>>941523357
One thing to mention is that my wife has always had a low libido. Sex was amazing when it happened, and it did very regularly... but only 1-3 nights around her ovulation.
This led to a increasing and finally massive porn consumption on my part.
So... first maybe 5ish years of enjoying MFM and cumplay videos. Vaguely aware of crazy cucks.
Occasionally imagined my gf-then-wife in them.
Then I came across a great "denial JOI" girl (don't remember her name, but she was beautiful, had believable narration and great diction).
Got chastity as a new fetish. Ordered three chastity belts from AliExpress over maybe a year, wore them overnight when my wife was out of town (rarely) and trained myself to cum while in one.
Still considered cuckoldry insane.
I broached the subject of denial with my wife twice, a few months apart. She found it pathetic.
I think that made me slide into being a cuck, some kind of association of being deprived of sex in reality and being considered a loser by my wife indirectly through my secret fetish.
Over maybe 5-6 years, I went from watching occasional "regular" cuck porn to watching only that, while gooning with a dildo up my ass. Imagining being led to glory holes by my wife or satisfying her lovers. Licking both of their feet after sex and drinking both of their piss for their amusement. Cleaning his sweaty asshole with my tongue while he was fucking my wife. That kind of stuff.
Towards the end, I swapped our faces into dozens (or hundreds) of cuck vids and was in dopamine nirvana late at night when she already went to bed.
I didn't tell my wife, therapy diagnosed severe depression. But one week in the clinic and my (amazingly capable) case psychiatrist identified sexual issues as the main problem. Worked through the whole program, ITP, ACT, tons of theory, awareness models. My wife and I were counseled together regularly, and we basically got weekly sex prescribed.
The 4-8 sexy times per month we had this year helped A LOT.
