>>937002110You're depressed.
Stop smoking weed first of all. Getting high just saps your motivation and energy.
You need to take responsibility to fix your mood. I'm not going to tell you how to do it because I think you need to find that basic initiative to help yourself.
I think the problem in your life is you've been told what to do too much by everyone around you and you basically have little executive functioning.
Which is why you give up on so many things. A relationship isn't the answer because you can't even take care of yourself right now.
As for your shitty parents you need to grow up and take your own actions independent of them. They're not your guardians anymore and probably secretly want you to move on, even if they're dysfunctional bullshit is keeping you stuck.
The biggest problem with your generation is you just don't know how to help yourself. And I honestly think it's a consequence of adults not letting you do fucking anything other than gaming, getting high, and staying isolated on the internet all day.