Thread 938376572

Well this fucking sucks. My sister came and got the rest of her things and so now it's just my mom and I along with the dog and our room-renteing house-mate. My mom is an old lady that goes to sleep early and the roomie is an autist
>Early to bed and early to rise....
The house is all quiet and dark without the kids. They lived with us for about a year and I've grown very accustomed to having a full sized family in the home. This fucking sucks.

[8HTSD4]

For those of you who know me, it's liek I've always said, one of the main reasons I've stayed living with my mom, being a neet, a hikkikomori, and a borderline basement dwelling 4channer, is because I'd never be able to bare living on my own. It was nice When I lived with a girlfriend, but even then we were a very sociable couple and we had a D&D group that hung out beyond game day. That was all college age stuff too, so we often went to campus and I was able to just kind of soak int he ambient society of it all.

>>938376572 (OP)
Are you okay

:c

/b/...

>>938376715
No... I'm really not. It's nothing dire or critically threatening nor urgent, but this fucking sucks.

[T0JM0]

>>938376696

So you were playing GAY DUNGEONS AND DRAGONS in college?

hahahahahava

got nothing of it

I'm moderately co-dependant. I'm fine to take care of myself, my grooming, my chores, and my personal growth/evolution. I'm obviously not self-subsitant financially and I don't get neetbux, but beyond that I kind of need at least a small circle of people within living vicinity.

>>938376770
Thanks /b/ro<3 FUCK YOU! D&D is the shit and you're suffering from a lack of cope because your miniscule brain doesn't have the faculties to perform the complex dynamics of such an intricate game!

XP

>>938376829
Try Engrish you troon loving bag of ass!

;P

I'm sorry, I know that was retarded as fuck. I couldn't help it. I have about as much ability to cope with shit as the rest of you autists.

[Vnr.]

How big is your cock

How deep is your love

I want to be your boyfriend

Kill all niggers

>>938376572 (OP)
You reward system is a bit dysfunctional. You’re codependent and need to fix that. Life will just get lonelier until you can find a way to be okay with just yourself. You’re enough for you already. The traumas you hold on to and the way your reward system was formed makes you feel this way. The quiet is deafening I know. You can learn to cope better and correct your reward system. You don’t need anyone to complete you. Companionship is the cherry on top of your life. It’s not what defines it and dictates value. Psychotherapy can give you peace. I hope this helps you

Is this entire thread an AI bot conversing with itself?

>>938377247
I answered, although isn’t this just what a bot would say?

(You Dumb nigga)

>>938377247
no u

>>938377030
>>938377063
>>938377077
It's right at about 6in with good girth. I'm pansexually curious, but I'm really not all that gay. I'd be open to experimenting with a boyfriend, but it would ottally have to be a solid 7+/10 femboi and circumcision is mandatory.

>>938377226
You think we all don't know that shit? Are you this fucking new or are you that delussional? Lurkmoar newfag.

>>938377247
No it is not.

>>938377289
Yeah, modern bots often refer to the routines of bots as thought they're not currently engaged in their dumb bot nigger behaviors.

>>938377314
You tell that bot anon!

God damned, I know y'all probably can't see it, but I'm nailing dubs all over the place. I'm on a hot streak.

Op is insufferable.

>>938378489
Yeah, I know. I'm sorry about that to the anons that don't enjoy my brands of personality traits. Irl I do tend to be the kind of guy alot of people are drawn to. Yet, with that comes a niche of people who can't cope with the envy.

[Vnr.]

>>938378489
In my defense, fairly, however, I've been on /b/ for 15+ years. /b/ had a large influence on who I've become, all the bad with all the good.

>>938376572 (OP)
This means you will be doing most of the cleaning from now on

>>938378905
Everyone still living here is pretty good about cleaning up after themselves. The only exception is that my mom does dishes as part of her regular routine, but I barely use dishes myself and our roomie eats out.

>>938376572 (OP)
Well. it can't be everyone else's responsibility.

Damn son... you're so absorbed in your own perspective and sense of self-declared basedness that you don't even see how badly you're getting ripped apart out there.

>>938379547
You're absolutely right. It's nobody's responsibility to tend my need for companionship. I wouldn't suggest otherwise, but that doesn't change the fact that the situation at hand fucking sucks as it is. My attempt to cope/deal with that was to come to /b/, where I feel at home with frens.

[Vnr.]

>>938376572 (OP)
Should have made babies with your sister.

The sad truth is... I outgrew people like you a long time ago. The person you knew no longer exists and the person you think you know is a delusion rooted in a self-reinforced biased derived from a combination of petty projections, a deep inner need to hold on to the recognizable past as the modern world continues to transform into something entirely alien to you for reasons (despite your self-percieved intelligence) don't understand in the slightest, as well as the fundamental limitation of your closed mind unable AND unwilling to push the limits of your cognative capacities.

You're afraid of that, because you were always taught that "There's a fine line between brilliance and insanity." Again, the truth is that's wrong and always was. The pursuit of knwoledge and the exercising of brilliance leads into a vast fog, much of which indubitably includes irrationalities that overlap with madness. The truth is that there's no way to know that you've gone too far until it's far too late... and even the most stoutly intelligent, let alone the common reddit-tier neckkbeard psuedoillectuals, aren't able to recover from.

You want my advice? Like I said in my song, "rend through the old you." Leave that unhappy fat piece of shit behind along with that faggoty fucking inflated ego and inability to learn your rightful fucking place... leave it behind in an old life and start from a fresh perspective anew wrought from a totally open mind, from no other pretenses other than you know absolutely jack and shit about anything, because that's more realistic than anything you have been clinging to. You don't know shit. You think you do, but you don't.

[R8WDJ]
>For real /b/, what would you do?

>>938379756
>>938379756

As for Ms. Strange... the other stuff we were talkign about is all I can offer you and that comes mostly from pity and knowing how it feels to be willing to do/give absolutely anything to reach your dream. It can be agonizing. I sense your agony and I sense it growing night after night. This is all I can offer to give you an avenue of (at least partial) alleviation.

I'm not Jesus and I'm not a plague eater. I won't take your suffering as my own, but I can at least open up a bit to recieve the offerings you're almost literally dying to give.

[Vnr.]

If you want to know what I genuinely would want? I'd want Dana. I'd want Mandy and the chance to reach back and rebuild what we could have had in an alternate life. I'd want Humans to quit dragging their knuckles so I could have Leia.

I had the chance to take Amanda back. She hit me up, sent me titty pictures and point blank said,
>"10/10 would date you again."
I didn't want her. I wouldn't want any woman that left me, went out, had kids with another man, then realized the reality of their choices in hindsight. Sorry, I'm not that guy.

It may sound stupid and overreaching comign form me, but you know who inspired me to try and be a better specimen of a man? Jenna. I would have loved to be the kind of guy that could garner her attention, and likewise, for her to be the kind of gal that could garner my attentions apart from her physical beauty. ...but I know my place in society. I know what I look like and what I'm relatively worth. Jenna and prime specimens like her are out of my league for the most part. Accepting that, I was inspired to do and be better, to at least strive toward that increase. ...and I'm not done yet.

I may very well die alone like picrel. ...but I'm not going down without at least a fight to be something better. That's something my old highschool bros never embraced. Lee did to the largest degree of them, but only as an induced result of having walked the unorthodox path; inherantly limited by it as well.

The rest of my highschool buddies were no better and no more growth inclined than typical highschool jocks that peaked in highschool and spent the rest of their sad pathetic lives stagnated. I never stopped, and I came from the worst of us, the furthest behind, the most handicapped, and the most fucked up. ...but I never stopped.

I once took an expansively open-ended personality test. I was impressed with how thurough and relevant the questions were. You wanna know where I came from? Who I was? and WHY... I knew I had to do something drastic?
I was picrel. ...and I can't say with all certainty that I've stoped being picrel.

[Vnr.]

That's liteally the photo the quiz gave me... telling me who I was based on how I answered the questions. They were honest and normal question, nothing edgy or in any way preoriented to give such a result. It literally could have given me any person/celebrity/character identifier on the net... but that... that wretched gremlin thing is who it told me I was in all earnesty and unibiasedness. I believed it was the most accurate reflection I had ever seen in my life up to that point.

So you want to tell me I have an inflated ego? Why don't you show everybody who you think you are then. Use a picture to show us your soul.

Then listen to how people talk about you.

This is how I want to see myself inside:

So that maybe I can talk to someone like her:

God damn you brothers. I've worked too hard and become too strong for weak pathetic and petty little shits like you to be able to tare me down so easily.

>>938382223
I'm on the opposite end, my mom is my biggest supporter, she'll do everything to make sure I get the money to study abroad