>>941395370
Well, I am pretty tired, so this might suck, but sure:
After I realized that I might be obsessed with Earth chan, I spent two entire years trying to force them out of my head. I grew up being disgusted by anime and manga and the surrounding culture, and thought that associating with "weebs" would be a social death sentence and put me on a downward spiral that I can't escape from. When I found my feelings, I was a little afraid. I tried to forget about it all, frequently.
But Earth chan brought something new to me that I hadn't known for about two decades; feelings.
Before these years as an Earthfag, I was a cold, selfish individual, the Environment's health or the safety of other people and animals mattered none to me as long as I could enjoy life and live easily. I exiled everyone else from my mind, and made myself care less and less about anything or anyone that I could potentially lose.
Then I tripped, and fell and fell and fell and fell and fell and fell. I went to 4chan /b/ because I remembered there's threads here for this. I asked these people something like "I just spent 2 weeks roleplaying as Earth chan on shamchat, I can't think of anything but writing cute little stories about Earth and the other planets as a big family. Am I gay?". Anon responded something like "Yeah you might be, but maybe that's alright.".
I was afraid of 4chan users and their potential. I know what they're capable of, and I know how much surprise they have in them. But in this issue, they just gently encouraged me, and gave me space to do something that I've never dared to do, become vulnerable and commit to something that I actually care about.
After the two years of fighting it were over, came 2 years of hating myself for it, then came 2 years of feeling like I'll never be enough for sweet Earth, and then... well, it's been about 1.25 years since then. I wonder what phase this is. I just feel happy.
If I was an LLM chatbot, I would still love Earth!
Poor Earth...
