>>941891807 (OP)
And I realize it would be really easy for anybody to just fabricate bullshit stories in here, and larp about dying...
let it suffice to say:
trust me I'm not lying
I'm not larping I'm not fabricating anything
The fifth time I died, I was undergoing a common simple surgical procedure, but the anesthesiologist inadvertently over administered propofol, the same conscious sedation anesthesia that killed Michael Jackson 30 days after it killed me on an operating table
during that massive coronary on the operating table, I actually EXTUBATED myself, meaning I ripped the breathing tube out without taking the luxury of deflating the balloons at the bifurcation beforehand
That ruined my vocal cords. I couldn't even talk for a year afterwards
That was back in 2009
after they shocked me back to life, they immediately put me into a medically induced coma, and set me upstairs to the cardiovascular ICU
but last month, in September, I died for the SIXTH TIME........
And by golly, here I am still alive
after being shocked back to life and having to undergo heart surgery
yesterday I had a video visit with my doctor, who urged me to get a heart valve replacement surgery immediately
I have to make a decision before November 5th
It's possible during this surgery I could die and never come back
I'M NOT AFRAID OF BEING DEAD
I'm actually more concerned about remaining alive, and watching the continued downward spiral of humanity
I can see where this is going
I actually think I would be better off not existing anymore