I can't really discuss it anywhere else.
>talking to parents as 33M
>talking about my siblings (every one) divorces
>"Well at least none of them were abusive!" my mom talking about the siblings
>"I would've taken the kids and left if your father was abusive!"
>Remembering all the past traumas
>Distinctly remember my Dad hitting me with a step ladder after I broke the front door handle
>Remember my Mom hitting me with a fly swatter over and over
>Entire childhood was filled with bullshit
>Siblings were all raging narcissists, did all sorts of wild shit. Not uncommon to have police called, or heinous, callous accusations and belittlements.
>Bullied and ridiculed for pleasure or relieving boredom(their words) nearly every day of my childhood
> Two of my siblings have told me they wish I would kill myself within the last year
>One sibling said I could live with her rent-free when moving out of the city I was in, kicked me out within two days because I said I wanted to get a part-time job and try therapy to deal with my mental illness. I got a full-time job anyway, but they still kicked me out.
>Many beatings have led to me having weird issues like not being able to be blindfolded around anyone, never leaving my door open, always having something near me to fight with if necessary, despite living with a non-violent roommate.
>Someone yelling at me will instantly put me into "fight" mode.
>I can't maintain relationships because I have major trust issues
>Depression has completely ruined my life, and I fully blame my family for it. I may also have brain damage from the amount of times I've been hit in the head
>Have gone no contact with 2 of my siblings and keep the others at arm's distance
>The only times my life was good were when I was away from my family and doing my own thing
>Parents continue the conversation as if these things never happened.
People are shit, and sometimes you are related to them.
pic related, was ridiculed endlessly for my first crush at around 8
>talking to parents as 33M
>talking about my siblings (every one) divorces
>"Well at least none of them were abusive!" my mom talking about the siblings
>"I would've taken the kids and left if your father was abusive!"
>Remembering all the past traumas
>Distinctly remember my Dad hitting me with a step ladder after I broke the front door handle
>Remember my Mom hitting me with a fly swatter over and over
>Entire childhood was filled with bullshit
>Siblings were all raging narcissists, did all sorts of wild shit. Not uncommon to have police called, or heinous, callous accusations and belittlements.
>Bullied and ridiculed for pleasure or relieving boredom(their words) nearly every day of my childhood
> Two of my siblings have told me they wish I would kill myself within the last year
>One sibling said I could live with her rent-free when moving out of the city I was in, kicked me out within two days because I said I wanted to get a part-time job and try therapy to deal with my mental illness. I got a full-time job anyway, but they still kicked me out.
>Many beatings have led to me having weird issues like not being able to be blindfolded around anyone, never leaving my door open, always having something near me to fight with if necessary, despite living with a non-violent roommate.
>Someone yelling at me will instantly put me into "fight" mode.
>I can't maintain relationships because I have major trust issues
>Depression has completely ruined my life, and I fully blame my family for it. I may also have brain damage from the amount of times I've been hit in the head
>Have gone no contact with 2 of my siblings and keep the others at arm's distance
>The only times my life was good were when I was away from my family and doing my own thing
>Parents continue the conversation as if these things never happened.
People are shit, and sometimes you are related to them.
pic related, was ridiculed endlessly for my first crush at around 8
