i am living, breathing excrement. i am a loathsome person, and a failure. it would be one thing if i was loathsome BUT successful in some ways, but i am not successful in any way/shape/form. i have failed at everything i have ever tried to do in life, and i mean literally everything. raising my dachshund, playing basketball, playing guitar, being a "spiritual" person, staying clean off drugs, relationships, college. this world has nothing to offer me that i won't simply fuck up.