>>937092234
I dreamt I was a child again and my dad had remarried an iranian woman and I had a part-iranian half-sibling. My stepmum was asking me for help because my half-brother had locked himself in one of the bathrooms in our house for most of the day and wasn't answering. I helped break the door down, and found he'd hanged himself from the pipes to the cistern above the toilet, using a washing-line. I called 999 while my step-mum screamed and cried, they told me to do CPR, but I told them the body was cold and it was too late. Then my dad was threatening me to be careful what I said to the paramedics, that he smacked my half-brother the same as he smacked me but it wasn't abuse. I wanted to stand up to him, but I caved in and agreed that he hadn't gone so far as to break the law as it was, but I did think it was abuse. I rationalised to myself that it was probably growing up in a mix of cultures/races that was part of it, but I still blamed my dad for what happened.
