>>936917440 (OP)OP I think this might be a You problem. I'm in my 30s, grew up on the internet, saw all sorts of fucked up porn and pornstars from aged 9 onwards because my parents didn't know how to secure a computer. Regularly got sent nasty shit by friends because we just did that back in the day.
Followed a bunch of porn stars pretty closely as I was growing up. Even interacted with hentai artists on the regular (back in the day when no one on the internet told anyone their age, or any real details about themselves).
I turned out normal. Got a good job at the moment, a wife, a house, and a normal sex life apart from one or two more niche kinks, but nothing weird like cuckshit or rimming. Apart from the fact I can't leave this godforsaken place and have been here since 09, I'm ""normal"".
I think you might just be having some sort of warped trauma response to seeing porn at a young age. Genuinely maybe just consider therapy?