I fucking hate myself.
I hate how I have to keep myself locked up for everyone to tolerate me, I hate hearing speak their delusions while they shut me out, I hate how I have to just deal with everyone while everyone rejects me.
Why am I so worthless? Why can't you see me? Why the fuck do you act like a goddamn know-it-all and have the right to put me down? Why can't you tell me how to talk to you? Why can't you tell me what to do? How can I be good for anyone? I'm worthless and have no value, and I just wanna know why the fuck are you allowed to be crazy and talk down to me about my pain? What the fuck do I have to do to be worthy for anything? I keep on trying to follow the rules only to learn it's all bullshit and it means nothing! It pisses me off, I don't know what the fuck to do, I'm just so fucking frustrated and dumb

>>937169053 (OP)
>I hate how I have to keep myself locked up
what does this mean? Can you be less cryptic?
> I hate how I have to just deal with everyone while everyone rejects me.
why so vague? You've raged a lot but haven't said much.

>>937169053 (OP)
I'm sorry for your pain bro.

>>937169053 (OP)

>>937169590
I think and say weird things and I just wanna be part of the status quo so I don't have to think about what the right/wrong thing to say is. The one thing that really upsets me, despite all of that, is even though I want to be normal, there are people who succeed in putting their personal madness to creativity and I am not worthy to create something meaningful and/or beautiful out of the way I think.

I'm just miserable because I'm not good enough. I'm not normal enough to integrate with regular people, but I'm not crazy and skilled enough to make something meaningful out of the abomination that lives in my core! The more I think about it the more I hate it! I just want to be a normal human!

>>937169663
I appreciate you responding to me. I am in the mood to scream into the void, thank you for saying something

>>937169053 (OP)
You're close to being free from what others think, don't give up.

Show relentless outward confidence and smile always.

post a selfie bro, i want to see how ugly you are

I bet that will explain everything 100%