Thread 938613497

I'm trying to integrate all aspects of my personality and I really want to do semen retention for spiritual purposes but another side of me wants to goon to momcest all day

What would integration mean here? I want to let go of this porn addiction but another side of me doesn't

>>938613497 (OP)
well integration wouldbe bringing into the norm something you sequester, keep boxed away until it explodes in an orgy of repressed need.

say you're a crossdresser, and you're ashamed about it - so you push it deep inside until you can't take it anymore, get dolled up, post an ad on grindr, and head down to the traintrack with your ass in the air for all cummers.

Having satisfied it in an orgy of anal tearing and stds, you repress it until the next time.

Integration would be realizing this is a part of you, you need gay sex in drag because you're a pervert, and you start to be more femboi in your real life, perhaps get a respectable bf.. so you don't have to build the tension until you explode.

>>938613497 (OP)
it means you have way too much time on your hands. get your head out of your ass and do something productive with your life.

>>938613497 (OP)
..and with you, perhaps you need to be more intimate with your mom, but in a non gooner way - touching, hugging, cuddling, perhaps kissing. Keep the cock tucked away to meet your semen retention goals, and you'll also have a better chance with your mom.

Integration takes the distant parts of yourself and bring it into your core being, makes it you. If you're into your mom, make it part of your core being and lifestyle.

or not. Just because you have a kink doesn't mean you need to integrate it.

sometimes these weird things are just demons to be exorcised. No matter how much I want to be a faggot troon, I won't find a happy life down that path, so perhaps I should work on boosting T, not looking at porn all day, and continue to pursue a breedable female of some sort.

People who do meth really want to do more meth. Integrating meth into your core being is possible, and you'll have fun for a bit being a homeless meth head on the the sidewalk, but it starts to get bleak after that.

>>938615431
>sometimes these weird things are just demons to be exorcised
You mean as in literal demons?

>>938613497 (OP)
Integration means to facilitate marketing and profiling applicable to you.

>>938615702
>You mean as in literal demons?
Perhaps. Weak minds into slop are easy targets for demons. If it's figurative or literal almost doesn't matter, the cure for both is the same - determination to develop core integrity and to ignore that which makes you weak, for it invites demons to nest and torment you.

we are all in a shared dream, and there's pleasure to be had here, but i'd say 90% of what /b/ is doing for pleasure isn't really going to help fill you up spiritually and keep you on your path.. it's going to leave you gooning in a puddle of your own exrement.

life is now so shitty and devoid of meaning that collapsing into a deep porn addiction is both cheap and satisfying.

what's hard is to rise above it. Perhaps it's a lifelong struggle. That's fine, the will to continue to struggle is the key, not the occasional slips of jerking it to tranny porn.

>>938615907
What could I do in my case? Even if I try to have sex with girls I cannot get hard because only momcest arouses me, it's very demoralizing and I don't know what to do; is there a solution for this?

>>938615985
you could try dating older women, so you're closer to the mom thing.

you may also be just rushing sex. I'm a massive pervert, but I can't always get hard with someone new. Took me years to realize I need a connection and intimacy to make it work - even if I'm fucking them like a slut after I get going, it still needs build naturally.

and lastly, you could fuck you mom. I mean, if your genes are not great, no need to pass them on.

what's your ethnicity, age, and general dating stats?