>>936814900alright I suppose I'll divulge a little bit.
It was just years and years of (what I didn't realize at the time, not until I was like 20 and had a massive, suicidal breakdown upon the realization) sexual abuse from friends and family, luckily cousins and nobody in my direct family.
I'm talking, daily or at least almost daily from 5 - 12 years old, mostly with a "friend" who I truly believed was my friend because I knew no better, who was about 3 years older than me, so 8 when I was 5 and so on, who introduced me to basically everything, had me suck him off and legitimately fuck me many times, I loved almost every second of it but it was also all VERY confusing of course, I was angry and depressed all the time and nobody knew why, not even me.
When he wasn't around my older female cousin would be in his place, started by pretending to fall asleep on me and grind on me until she came, I had no idea what was going on there until later in life, but also had me finger and eat her out.
and when it wasn't her it was an older neighbour, would've been around 14 when I was maybe 9? mutual masturbation and head again.
spent almost ever solitary moment on a computer watching porn from that point on until that breakdown I mentioned, worst 5 ish years of my life but I'm somehow in the best mental and physical state I've ever been in now, weird how that worked out.
