>>941159147
This. I wasted the best years of my life boozing nightly. I liked women and some even liked me back, but I'd never take a night off of hard drinking. Even dates with my crushes ended in me getting hammered and being weird.
When you're always loaded or hungover, you get really emotional and it's all up and down. Everything is amplified. If only I could have limited my intake.
Now I'm sober, middle aged, and have no real relationship experience. I'm not a virgin, but may as well be for all the confidence I have starting out with women.
With the booze I was loose as hell and very charming. I could never stay in that perfect zone though. By the end of the night my pants were falling down outside the bar and I was falling all over the place. If I wasn't friends with all the barmaids there's no way I'd have gotten served in that condition. What a life.
The extent of my excitement now is choking on a huge bong hit the occasional weekend.