Thread 939482842

didn't cut too deep this time but I did it again, goddamn it

>>939482842 (OP)
Cut down your peehole to make a subincision

>>939482868
what for? is that a fetish thing?

>>939482842 (OP)
Did you try shaving? A little fuzz is normal!

>>939482910
Yeah, it's fun.

>>939482953
yes I'm a retard :(
>>939482963
that doesn't sound very fun or sexy

>>939482842 (OP)
*hug*

>>939483141
thanks anon :)

>>939482842 (OP)
yeah but those are epi baby cuts. just go a few layes deeper unti you can pull the yellow fat layers out of it

>>939482842 (OP)
I don’t get this. Does it feel good? Is it like a distraction? A guy has this shit all over his arms and I’m really curious but don’t want to ask him about it.

youre not even bleeding from veins or arteries

>>939483247
I have cut deeper before but not down to the yellow layer
>>939483269
I'm just emotionally unstable, this helps get the same relief I would usually get when I cry, problem is I can't cry even if I want to, it just makes me feel better, yeah it feels good
>>939483271
I already did that the other time I don't feel like ruining another pair of jeans from all the blood

>>939483269
i've tried to stop but im addicted to the feel and the sensation of the needles.

>>939483828
this too, it is a bit addictive, you just feel so good afterwards

>>939483387
dont wear your jeans in that case

>>939483872
I just don't feel like cutting deeper tonight maybe some other time

>>939483866
is it because of the blood loss and head high or the dopamin released by your brain to ease the pain?

>>939485382
it's a little bit of both yeah, and also it stings for a few days afterwards and it just feels nice when you're having a bad time, but I think only mentally ill people like me enjoy that

>>939483939
bro this my sound bad but most other addictions are better than this really, breathing smoke is better than not breathing at all
did you try therapy? if yes did you feel any improvement?
also are you suicidal too or just cutting?

>>939485419
i mean ive done it too and yeah i get it, also i think everyones a little ill, for me it was more the dopamine i didnt lose that much blood

>>939485440
I do smoke too actually but I don't know cutting just helps me when I'm feeling really really sad I did try therapy but I just felt uncomfortable and stopped going, in general I'm not suicidal but I do get suicidal from time to time not tonight though, I'm just upset tonight
>>939485473
I didn't lose too much blood this time but last month I did cut myself deeper than usual and I did lost a lot of blood, it was nice but dealing with all the blood is very annoying

>>939485568
>I do smoke too
what do you smoke?
and if you dont mind me asking do you have anyone who might help or motivate you? im mostly thinking about a SO there

>>939485649
just regular cigarettes (marlboro reds)
>do you have anyone who might help or motivate you?
>mostly thinking about a SO there
haha well I did have someone like that but she left me hence why I'm like this in the first place

>>939485766
>yeah thats a real catalist there, if you feel like it you should try therapy with another diffrent doc it might help
>regular cigarettes
marlboro reds are strong, but have yoou ever tried smoking weed for therapeutic purpose?

>>939486484
the first green was accidental it was meant to be answer to the gf part

>>939482842 (OP)
Why don't you knock that shit off?

>>939486484
no I never smoked weed in my life actually
>>939486596
I can't help it sometimes

>>939483247
How does one stop being a pussy and get the courage to cut deep?

>>939486621
>never smoked weed
and best not to start for someone in your position. best case you swap one addiction for another, more likely you have two

>>939486621
I really don't like this answer but I can't really threaten you with violence to stop it either. I am really out of options here. I don't like this.

I'm going to bed good night every one (it's 7 am)

>>939486621
>I can't help it sometimes
why? how does it feel?

>>939482842 (OP)
Stop posting here for attention.

>>939482842 (OP)
One day when your in your late 40's and look down at those scars your gonna get sickened by your younger self doing this.. Do your older self a a huge Favor.. Go seek out medical help, Go speak to a Therapist and get whats bothering you fixed and gain the tools to better your self.. Because one day you will get old.. You will burden more mental issues and scars then what you can cope with but No one other then your self will be there to fix you.. as you Ran all those who cared about you off.. So please go speak to a therapist and a Doctor get the help you need now why your young..

Do not boast old woman your death sits in that cage and she hears you

>>939482842 (OP)
Humans should be destroyed

>>939482842 (OP)
Now pour alcohol on it and salt

>>939482842 (OP)
you should consider going to your primary care provider and telling them that you would like to speak to a talk therapist because you struggle with self harm issues. they will not institutionalize you. they will refer you to a good talk therapist, if they're not stupid. it's worth it to pay the $20 copay for each talk therapy appointment if you're on health insurance.

>>939493442
I put salt on my cuts sometimes

>>939493652
Aah yes the same talk therapists thay gave Trans the right to a surgery instead of actually treating them clinically for complete mental instability.
Sound advice.

>>939482842 (OP)
Sorry to hear about that bro. I cut my arm back during my basic training so I can relate, shit sucks especially relapsing. Hope you can find help

>>939495637
Good

>>939483269
Blood is pretty and it looks cool when it drips everywhere

>>939488446
if I don't cut myself then all I can think about is cutting myself, idk kinda feels like when you want to cry but you can't, it's very unpleasant

>>939490097
but anon nobody cares about me why do you think I do this in the first place? I don't think I will live long enough to make it to my 40s anyway

>>939500941
And why you do that

>>939501408
because I'm upset and I don't know of a healthy way to deal with my emotions I can't cry even if I want to either

>>939499009
This

>>939501602
Well i don't have advice i am over thinker and instead cutting i am process things

>>939501915
I over think things too but when it comes to my emotions I just get overwhelmed and do stuff like this

>>939502070
Probably you are young

>>939502338
not that young, I'm on my 20s

>>939482842 (OP)
Timestamp faggot

>>939503397
not if you ask like that

fuck i wanna relapse so badly bros. its been about a month since my last relapse and every day has been a struggle. I've tried telling my psychiatrist but her advice is practically useless. I've tried everything from ice to rubber bands to red pens, nothing works.

>>939503506
oh! I tried the rubber band thing but it made the craving worse it just made me want to cut myself even more

I like using the rubber band on my cuts though

>>939503901
yeah i feel like 99% of cutting alternatives just make me want to cut more. I never thought about using rubber bands on cuts though, sounds interesting. Don't give me ideas lul

>>939482842 (OP)
I regretted this so much, I have huge scars.

>>939504158
oops sorry about giving you ideas, don't do it, I'm sure you can resist the urges better than me
>>939504346
I honestly don't care only I will see them anyway

https://youtu.be/3UFbVKP_BiY?si=V0-Sn4Z5IVSSZo6_ ~ Watch Rosenstrasse on Tubi: https://link.tubi.tv/j4VoH0HpUVb

Why have you cut yourself what is the point

>>939483141
Never validate an attention-seeker, faggot.

>>939505120
To get attention on the internet.

>>939505422
*hug*

>>939505120
it makes me feel good when I'm sad
>>939505422
you coming here and insulting also counts as validating me btw so thanks!

i started to SH by burning when I was 30, feels bad man. used to hit myself when I was younger and starve myself, but this shit feels worse

holy fuck just get yourself a partner who will give you an abuse kink. this is cringe and retarded

>it makes me feel good when im sad
do you hear yourself? i wouldnt find this attractive about anyone in the slightest. you just look like a degenerate seeking attention and refusing to find actual help. ive seen people's scars on their wrists and legs publicly, it's like they're proud of it. go find some help. a lot of people here have told you to. they care about you. do something retard.

>>939506277
Cut yourself again.

cuts are for chumps, stabs are for chads

>>939506636
I sometimes bite the skin around my finger nails too I had stopped cutting but I started doing it again this year, fuck me
>>939507003
I'm like this because my partner who gave me the abuse kink left me in the first place and I don't go around in public flaunting my scars
>>939507154
nah I'm good for now
>>939507190
then stab yourself if you are such a chad

Wrong direction. It's down the block not across the street.

>>939507555
I went in all directions though

>>939507627
kill yourself correctly next time attentionwhore

>>939507664
sure I'll do it just for you, sorry for wasting your time

>>939507753
ok bitch. Write "I am a Mayo Nigger" on it too next time

>>939507770
the fuck is a mayo nigger?

>>939507460
>nah I'm good for now
Until the thread dies and you're left with nothing but your loneliness and inadequacy.
Cutting will follow.

>>939507460
>I'm like this because my partner who gave me the abuse kink left me in the first place
then move on. you dont need to act like this because one person left you. that makes you heavily dependent on people. you miss someone that badly you start cutting yourself? jeez man. go do something else besides cutting yourself like breakfast.

>>939507883
I'm surprised the thread is still up, I went to bed expecting it to be dead by the time I woke up, anyway I've done this before it's ok I don't need constant attention I'm probably not gonna cut myself for the rest of the month

>>939508014
I can't help being like this I wish I wasn't such a codependent loser but I am not to mention she actually made me start cutting again because she was into it and she would encourage it when we were together

>>939508082
you will complain about how much of a loser you are but do no change. you can help it, you can be dependent on some people when you are in need of help, just not always rely on them because you need to learn how to be independent yourself and trust yourself so you don't end up doing this shit in the future. if you want to live up to your abuse kink let your partner do it to you, that's what i would do.

>>939508179
I promise I am trying to improve my life and change this was just a moment of weakness, I just do really stupid shit when I get like this

gay faggot

>>939482842 (OP)
I called the police on this thread. You are not well, they will be with you shortly.

>>939511435
sure thing

when are you going to livestream your suicide?

>>939511373
>>939507770
>>939505422
>The same fags that jerk off to bnwo tranny porn are seething over cuts and pretending to have a moral high ground

I want tolick op's wound pussies

>>939482842 (OP)
do you even need stitches? no.

>>939514962
no, because I didn't cut very deep

>>939482842 (OP)
whats your address/coordinates anon?
i feel like paying you a visit sometime, i'll show you how to play with knives proper :)

>>939517454
wow you sounds friendly sure I'll give you my address hold on a second

>>939517471
make sure to write it on a piece of paper next to your leg so i know its you
<3

>>939517518
I will :D
will you be my friend when you find me?

>>939517576
maybe, idk. we'll have to see :)
either way i think we'll both have fun

>>939517454
>>939517518
>>939517625
just in case it wasn't obvious, don't actually dox yourself here. i'm a internet shitposter shitposting on the internet.

i'm like 98% sure you got it or aren't op but just in case

>>939482842 (OP)
God's last name isn't dammit. Also, stop cutting yourself like a faggot. You want to feel alive? Get a wavemaster punching bag. Wrap your wrists. Learn and then practice real boxing combinations until your knuckles bleed.

Profit

>>939517657
yes I'm aware you're joking anon I'm not THAT dumb and yes I am op
>>939517670
b-but that's technically the same shit! except on my knuckles

>>939517670
wouldn't your wrists break/sprain before knuckles bleed though? at least thats what generally happens when i use sandbags. if you're dragging knuckles you're doing something terribly wrong.

>>939517704
It's constructive versus some childish acting out banter, that no one on 4chan gives a shit about.

>>939482842 (OP)
https://youtu.be/gmWlNI4Zl2s

>>939517746
that's stupid, next your gonna tell me I should start drinking
no dude don't damage your skin damage your liver instead!

>>939517726
I'm not going to split hairs when you're either attempting to bait me or you've never really trained or have been in a fight.
>sandbags
wat? I mentioned anon procuring a wavemaster. You can fill the base with sand or water. Is that what you meant by
>sandbag
I don't know about you, but I've been in a few fights in my forty one years. Punch a heavy bag with and without wrapping or taping or wrists. Granted you know how to throw a punch the correct way, one would not
>break their hand/wrist
Hence what training is for. Half the fucktards that break their wrists or hands fighting, are not throwing hands correctly. Simple as

>>939517812
6/10 for my replies

well done, Anon

>>939517877
nice

>>939517840
i meant sandbag as in a bag of sand you illiterate fuck. fill a bag with sand, hang it from a ceiling or stand. they can get quite heavy, last time i used one it was a 800 lb. if you wanna use a cotton candy filled dildo thats fine and all but you're not gonna get particularly strong.

for real combat, you hit as hard as you are physically able, for every strike. this generally far exceeds the limits of what your wrists can endure, yes your fingers will break in the process but the skin should be mostly fine as long as the target isn't particularly hard or you use bad form.

>>939518152
>hang it from a ceiling or stand. they can get quite heavy
>cotton candy filled dildo
>the skin should be mostly fine
10/10 fucking bravo

>>939482842 (OP)
hnnnnnnnng foid or moid?

>>939518364
moid, sorry to disappoint

>>939518374
femboy at least?

>>939518374
Any chance you can kill yourself live?

>>939518412
nope, sorry

>>939518434
yes but only if you promise to clip it and post it on here and r9k for at least 10 years

>>939482842 (OP)
You are so weak and pathetic

>>939518453
You should find a better hobby

>>939518852
yes I know anon you think I'm not aware of that?
>>939518914
this isn't my hobby though

>>939518952
Are you sure? You engage in an activity to elicit a response from your action regularly. I'd call that a hobby. I mean it's not your job.

>>939519034
I don't do this daily though! only today

>>939519120
You should consult with a friend about why you feel sad, exercise more, and take vitamins. Hurting yourself isn't a good thing if you don't have a reason.

>>939519189
I don't want to bother my friends with my bullshit problems and I do have a reason to hurt myself, I'm sad that's why I do it

>>939519310
They aren't your friends if you can't rely on them with your troubles. Tell them you're feeling down even if you don't mention hurting yourself. People do things for plenty of reasons but being sad has many outlets of self soothing behavior, not all if which are self destructive. Consider this

>>939519357
what do you do when you're sad?

>>939519310
What kind of pain are you thinking of? I'm looking for the best pain type to do my cuts.

>>939519385
Nap, watch distracting entertainment, tell someone I care about that I feel safe talking to, think about the things in my life that could cause my frustration and depression and ways to improve it, or work out. We all get stuck in ruts in life, and it takes time to change your mindset about life. You're capable of living a happier life though than killing yourself for retards on 4chan.

>>939519442
sometimes I can distract myself by watching or playing something but there are time when I just can't and like I said I don't really have anybody that cares about me to talk about my feelings and I do want to live a happy life I'm really trying to improve things, I'm just failing at it and my gf leaving me made things way worse

>>939519412
uhh I don't understand the question

>>939519561
Keep your chin up and find a passion. Break ups are hard but you deserve someone who respects you and likes you for you. Maybe things just weren't right for both of you. Losing things is painful and a lack of connection. There'll be people who you get along with and somebody will care if you foster that bond with them. It's an evil uncaring cold world out there, try to be there for yourself as best you can, because as men unless you have strong bonds nobody can swoop in and save you like if you were a pretty girl. It's up to you to be the difference you want to see in your life.

>>939519688
thanks man, I'll really try not to do this again, it was a moment of weakness when I get a new job I will try to befriend my coworkers I need to stop being so anti social too

>>939482842 (OP)

Is it just me or is that pic very arousing...

>>939483269
Some people just want to kill themselves. I have them all over my arms too from when I tried to do it.

>>939520746
that's nice I guess...

>>939520838
I want to kill myself but I'm a pussy so I'm doing it slowly

>>939520882
Cutting isn't an easy way to die.

>>939520838
Came here to say the same, but you did it better lol

>>939483387
I have borderline personality disorder, anon, and i can understand how rough emotional dysregulation is.
I wish it gets better for you.

I have the same thing where I can't cry no matter what. But recently the emotional bluntedness started to go away, and I found myself crying. It felt a bit better but at the same time the sadness returned, and I wished for numbness again.

>>939520882
Kill yourself already, man. Stop being a pussy little dude and fucking kill yourself.

>>939485766
How did you get a GF? I have a lot of similar issues but can't get a girlfriend, and it makes it worse.
I just want to feel loved one time in life. Not even sex, just to know she loves me. Guess i'm more fucked up than you anon :)

>>939520952
I was only able to cry again when my gf left me but now I'm back to not being able to cry
>>939520909
I know it isn't I'm being self destructive in general
>>939521018
I don't know how I did it I was talking to a girl and she liked me, she was also into cutting so maybe that helped a bit

>>939482842 (OP)
good

>>939521342
Nice... But do you actually want to be able to cry again? It feels bad after a while, like you feel sadder and sadder. The emotional blunting is the only shield against severe incurable depression.

>>939522142
I don't but I mean it's healthier than cutting

your faggot post killed my boner