>went to a massage parlor right now
>be me a 26 year old man
>I haven’t felt an intimate touch in so long
>feel so ugly
>feel so unwanted
>at the parlor
>a lady greets me
>she’s older, but an attractive woman
>45 dollars for 30 minutes
>lays me down naked
>decent massage, then the flip
>whole time I’m struggling to breath because I’m so nervous
>ask me if I wanted a blowjob off the bat and if I wanted to eat her out
>I had no condom so I declined
>she starts stroking my dick
>occasionally rubbing my asshole
>I’m in physical bliss
>forget about everything in life
>time is running out and I’m not cumming
>tell her I should go
>she tells me it’s okay and tries to make me cum after our time ran out
>tell her it’s no use
>get up and give her a hundred dollars which is how much I had in my pocket
>she looks at me and puts me back on the table
>she brings her face closer to mine
>she tells me I’m so handsome
>I begin to cry
>she asks me “what’s wrong?”
>I tell her I am alone
>she then starts to kiss me
>we start making out for about ten minutes while she strokes my dick some more
>she’s kissing my neck and moaning
>I’m kissing her neck and breathing heavily
>she cleans me up
>she tells me her real name
>tells me she is from china
>she is a very pretty woman
>I get dressed
>I leave
>walk back to my car in shame
>leave

I don’t want to ever do that ever again. I feel like a scumbag the way I used this woman. I don’t want to be 40 and like this. Why is life so fucking isolating? I just want someone to look at me and want me :(

Well?

>>937122553
I think maybe that some people in this life are meant to be alone. Maybe I am one of them. If I were to outlive my parents, and my siblings, the people I’m closest to, then I will have nothing.

I will be an old man in an empty house. I will die alone, and my body probably wouldn’t be found until weeks later. It’s a reality that many people live and die with.

I just can’t do it anymore. It’s like everyone I meet wants nothing to do with me.

>>937122676
why do you think people want nothing to do with you?

>>937122676
I know how you feel anon
I hold out hope that it will get better
Not sure how or why but i do

>>937122400 (OP)
Damn dude, I feel that shit. My asian massage spot one of the girls jerked me off to completion and I left feeling weird about ever coming back. My back and leg muscles were sore, wasn't expecting my dick being stroked. I paid for an hour like I have many times before. This time the woman didn't ask or even care. She just grabbed it and stroked with both her hands fingers interwoven. Now I go to the hand and stone place at the mall. Not your typical guy reaction. I wasn't asked man, bitch just did it and I paid 60 for the hour, no tip and they lost a customer.

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