Thread 938416015

Can someone genuinely give me a reason to live?
Everything I once enjoyed is no longer enjoyable.
I'm unemployed.
My parents think I'm a failure.

These feelings began in 2020 but it's culminated into this deep depression that I feel now.

>>938416015 (OP)
Adopt a dog :]

>>938416015 (OP)
Shit your pants furiously while screaming in Dutch while your parents watch helplessly.

>>938416015 (OP)
a job is not a reason to live or die
your parent's opinion is not a reason to live or die
the other stuff sounds like depression
only people who have dealt with depression will be able to really empathize with you which is probably why your parents don't care, they don't understand
it comes down to in life that you're the person you matter most to and you can treat yourself like shit or you can be a little more chill, give yourself some slack on making mistakes or not feeling like things are ok
it's alright to feel like things are shitty, at least in the US it's the worst situation it's been in decades
if you can figure out what things you can change and what things you can't then you can start working on them and see some difference in your life
like you can't change how your parents feel about you, even if you're completely correct they think you suck, but you can start not sucking and then they can either deal with it or you'll realize their opinion never should have mattered in the first place
mothers and fathers are supposed to take care of their kids and care for them

>>938416199
maybe I should just shit my pants like the other anon suggested.

>>938416015 (OP)
Sorry bud, that's entirely up to you. Life isn't for everyone

You are not alone. I wish I could say it gets easier but it really doesn't. You just fill your time with things that you find rewarding or enjoyable and eventually you push the bad thoughts to the back of your mind.

>>938416015 (OP)
Post hand

>>938416015 (OP)
If im honnest im planning it two and not even sad abt it. Just done some math. better off and for that kinda glad about tinking for top till bottom. If youre not sure you fuck it up and youre making the wrong choices. Dont do if youre not 120% sure abt it

>>938416015 (OP)
I wish I had that being Eurofag

>>938416015 (OP)
You have a nice glock.

>>938416399
Bullets pls..

>>938416399
Bro if you want to you probably havea god damn reason for it. Fuck it if you dont want to share but you could been HELPED of you made the right choice anyways

>>938416427
I'm not playing this game, it's real and maybe it won't be tonight or next week, but these feelings always seem to return.

I don't know. Maybe it's just an inability to grow up. But life just sucks.

>>938416399
Enough reason to live right there.

There is no reason for any life to exist, it just happens, it's all result of completely random events in this universal sandbox, there is no deeper meaning to any of this.
And you don't need reason to enjoy life
You don't have to be successful at anything, for it will all turn into dust once you're gone
Do stuff you like, with people you like and just be in the moment.

Just sitting, basking in sunlight, not doing anything is one of the greatest feelings imaginable.
Why do you care so much about other people's validation? Why do you allow external forces to dictate your life instead of taking direct control?

hey man, trust me thins WILL get better, life is worth living, trust me as someone who takes meds to sleep, its sometimes tempting to down the whole bottle, but i stop and think: but there is so much i haven't yet seen, so much that i want to do, GET OUT THERE MAN, EXPLORE THE WORLD, SEE THE BUTEY OF THE WORLD, YOU DONT GET TO QUIT, YOUVE MADE IT THIS FAR, I BELIVE IN YOU DAWG, and you should too, and whatever you might be dealing with, we are here to talk to you about it, stay safe man.

>>938416536
Be just 120% sur3 that you made the right choice. The rest will go in possesion of a glock. Ive been thinking about death as well. That helped me.

>>938416015 (OP)
To enjoy dank maymays

It does get better dude I know you might not believe me but it does. These feelings come in waves you just got to stick it out they will pass. And they may come back again but then just ride the storm again I may not know you but I believe in you.

>>938416536
Have you tried therapy or antidepressants? I'm diagnosed with Persistent Depressive Disorder (basically always depressed) and antidepressants have, quite literally, been a life saver.

After death you wont come back

>>938416645
Im an other fag but in my case it makes me inactive you dont want to know. I need so much antidepressants that I learned smile to the death.

>>938416015 (OP)
>Everything I once enjoyed is no longer enjoyable.
Who you were ten years ago is not who you are right now. Find a new hobby.
>I'm unemployed.
Get a job.
>>they don't respond to my applications
In two weeks of silence, walk up to their establishment and ask to see their manager to inquire about the application. It shows that you care.
>My parents think I'm a failure.
You, me, and every other average Joe 40 years or under. Who cares what they think.

Also, if you still live with your parents, definitely get a job and start saving like a mother fucker. Even if they make you pay a little bit of rent, by the time they kick the bucket, you'll have enough to live off of for a while, maybe even indulge a little.

Suicide is a selfish and lame way to go. It shows you're weak, and it leaves a mess for others to clean up.

>>938416710
>>938416634
Thanks anons, it's just a particularly bad night I guess
>>938416645
I just cannot stomach the idea of therapy or seeing someone in the mental health field.

>>938416710
Yeah, this is actually helpful advice.

OP, nobody can make your situation better except yourself. Once you're an adult, what your parents think about you doesn't fucking matter. Your life is your own to do with as you please.

For the job thing, you need to be applying to jobs like crazy. Type up a decent resume, short and simple. If you don't have much to put on there, just make it up and tailor it for whatever job you're applying to.

And when I say apply out the ass, I mean it. Don't be picky, get on LinkedIn or Indeed, and click on anything that pays. You're unemployed, so you can't be picky about what you get. You can always secure a job and then keep looking for a better one in the meantime. Pick up new hobbies if the ones you used to enjoy no longer make you happy.

It really is the typical type of advice, but it's because it works. Getting a job gets you out and around people. Hobbies gives you something to look forward to. Start exercising, which will naturally make you feel better and look better. Stop giving a fuck what family thinks, because they can be some of the most toxic people to possibly interact with.

Point is, nobody is going to fix your depression, and if you kill yourself, realistically people will cry and be sad, people you might not even thought cared. But eventually they will slowly forget about you and move on with life. That's just reality. Nobody is going to advocate or help you more than you can for yourself.

>>938416948
Therapy isn’t so bad if you find someone who works for you. I see a guy once a month and he’s basically a friend who asks really good questions. Doesn’t tell me what to do or diagnose anything, just makes me think and reflect on what I think

>>938416948
I get that, I only got therapy because I was in the military, got pretty fucked up by some things that happened, and was mandated to by my chain of command. Getting that grief out was painful and not easy, since we're supposed to be manly and all that bullshit, but it was good for me as well. Some people hate having to depend on antidepressants to be happy, but they truly did begin to work over time and the suicidal thoughts have been a lot less.

>>938417080
I have tried applying literally everywhere minus normal local wage jobs not applicable to my degree. I received 1 callback and they said I didn't have the experience they were looking for.

I'm still gonna try, but I'm getting discouraged.

>>938416399
Oh cool you have Gen 1 Glock 19, those are sought after. You will have to find joy yourself, personally gaming isn't as fun as before but I find way to make it fun for myself. If you really need money sell that gen 1 Glock 19.

>>938416015 (OP)
Men are, and always have been, nature's dice.

No matter how much effort you put in, the results will be a wildcard.

And today's society is set up to be a zero sum game for men, it wasn't always like this, different government religious, and social settings were set up so that even a guy who fails winds up with the bare minimum of a home, wife, and family (assuming you want those things).

These days, you either win it all or you fail hard. And failure means you have nothing. No money, no friends, no lover, no family. A man is measured *by what he can provide* BY everyone! If you have nothing, you can provide nothing.

I guess the good news is that American culture has many hundreds of millions of us now.

But the sad thing is that we're all like crabs in a bucket so rather than utilizing our mass misfortune to change society so this doesn't happen, we're all trying to cut each others throats and shit on the other failures for a chance to become a "has" rather than a "has not".

So I have no easy solution, you can get ahead but that involves convincing people you aren't a loser (he who has, gets). And the more down on your luck you are, the harder that gets to do. Just focus on seeming happy, successful, and carefree; the best you can. Impress the right people on the job. You'll probably fail, but hey, that's the same boat 50% of men are in these days.

>>938417202
That's what I'm saying about not applying to local wage jobs. Beggars can't be choosers. It's better to just get something to help save than to not have anything at all, and it gets hard explaining long gaps of time in unemployment. You might want to reconsider if your resume is good as well. You can get rejected for having one that's too long, too short, not using key words specific to the job. Every job easily gets 50+ applications and they've been using AI programs to spot which ones match the job description to help cut out spending time reading them all.

>>938416015 (OP)
If you're gonna use a gun, plan on taking any one else out while you're at it?

>>938417278
Thank you for taking the time, I just need to try harder I guess. There are many others like me I suppose.

It's just weird, in 2020 I was a happy camper that never worried about the future. Then everything snowballed. I don't want to blame the pandemic or politics, maybe it's just my inability to adapt or something.

Then I look to my older sister and she's just so fucking successful by comparison. She did worse in school, somehow is much better at socializing, and has a successful career. I guess I am just broken, but life's unfair, sucks to be me.

>>938417550
No I don't want to hurt anyone

>>938417638
Do you expect it to hurt yourself if you do it?

>>938417706
I always imagined it would be like cutting the lights. I don't want to think about it any further.

>>938417747
Well you better at least think about the aftermath. Finding someone in that state cannot be unseen, especially if a parent finds you.

>>938417747
Yeah, please don't kill yourself OP.
>>938417446
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>>938417080
These are all me, and I have felt and sometimes, pretty often actually, still feel suicidal. But every time I have a good day, I'm thankful that I stuck around to experience it. And I truly mean I understand where your head is at. I had to go to rehab when I was in the military because I was drinking every night and got caught with a noose in my room. I had a suicide letter written out and everything. Things did eventually get better but it took a lot of time and changing my own habits and my environment.

Think of it this way, why not try all the advice given to you, even therapy if you're willing? You've got nothing left to lose, you're already suicidal, so why not try a bit more until something sticks? Death will come for you either way so why rush it when there's a CHANCE things can get better

>>938417858
Guilting someone who is suicidal is often counterproductive, anon, even if you mean well. It adds to the level of guilt they already feel for being suicidal in the first place.

>>938416199
this

You need purpose. It can be damn near anything that makes you get up out of bed in the morning.
Volunteer

>>938417858
>Well you better at least think about the aftermath.
This, hanging is cleaner at least.

If you die you can’t go to college, meaning you can’t advance into something you like and turn it into a career and potentially make a good paycheck out of it

If you die you can’t exercise and get a girlfriend and a healthy body

If you die you can’t imagine how happy you’re going to become once you quit porn and other harmful habits

You will miss out on the happiness and money and absolute greatness.

>>938418517
This type of mindset alone is a reason to kill oneself.
Holy shit what a fucking drone view of the world.

>>938416015 (OP)
A 9mm is an iffy round to end your life with.

Lets kill them!Thank you for coming in this world!

hanging is terrible don't

I'm in the same boat 31, no job, gf of 6 years left me, i have a brain injury that makes my balance SHIT and my big toe is broken. had tons of alcohol problems, relapses, etc. nobody trusts me anymore. i used to be fit and active and make money and now all i can do is sit at my parents house and play counter strike since i can't get around my 3 story one.

>>938420057
I've dealt with similar feelings for years, but I'm in a much better place

>>938417596
She's a woman, you're a man. You were doomed from the start.
I don't say this to make you feel bad, but women get a lot of head starts because men are expected to make do with less.

I implore you to find something to stay busy. A man with a wandering mind can lead you down a very bad path.

>>938416015 (OP)
Video games are fun as fuck.

Dogs are always happy to see you.

Peanut butter cookies are phenomenal.

>>938416015 (OP)
I don't even know man, I can't convince you or give you a convincing enough reason because that is entirely on you, it is internal.

>>938420884
There is a good reason to live.

>>938416399
is that an IBM model M?

>>938416015 (OP)
move out from your parents home a few months, live in the streets if you must and you will find meaning quite fast

>>938425780
Yeah, and sell crack or drugs if you need to
You got a strap in case anyone tries to hit a lick on you

>>938425407
well you are 27, why did you think you would be a pro by now? the thing about life is it doesnt really have much meaning until you make it have meaning.

>>938416015 (OP)
Don't kill yourself, that's an L
Go take out a billionaire instead (huge W)

>>938416399
>gen 1 Glock 19
>IBM model M
Holy shit why do you think you're a failure? You got some cool ass shit lying around. Get a parrot, that'll cheer you up but get a small one

>>938416399
omg he even got dubs

>>938416015 (OP)
>My parents think I'm a failure.
Maybe they're on to something with that.

Please kill me first UK is fucking hell on earth I lost my reasons to live over 10 years ago and only semester to live to go to my dead end job.

I tried to kill myself with an overdose 3 days ago and somehow survived and was hospitalised fuck life please shoot me.

Only seem fuck autocorrect

>>938416015 (OP)
there is no reason you should do it put it to your head and pull the trigger