I live in finland in kuhmo in a house with only my 64 year old mom and my 37 year old codependent brother and 34 year old another brother who's borderline nonverbal who never leaves his room I'm 27

I'm so isolated here. I lost my friends and now i think my irl friend was some interdimensional demon to waste my time and fill me with fake hope and that my Canadian friends were glowies designed to do the same

And that doctors and psychiatrists were also demons

And that finland is an actual isolation torture experiment

I don't feel well at all

This is a picture of me

And now I'm waking up at 9 am local time
2 am in Ottawa

It's gonna be another long isolating day and I feel awful already

Why am I doing this anyway
I think you're all demons too
And bots

Because this is just a bot mirror of 4chan designed just for me filled with no sense and no real people and just demons

>>938168099
Dress well, go out, and get a girlfriend.

I feel like I'm in hell and I'm being used for torture experiments

>>938168137
The people here are idiots.

I recommend you not to come back.

>>938168064 (OP)
you never had friends and you let your mental illness drive away anybody who shows sympathy or attempts to get closer to you. this cycle will never end, it only gets worse. You will die alone, hopefully soon.

All of this feels so intentional

>>938168064 (OP)
poor thing:( i just wanna hug you

>>938168200
I recommend you keep your mouth shut.

Worst thing is that it all really feels true

Social media has ruined people
Modern society is so fucked

People are so fucked

Even if this were true what I'm saying no one would care because that's how fucked it all has gotten

>>938168064 (OP)
>>938168191
More feet pics slut

>>938168064 (OP)
You're right. You're not.

>>938168228
and I recommend freezing rather than drying your pepper crop, if you haven't seen OPs posts get steadily more deranged over the last 4 years I recommend lurking more

>>938168312
i can save her

>>938168064 (OP)
You’re falling into psychosis

Terkut ja tsempit sinne Kuhmoseen. Kaikki kääntyy hyvin.

>>938168368
Doctors and psychiatrists here have been really bad for me

And Finland is an awful country for someone like me

Of course it's affecting my mental health negatively

>>938168286
Which brother fucks you the best?

>>938168402
You need to take your pills for it to be helpful

>>938168064 (OP)
oh christ, you're not even in the dark time, clean your suna might be exposing yourself to filth, go hit the library, good shit there.

>>938168064 (OP)
First decide WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT. I mean, decide what do you want to do with your life. You want to take care of your mother? You want to take care of your retarded brothers? Or you want to leave finland and find someone to live woth? Or you want to get fucked? Decide gigafag....

It actually feels like my childhood ophthalmologist who gave me dexamethasone drops into my right eye for like 7 years and got me to have surgery done by her husband was some kind of actual satanist larper

>>938168555
I've wanted to leave Finland since I was a kid

I can't pay my bills because I'm not getting welfare anymore because those doctors just being forced to meet them is so awful.

It's so fucking stressful

I'm just one of those people who are at the dead end of a maze with no real way out.

Everything's been so fucked

And now I'm cornered.

Just entirely cornered with no way out

Taking pictures like this makes me feel better?

The problem is too that

No one is willing to take responsibility or even admit that things are actually fucked for me and have been fucked by others

Everyone's just telling ME to take responsibility like this is all my fault

>>938168570
>my childhood ophthalmologist who gave me dexamethasone drops into my right eye for like 7 years
I know this part definitely makes actual doctors go like "WHAT THE FUCK"
Too bad as a kid I didn't know how fucked up that drug is and what kind of damage It does.

How could she prescribe something like that for so long.

Of course my right eye has all these problems now

ohhh boo fucking hoo. A long series of bad decisions lead you to be a retarded fag. You know the problems and you know the fucking solutions youre just a spineless do-nothing coward who is unwilling to put in the work because its uncomfortable. You know youre already suffering but are somehow unwilling to suffer the work needed to correct your life. Youre weak is what you are. Either you fucking want it or you dont. If youre going to suffer anyway then just fucking do what you know you need to do to correct your life or shut the fuck up and stop sharing your suffering with others in a desperate attempt to garner pity.

>>938168958
But no one intervened anyway

I kept being given more and more fucked up mods for things I never even got sick from I never had any problems other than the fucked up side effects of all those drugs I had no problems at all....

I really hope you'll find peace in your life. Society fucks over so many people....

Yeah... "a satanist larper doctor cult is gangstalking me and has been doing experiments on me since i was a child and I'm isolated from the world in this faraway small town and nobody cares" is endstage schizophrenia but...

It just...

It just feels too dangerously real...

...fuck...

I just don't know. I really don't.

>>938168064 (OP)
Your problem is sex addiction. There is more meaning to life than cooming, Anon.

Dedicate your life to a creative pursuit instead. If you are too dumb or untalented to create, build something. It doesn't matter what.

Focusing on jorkin your peen and when you can do it again is 100% the reason for your misery. Stop it. Get some help.

And yeah, it is all your fault. Every time you think "You know what will make me happy? Sexual attention", you just dig your way deeper into hell.

I really understand how people feel before they kill themselves.

The hopelessness, the isolation despair.

This place is awful and even the mere voices of my codependent 37 year old brother conversing with my mom in their hypnotic tone ramblings...

I can't anymore

I want out

>>938169175
please don't

>>938169202
I wouldn't know how anyway

>>938169210
Do you know how to not touch your dick?

Start with that. Go from there.

Still just 3 am in Ottawa...

10 am in finland...

It's so fucking early. .. FUCKKKKKKK

I feel so awful and trapped.

A vice gripping my chest i can't escape.

Nobody cares even if it were all real

>>938168064 (OP)
SÖPÖLIINI!

>>938168064 (OP)
>>938168099
>>938168191
>>938168757
you would make a great pet

>>938169760
Thanks. I do have fun sometimes. Sometimes things don't feel like they do now but they do often honestly it's bad and it's awful

These pics are fun to take when I do even tho I got a lot of problems with some stuff

And all this isolation and stuff

I'd wanna go to Toronto and go to nightclubs and stuff tho they probably suck these days we need a new bdsm cellar scene in Toronto or Montreal

I don't have schizophrenia

I have a dissociative trauma thing going on.

And of course I'm never gonna get help for it in finland.

That's just really it.

It's just stagnation and misery in this remote finland town.

Oh, yeah and rest of finland is even worse by the way that this smal town.

It really is from my perspective.

This is basically the best place in finland and I'm not leaving this place for any other place in finland.

Even if Russia were to attack finland I'd still not leave for any other place in finland.

It's either Kuhmo or Canada.

>>938169948
>Even if Russia were to attack finland I'd still not leave for any other place in finland.
Honestly if this happened and Finland would try forcing me to evacuate into some awful dungeon basement "bunker" somewhere in finland

I would not comply.

It feels like my family is satanists too despite being super religious tho obviously like attracts like huh?

But it is a narcissistic family there's no doubt about that. Highly disturbed dysfunctional family system in which I am the scapegoat.

Of course this shit feels satanistic.

>>938168064 (OP)
Sorry to hear but you've gotta look after yourself.

>>938168064 (OP)
Come move in with me.
You will be very happy.

Oh well.

I'm getting up now to smoke weed lol.

Uhh yeah wrote some crazy stuff I guess hm yeah there are a lot of stupid people on this planet yeah and I'm sure there are larpers too but who cares they're all just idiots

>>938170259
Take a naked pic with the weed for me please??

>>938170304
It's too bright outside to be naked sorry and even then not rly in the mood

I'd wanna dress up and stuff makeup even maybe but I just don't have the mood.

Even then it's just sad because what the fuck am I gonna do? There's no real clubs here or any opportunities for anything real. Sorry.

Here's an earlier picture tho

Man that was a lot of grim text but
Honestly I feel better now.

Saying all that stuff honestly bringing it out helped a bit

Now I'm gonna smoke weed which finland "expert" doctors claim will make things worse but nope lmao.

Thanks

>>938170352
Oh well thanks anyway. You're so pretty. My poor finnish princess :(

>>938168064 (OP)
KAT? my love i wish i could move with you and take care of you

>>938168064 (OP)
1) lol gayfag
2) i know this is sweden, but

>>938171658
how deep in the radiation are you

>>938168064 (OP)
And I'd still trade with you in a second just be a Fennoscandian national. There, I fucking said it.

>>938171658
she's got the cute finnic flattish fave with a dash or aryan(swedish) pale and blonde, she's perfect

>>938171693
literally did not ask about any of that, nor do i care

>>938171703
damn i thought you maybe were one of those geography/race-autists, they are fun

>>938171731
no i was trying to scare OP into thinking xey were poisoned by radioactive fallout

>>938171760
leave my future wife alone faggot

>>938171772
you should wear blackface with that white knight armor, for the lulz of course

>>938168831
Good lord I can feel the depression in this picture.

>>938171664
This got me interested in how the radiation from Chernobyl spread.

>>938171829
iirc the wind carried north, that's why swedish was the first to complain, belarussians are perennially unlucky

>>938171829
high winds mostly, anything above 300m sea level got hit with the fallout

>>938171795
i'm just really into this troon okay?

>>938168064 (OP)
he needs more than a paper bag to cover his face , he needs a body bag because damn ugly

>>938171818
I was actually feeling pretty alright when i took that tho I did cry but yeah there was nice stuff that day tho I had some stress

>>938171863
thats fine but you seem desperate which is just a weak look

This schizo again.
U really need to be taken to mental hospital. Again.
And remember to post photos this time aswell

Terveisiä seinäjoelta söppänä :D

>>938171852
>>938171861
Looks as if it spread in every direction, hence my interest. It went west as well, according to the map.

>>938171882
not desperate for all sluts or trannies, just this one specifically, i've liked her for years, i haven't been here in like 2 months and i come back and i see her, it's a sign

>>938171932
there's still increased radiation levels in mushrooms from austria, it's nuts

>>938171877
Did you masturbate that day? How often do you masturbate?

>>938171950
Thanks it's nice to know there are people who care in a positive way

>>938171987
it's a silly online crush, but, i kinda worry about her mental health, kat leave the weed for a while, stop lainposting

>>938172206
if anything OP needs to get out of that living situation ASAP

aint no way anybody can heal in that kinda environment

>>938171918
Thanks. There are good people in this country too bad these unfortunate experiences have made me feel a certain way about the place. The geographical isolation from Canada is just a big problem that's all.


>>938172206
Weed is pretty neutral

>>938172241
It's better than it was before the biggest issue is the stagnation and lack of opportunity and there being no prospects

qmud

>>938168064 (OP)
kannattaa harkita itsemurhaa.

>>938173921
>>938173921
what i don't speak elvish

>>938174265
are you OP?t

>>938174576
no he's not

but yeah i have no money to pay the bills so i probably have like this year of internet left in finland before they close my service for not paying lol

15k in student loan debt
1k in credit card debt

lol

>>938174736
>>938174736
real talk babygirl, REAL FUCKING TALK, not to stress you out, but, you REALLY, like FUCKING R.E.A.L.L.Y. just NEED to get your shit together

>>938175052
not worth it in finland.

yeah thats right i just walked out of the last psychiatrist appointment the moment it was clear that it was just fucked up.

no.

FUCK THEM

FUCK PSYCHIATRISTS FUCK DOCTORS IN FINLAND

I FUCKING HATE THEM SO FUCKING MUCH

EITHER I GET MY NEETBUX AUTOMATICALLY NOW OR FUCK YOUY

THAT SHIT WAS FUCKING AWFUL

>>938172241
>aint no way anybody can heal in that kinda environment
you're right

https://www.reddit.com/r/Suomi/comments/1mkpci0/ei_s%C3%A4hk%C3%B6j%C3%A4_ruoka_ruokajonoista_ja_ei_varaa/

Classic Finnish denialism and victim blaming in this thread too

Just wow

its just so fucking apathetic

>>938168064 (OP)
well op I think u botched the board and are in need of a reroll. log off and find the nearest sheet of ice. Dig out a hole and slip under. the next go around will probably be better. at least one of your family members is non verbal and won't be able to express sadness over your loss. Also probably the rest of your family because you look the way you do

Im assuming ur a tranny or some shit, if u somehow happen to not be a tranny, stop being a gsy faggot and go to the gym. also family is gay, just live ur own life, nobody made u responsible for your retard brother and codependent brother.

>>938175309
wtf man, unhelpful bastard, take your own advice and sleep with some icefishes yourself

OP, I am telling you, whatever you do with your life, you NEED to, for at LEAST a month
stay the FUCK away from:
1. weed
2. 4chan
3. isolation
in that fucking order, even

>>938175446
that is not very helpful advice

>>938168064 (OP)
>glowies
It's over for you. I'm sorry

>>938175468
if you're not OP, fuck off
if you're OP, explain why

>>938175603
it's literal non-advice. might as well just say "fuck you"

>>938168831
It's not your fault.

But you still need to take responsibility for your own life and reactions. You can't change anything that happened, but you need to decide how to move forward. You need to make the active choice to choose happiness and move on/accept the negatives in your life, not give in to depression and isolation because it's comfortable.

>>938175690
ChatGPT advice is especially non-advice.

>>938175708
Lmfao I literally just typed that out my guy. Holy shit if you can't help yourself then go fuck yourself.

>>938175718
...yeah... thanks

alright okay let's go through your advice then.
> but you need to decide how to move forward.
uh huh what does it look like im trying to do
> You need to make the active choice to choose happiness and move on/accept the negatives in your life,
uh huh yeah what am i doing right now?
>not give in to depression
yep doing that all the time
>and isolation
look at the fucking map
> because it's comfortable.
uhh, i'm expressing discomfort here.

>>938175617
nah u right, you shouldn't do any of that basic obvious shit to stop your life from crumbling
keep avoiding your anti-psych meds, keep doing your psychoactive drug, and keep just sitting pretty and waiting for some rich-fuck canadian born-and-bred sugardaddy playboy multi-millionaire to specificly be looking for a poor incoherent scandinavian tranny to make his own personal Cinderella

stupid girl.

>>938175760
Look at your behavior here. This looks like the constant cycle you go through, based off of everything everyone else has said in this thread.

>Someone tries to help you
>You push them away
>They get mad
>You fuel the self hatred

You have to break from that cycle man. As I said, giving into depression and isolation is comfortable. Stop defaulting to that.

>>938175804
>keep avoiding your anti-psych meds,
yeah the drugs they keep pushing me are dopamine blocking neuroleptics which are basically the opposite of what i'd probably need given my obvious ADHD.
> because it's comfortable.
yeah weed is unironically far better than any of the shit they're trying to push on me.
> and keep just sitting pretty and waiting for some rich-fuck canadian born-and-bred sugardaddy playboy multi-millionaire to specificly be looking for a poor incoherent scandinavian tranny to make his own personal Cinderella
i wouldnt take on such a proposition anyway. it's just not worth it.

>>938175837
No one is really trying to help.

>>938175853
Like, okay. I get that they're giving advice.

But they don't realize that the advice they're giving is simply not applicable.

And since it's the same advice time after time.

No real interest in actually learning about what the fuck is going on.

It's just.

Not helpful at all!

>>938168064 (OP)
Sorry you're having a rough time. I still think you're the cutest trap on this site.

>>938175853
There are plenty of people here that are trying to help. I was trying to give you legitimate advice. Take your meds. I know dopamine blocking neuroleptics can worsen depression, but you seem to have a delusion that no one is trying to help which is causing isolistic behaviour.

>>938175929
thanks. i try hard sometimes. i even work hard but obviously uhhh

it's just not counted as real work because le real work is only stuff you get le hecking paid for at company whatever

ugh you get the idea

i'm just used to all this shit
yeah it's been shit all the time

growing up shit was crazy
its crazy now!

but yeah! its just fucking impossible to fucking do anything in finland people are so fucking unaware just how fucking cut-off from the world living in finland is lmaoaoaoaoaooaoaa

>>938175913
Have you ever considered trying to follow the advice you're given?

What exactly do you need? What are you looking for?

>>938168831

ik ur going thru smth but so am i so would u hypothetically let me cut u while u wore this?

>>938175991
Right to work and live in Canada without all that impossible bureaucratic shit in the way.

>>938176009
Do you think that will solve (or significantly help) the problems both mentally and in your life that you are dealing with?

Also I'm sorry you're trying to get through the visa process in Canada. I know they've been tightening things up here due to a recent influx of visas since covid. I imagine it's a lot more difficult these days.

Yeah, the problem really is largely solvable by letting me be officially Canadian so I can actually fucking move to Canada.

>>938176058
>Do you think that will solve (or significantly help) the problems both mentally and in your life that you are dealing with?
YES.

CONSIDERING I'VE WANTED TO MOVE TO CANADA SINCE FUCKING CHILDHOOD

>>938176072
I will give you a warning, just a simple grass is always greener warning.

I feel fucked, and I have a decent work from job home and friends in a nice city in southern Ontario. Canada is kinda fucked right now, with the two party political divide bleeding into our politics, overpopulation due to immigration, severe lack of housing, and no jobs. My company works mostly in the US, and I have been concerned about being laid off. If I'm laid off, I won't be able to find a job easily. I know some people who haven't had a job for over a year.

Now I've been to Finland, and I know it's not fantastic there either. Canada might be better, but it's not going to be fantastic and I honestly don't think it will solve all your issues. You seem to have created this scenario in your head where Canada will solve all your problems, but I promise you as soon as that happens, you will be filled with disillusionment.

And then you won't have a dream to look forward to as an escape, and it will be even darker.

Here's my advice - I know life sucks. Do your absolute best to be happy with what you have, and keep working towards that dream of coming to Canada. Just.. don't rely on it to get you out of this mental state, because it won't.

>>938176239
even without reading its obvious this is the same timewasting concern trolling wall of text saying "ackshuallyyyy you dont wanna move to canadaaa its not really differentttt ive been to finland its actually not too bad..."

fuck you garbage RCMP agent

>>938176239
Fuck off RCMP-GPT

>>938176239
you fucking piece of shit

>>938176239
you are the reason why this planet SUCKS

>>938176273
>>938176007

i'd fr aftercare u too like cmon one lil nibble or smth

>>938176273
>>938176283
gg, this chick is donezo, cooked, too far gone

inb4 "i was trying to help you're an asshole fuck you you deserve to feel bad!"

>>938176273
Man I've been back and forth with you for a while, you might not realize it's been the same person. You've now told me to fuck myself twice, first for sounding like chatGPT, and then responded nicely in between.

Maybe fix your attitude towards people trying to help you out. That'll be a start. Until then, honestly, fuck you. You're sitting here all "boo hoo I'm so sad give me advice but ONLY WHAT I WANT TO HEAR I NEED AN ECHO CHAMBER OF MY MISERY".

You push people away. You're being toxic as hell. People don't want to be around you because you're not willing to help yourself and you lash out at those trying to help.

Take a fucking reality check.

i have the bullshit tolerance of a glowie but i dont have the glowie means of moving to canada from finland which is basically required in this situation

so yeah. all this fucking non-advice every fucking thing

i've just witnessed it all already. people don't give a fuck and only wanna pretend to help at most and get upset when the people who's going through actual shit doesn't act the way they want them to

ugh yeah you know it

>>938176410
>Maybe fix your attitude
LMAO
> people trying to help you out.
LMAO!
> Until then, honestly, fuck you
hahahaha YEAH RIGHT?

>>938175972
That really sucks. I don't have much to do today, so I'll hang out with you until 404. Anything good happen this week?

>>938176410
>Take a fucking reality check.
reality check is that i live in the middle of nowhere finland where it's hard as fuck to move even to a city WITHIN FINLAND

AND THNERES FUCK ALL HERE!!!!!!

AND FINLAND HAS NO FUCKING ECONOMY

AND EVEN THEN

IVE JUST WANTED TO MOVE TO CANADA SINCE I WAS A KID

AND JUST READ THE FUCKING THREAD

SHIT IS FUCKED

>>938176432
You pathetic self centered motherfucker. How do you know the shit I'm going through isn't actual shit? I'm just dealing with it better than you. Also, it's not too much to ask to not be a cunt to people.

timestamps or gtfo

huutista

>>938176500
well we're not talking about your shit are we?
i'm venting MY shit here!

and chances are you most likely arent as isolated as i am and have access to CANADA PROBABLY! I DONT HAVE ACCESS TO FUCKING ANYTHING!

>>938176345
>>938168064 (OP)

pls?..

>>938176500
>Also, it's not too much to ask to not be a cunt to people.
GOOD JOB SAYING THIS SHIT TO ME LMAO AS IF PEOPLE AREN'T CUNTY JUDGMENTAL FUCKS WHEN IT COMES TO EVEN THE MOST BASIC THINGS ABOUT ME LIKE HOW I FUCKIN CHOOSE TO DRESS

BUT I DONT WANNA GET INTO THAT

BECAUSE I HATE TRANNY IDPOL GARBAGE AND JUST WANNA FUCKING BE

BUT STILL

PROBLEMS REMAIN

So yeah.

I'd really just like to move to Canada.

I can't.

I get frustrated and angry and upset and increasingly more unwell due to the isolation of being stuck in you know, fucking Finland!

Woah!

>>938176559
Man, you really have a self centered victim mentality.

Good luck.

>>938176660
I don't care about that.

I'm just really trying to get you to understand that

I CANT ESCAPE THIS SITUATION WITHOUT REAL SUBSTANTIAL HELP FROM PEOPLE WHO ACTUALLY KNOW THEIR SHIT AND KNOW WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON AND ACTUALLY CARE LMAO

BEING ISOLATED IN KAINUU IS FUCKING INSANE! LMAO!

But yeah too bad I'm so paranoid of literally everyone now because of all my experiences that I would just be put off by people trying to help.

Because my experiences have only shown that people are arrogant, ignorant judgmental cunts who simply don't fucking understand and don't even want to

>>938168064 (OP)
kill yourself fucking faggot

People also don't want to accept the fact that things really do need to be on my terms.

They don't even want to hand over control to me over how I get better lmao fucking cunts

>>938176694
Honestly, come to Canada as a student. Get a student visa, then get a job after school and turn it into a permanent work visa. That's probably the easiest way to do it. Right now it's pretty fucked to try to get a work visa in Canada if you're in an outside country, it's hyper competitive.

>>938176788
Unironically that service is not provided in Finland

>>938176802
Which service? Canada issues the student visa.

it's not worth discussing anyway

knowers know that i'm definitely banned from even visiting canada at this point LMAO

i don't think i'm even allowed to board a plane regardless of where it's going

i'm probably banned from even entering an airport.

>>938176833
I'm going to have an aneurism

>>938176788
Oh and even then?

That shit costs like 10k minimum. I just don't have money lmao.

>>938176892
Canada increased the laws surrounding how much students here on visa can work. I don't remember exact numbers but it went from like 10 hours a week to like 35. So you can work part time. Unfortunately it would take work if you are serious about moving to Canada.

>>938176940
Yea slipping back into the "fuck you" normie tier GPT advice territory there buddy.

Just admit this shit is broken for me

>>938176495
winland greatest country on earth

>>938176963
Not really guy, it's legitimate advice. You want help moving to Canada, that's a legitimate option that mitigates your finance issue and is also the easiest way into Canada right now..

It's only broken because you're not willing to keep an open mind lmao.

I'm out, you're dragging me down trying to help you. Good luck.

>>938177064
>that's a legitimate option that mitigates your finance issue
hm, alright sure but where's the fuckloads of money and support that i need to do that LMAOAOA)OASOPAEOTIJWATIJHEST

DO YOU REALLY THINK THE INDIANS ARE JUST MAGICALLY ACQUIRING THEIR 10K DOLLARIDOOS AND LE IMMIGRATION SERVICES ?!

LAMAOAOAOAOAOTNNNN

AHAHAHAHAHA YOU PEOPLE ARE A FUCKING HOOT

bump because id be making threads out of frustration elsewhere anyway

like even listening to my brother's hypnotic and you know i just recognize those tone's...

i don't hear a man who's well

i hear a codependent man who's obsessed with talking to his mom and never doing anything who'll one day have a big codependent freakout and kill his 70 year old mom.

she's 64 right now.

just fuck this shit.

i've grown up surrounded by just fucked up shit

like yeah i hear that fucking roundabout fucking religious fucking revelation epiphany shit day in day out yeah yeah

you're juts going around in circles and repeating the same shit in that same hypnotic hushed tone and using those constant filler words and that fucking thing you're doing

yeah this is what it's like

This is an abusive dynamic. It still is.

My whole life has been stuck in this abusive dynamic.

Even doctors and psychiatrists have abused me too as part of it.

yeah that ophthalmologist couple were probably actual satanist larpers.

Neither is anyone else these days. Especially people on this site...

ugh the whole doctor finland in thing really does just fucking reek of satanistic shit

It's not even a schizo panic thing right now it really just feels like these people are doing some ritual shit lmao.

I MEAN THEY HAVE DONE RITUAL SHIT
MY MOM AND HER FRIEND WHO'S MY "GODMOTHER" ACTUALLY AMBUSHED ME WHEN I WAS A KID AND DID SOME FUCKING PRAYER RITUAL WITH MY EYE COVERED

THEY JUST GRABBED ME OUT OF NOWHERE AND DID THAT

IT WAS SO FUCKING ... uncomfortable... bothering... it's just fucked up

and yeah idk she, a fwe years back, like there's this supposed "leaked list" of freemasons (in finland supposedly) and apparently there's lots of "ophthalmologists and gastroenterologists" on that list and oh man did i get my ass and mouth probed by them as a kid. all the eye stuff too.

yeah it is all pretty odd if you ask me

actual x files shit honestly. too bad mulder ain't real

funny thing is if i said all this shit honestly to a psychiatrist? oh man i'd be locked in a psych ward lmao

>>938178894
Psych wards are not a place to fear. I think it would be really good for you.

>>938178974
nah

well, at least they're not leastaedian or however you pronounce it.

though what do i know?

>>938179049
Yes. You deserve happiness and you should seek it.

this place is admittedly full of religious craziness in all shapes and forms.

and ive only read like 30 pages of dostoyevsky