basically he beat me and yelled at me
also beat my mom, while shes pregnant
i cant stand being called by name now, because he used to yell at me with it
i keep getting nightmares about him, and i'm 19
i HATE HIM SO FUCKING MUCH
i did fight him physically once

god i hate him so much i just can't stand him at all

>>937401159 (OP)
Lulz glownigger swine lulz death to all faggots hail satan 666 kill yourself jewish glowniggerswine cancer to your people lulz

>>937401159 (OP)
I should have sex with you anon, i will prepare the lube

>>937401159 (OP)
get over it fag

>>937401159 (OP)
Beat his head with a hammer. Eat his remains.

>>937401159 (OP)
anon it's not always a good idea to post on 4chan about your situation
having an abusive father can be really traumatic
I can see from your post that you weren't given much love or care as a kid
maybe your mother too couldn't really do anything
but whatever it is I'm still an outsider with no intospect I don't know how hard is it for you
getting over trauma is a hard thing to do it may take weeks or a big unit of time but it is possible
and do not hate yourself or think what you're feeling is wrong
it's okay

>>937401159 (OP)
Have you tried going to trauma therapy? Enacting law enforcement?