>>941550729
My babysitter made me watch porn with her and forced me to eat her out when I was a toddler, somehow I remembered everything, it is my earliest memory. It was very unpleasant, wish I got molested when I was 12 instead.
I have no idea what's the appeal of toddlers, but in my early teens I got somewhat regular attention from female pedos, but it was just sexual questions and flirting from girls in their 20's. I don't know if it fucked me up or not, but what fucked me up was the stranger danger panic telling everyone that molested boys are destined to become murderpedorapists, so I really thought I'd become a monster.
I have an older cousin in her 20's that I had an incestous fling with when I was 13. Taught me that girls crave alpha male chads that sexually dominates girls. She taught me to aggressively flirt, pick up chicks, how to fuck properly, etc. And I got carried away, nearly got into trouble several times, not just with her. But I mellowed out now, and I can't look at women the same way ever again after being exposed to that blackpill. She nearly turned me into that monster I feared I'd become, just for her own sexual gratification.
I like shota hentai, it makes me imagine a parallel universe where my first time was fun and happy, with a nurturing caring girl that I actually really like, someone that would make me a better person. Somehow it heals me.
