>>937097982The brain is a mysterious thing. It could be a chemical imbalance, it could be your mind just fucking with you and by extension itself, maybe you need to get some sunlight or deal with the things you're going through instead of thinking acid will be the catch all solution. Your grandpa died, you're unemployed, you're aimless and want some direction. You're allowed to grieve and process it, you're allowed to have an outlet as long as it helps instead of acting like a band aid that doesn't help in the long term. You need down time too after the work.