dad felt sorry for me as he knew what happened. I one day went over and took the stub nosed 38 and planed on going in to the woods and ending my life. The firearm had rounds in it and i stuck it in my pocket and quickly left his house. I ran to the woods both crying and joyful it was soon going to be over. I pulled the trigger back as taught as its a double action. Put the gun to my head and pulled the trigger. It make a loud Click noise.. Loud enough to ring my ear. The Gun did not fire. I pulled the trigger 5 more time each time was like the last. Click and loud ringing. I pulled the pin open the cylinder and every round was a practice round with no primer! In my retarded i wanna end it state of mind i did not notice this till it was too late.. I spent the next 45 mins screaming culled up in the mud crying. I failed! i wanted to die. But death would only laugh in my retarded face.. Im glad to see some one else has had luck spare them.. I know people say things get better with time, and its true. it dose. Time heals all wounds, but it leaves scars! If you can understand what im trying to say.. Those scars are less painful then the loss of your life to those who care about you. it may not seem like there's no one around who dose . but trust me there is. if not now then later in life. It was not till i turned 35 that i met some one who pulled my ass out of depression and wishing and planing death. This lovely women is my wife now of 7 years and shes shown me even tho your gone and going through some real tough shit. Keep going because in the end your gonna find what your looking for and thats not death.. Seriously hope you reach out and find some one to talk too. Please be well
>>936621219There are phone numbers you can call or speak to people who will listen. As death is not the answer. it may seem like it! But it's not.. Take this from some one with three failed attempts under his retarded belt.. Its not.. Please go call or speak to some one.. Please. sadly i gotta run otherwise i would talk to you more.. Please call any prevention line and just talk.. its Anon and safe..
>>936621219>>936621289not OP but good insight dug!
>>936618786 (OP)My advice is don't kill yourself. You live in the 21st century where technology has advanced to the point where life can be pretty comfortable. If you want to die in this day where we have unlimited distractions to deal with boredom and medicine to deal with mental illness and pain, then the problem is one that you created in your head, not one that is impossible to solve.
OP here, in full disclosure I'm not even reading your comments if the first few words sounds like some faggy feelings shit. Thanks for the few honest suggestions
>>936624478Isn't your whole thread about some faggy feelings shit? Just saying
