>>937561632
It may or may not help you, but when I left home to study at my Uni, I realized I was kind of an asshole because of my parents and wanted to change myself. No fucking clue how, and I was an introvert, but I had just went from a small town near the end of the continent to the biggest city in the country, so I took the chance of being unknown to start talking to people and defeat my shyness. Worst comes to worst, there's no repercussions for what happens because nobody will know or remember me later, so no fear to getting shamed for failing. It took me hundreds of approaches, but as years passed I got more comfortable around people and grew less hateful of society, less scared of people rejecting me. A couple more years and I even got "popular" enough I could choose who I got to be around with, who to date, etc. As I grew more confident, I started accepting the more dorky side of me, to the point I didn't give a fuck if people rejected my likes, after all I could just find another person who shares my interests, in fact the earlier they reject me for my likes the better, as I could spend that time with other people. So it all went around to me going back to how I was when I was much younger, but without the resentment, fears or doubts. Needless to say, that whole journey was still important and fun for me, and made me how I am today.
Point is, try and find your own way to make your journey, take baby steps at first, it doesn't matter, just start walking and you'll get at the end sometime, I'm sure of it.
