>>938667110 (OP)
Today was one of the best days of the past 2 and half years.
I woke up to an email that thanked me an open source contribution I made recently. Then I worked out.
Before noon I got to a milestone in my german studies, and went out for a jog. Tho I got exhausted after about 3 miles, earlier than planned (it was 30 degrees Celsius here, and I ran early afternoon), I also had a successful conversation on my way back in german in a shop - my first really successful spontaneous conversation, ever.
Before I got home, I got back some of my stamina, and I ran the last mile to my home, uphill.
When I got home, I got another compliment at another open source contribution of mine.
I also didn't have any problems with my bowel - my IBS was unusually kind to me today.
I kinda have some thoughts that maybe I won't hang myself in the near future, though realistically I also know that tomorrow will everything get back to the usual shit.