what do if you are just losing ?
serious question here...
I know how winning is... I won my whole childhood and it was by far the best time of my life...
Now... since I got into puberty I am just losing... it was a markable change in my life... I turned from winning into loosing...
I started to realize that something was wrong when I was in tenth grade and I wanted to change my life... but I just kept loosing and there was nothing I could do about it...
that was 20 years ago...
In between I made my school degree, studied philosophy and then became paranoid shizophrenic out of nowhere...
I am now unemployed since 8 years...
living now in the same house as my cousin and his mother (my aunt) life...
But it feels kind of annoying... could have been so great to life with family members but it is not... we dont benefit each other but feel kind of annoyed by each other....
And I think to myself... obviously it had to be this way because I am just losing... I dont win... it is not me... it is something greater than me that wants me to lose...
Now I am asking myself... what can I do about it ? Should you just start to enjoy losing somehow ? Because no matter what I do... I seriously lag a lot of luck... I have bad luck
I know how winning is... I won my whole childhood and it was by far the best time of my life...
Now... since I got into puberty I am just losing... it was a markable change in my life... I turned from winning into loosing...
I started to realize that something was wrong when I was in tenth grade and I wanted to change my life... but I just kept loosing and there was nothing I could do about it...
that was 20 years ago...
In between I made my school degree, studied philosophy and then became paranoid shizophrenic out of nowhere...
I am now unemployed since 8 years...
living now in the same house as my cousin and his mother (my aunt) life...
But it feels kind of annoying... could have been so great to life with family members but it is not... we dont benefit each other but feel kind of annoyed by each other....
And I think to myself... obviously it had to be this way because I am just losing... I dont win... it is not me... it is something greater than me that wants me to lose...
Now I am asking myself... what can I do about it ? Should you just start to enjoy losing somehow ? Because no matter what I do... I seriously lag a lot of luck... I have bad luck