>>941266488
Im seriously considering ending it all knowing my brain is incapable of making any woman feel attracted to me for more than a few months at most and even then it has to be a low self esteem girl. Ive been told I dont love anyone by her,by my own mother,by others and I think its true. Theres no depth to my feelings. No compassion,no care and not even thinking about these people at all beyond the purpose they serve. Ive thought that I am autistic but it turns out many are this way,theyre just better at fulfilling the social role they were given. Parent. Employee. Lover. And theyre hotter than me and better at being sexy.
I am very anxious about taking my own life. Only because Im scared of not existing anymore. Ill be nothing.