Alcohol will lift the helplesness off my shoulders again

first

E-battle monday
https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=_QUsrA2lmM4&si=afqxtiUa4XVxYkou

I can make no friends
This might be the most autistic thing about me

Holy shit im so drunk I draank half a bottle in 2 hours

>>22829478
I can but I always abandon them. Even the real online friends I had. I regret it of course. Hope I die within like 30 years at most as Europe is lost.

>>22829478
i'd be your online friend
>>22830056
i do the same but for some reason i don't also think my country should be raped and i should die, no matter how much i hate myself

>>22830056
30 is a good age to die
I PLAN to die then

>>22830064
Im happy to die before elder care. I don't want no Somalian wiping my ass. Actually had an acquantice kill himself in old age, bet he felt similarly.

>>22830064
The problem is that I hate ppl the more I know them this is the problem

>>22830067
I'm past that. Seems like you hit the bottles hard way before me. Only been like a year for me.

>>22830074
Idk if itll stick

Fuck alcohol poisoning

This is what happens when you abandon your discord kitten.

>>22830171
What

>>22829346 (OP)
cheers friend
to temporary happiness

I passed out
>>22830266
To the rush

How the fuck am I sober after 8 hours of bringing 140ml ethanol
This drug is NOT worth it

>i spilled the beans
I unironically said this yesterday

E-battle monday

>>22831343
I lost
Maybe because I'm already slightly drunk

MY OPTIONS WEARING THING
BUT NO DOUBT I HAVE TO WINNN

Hear my hallowed favours now
To my will you shall bow
The stars are one with my name
And I will not bring them shame
Singing out to the moon
And with her I attune
Crying out to the sun
And with her I am one
You will see who I am
A true princess deep within
My magic knows me better
This is my final letter...

Yummers

you may think that but it never actually does
its the opposite actually

>>22831615
Stop being so negative

Tbh yeah, little bit of green goes a long way too.

W**d is the only drug I've always felt so repulsed by

A person that sucks deserves something that sucks

I insulted his niggyweed and he got mad

I hated my intuition with an undying passion and I been vastly successful at murdering it and replacing it with pragmatism. There are some specks of it left, I would like to get rid of them till I reach the level of weaponized autism.

>>22831618
i just speak the truth sorry

https://old.reddit.com/r/cripplingalcoholism/comments/1l8kelx/my_uncle_died_alone_in_his_apartment_alcoholism/

stop drinking
it kill u
cup already broken

>>22831779
No No No
>>22831793
[Removed]
What cup

won an e-battle

Might drink later

>>22832146
?
>>22832147
good mognirng

>>22832152
It's evening baka
I am very invested in e-battling these recent days

>>22832158
false, its morning whenever i wake up and i just woke up from a nap thus its morning

https://litter.catbox.moe/edml5vlyoo2i3sw1.mp4

>>22831793
this shit is scary
i dont want to fall through the cracks of society & end up like this

>>22832189
It's not too bad
ok maybe
Started chugging

>>22829346 (OP)
Whit what you go fueled

>>22832215
>>22832187

>>22832214
watcha sippin

>>22831614
>Cold beans out of a can

Grim.

>>22832217
>>22832221
BRO
>>22832222
quads
It's tasty

>>22832222
i do it too
no one ever tells me what to make instead, besides like frozen broccoli and chicken and whatever
i guess to learn what well-adjusted people eat, you have to become rich and be friends with them

>>22832222
Not as bad as hikikomori faggots or diogenes niggers, aslo checked

>>22832225
i dont click links sorry

>>22832233
If you weren't a phonefag you'd see the (embed)

>>22832229
what's worse about them?

>>22832241
https://www.dailymotion.com/video/x6h7yim

I found out if you take a pre-sip it's easier to chug later
>>22832247
Me in the middle

>>22832252
me on the left

https://youtu.be/Bqibsgrjjws?t=118

>>22832250
good lord..
although it makes me wonder whether he spends most of his time there, or whether he hangs out at other people's houses or goes to work 8+ hours per day or works on a boat for periods of a few months
i don't imagine you could live like that for an extended period without your health declining

just the way he sounds healthy & his hands are clean & he acts receptive/well-adjusted
seems like he would have a band of similar guys that he does mischief with
idk

>>22832256

>>22832256
>>22832261
He's just a shut in neet not a junkie
If I was neeting alone it would inevetably end up like this

>>22832235
i am NOT a phonefag and catbox does NOT show embed

i like how a phone in 1960 was basically two cans with a string stuck between them, except the string could be miles long
now a phone is a 360' camera & microphone & tracking device that you carry around

>>22832269
okay
>>22832271
analog romance

>>22832278
yeah..
i remember the section in the anarchist cookbook about how to tell if your phone call was being tapped, and it was literally something you could listen for

>>22832285
>anarchist cookbook
lol
literally the worst book ever
at least the chemistry stuff

>>22832291
i realized that pretty quickly
it was a book my parents had, i always thought itw as super edgy

>>22832296
IIrc it was even shilled by the government

i gotta get into colelge

i dont want to live this out

dunno what's the best case scenario at this point
i could've gone to like switzerland or china probably, but now i might get into a texas state university surrounded by stoner hedonist faggots and psychopaths
i hate the god damned sun and low altitude air and fake grass and dominicans/blacks everywhere
i dunno

gotta do a kettlebell workout

>>22832308
Is saying who
Honestly a chill job at a chicken farm doesn't sound too bad but maybe that's just me
>>22832311
>surrounded by stoner hedonist faggots and psychopaths
This is the worst

>>22832333
it's hellish industrial CAFO operations with immigrant workers, not like wholesome free-range chicken farms
could be worse for sure
>This is the worst
i should've worked harder when i was younger, i guess
saw no reason to at the time though
i had a math teacher who gave me opportunities, but everyone else just screamed at me or felt bad & treated me like a retard

they have a corporate office here as well, idk about that

>>22832341
Idk going through an academic institution seems like hell for me
And you don't even make money
>>22832343
Boring, and low level office will be replaced by AI soon enough

>>22832556
>Idk going through an academic institution seems like hell for me
>And you don't even make money
i'm no longer productive when left to my own devices
i think formal studying would help with that, if nothing else
also could maybe meet interesting people
idk

>>22832571
>maybe meet interesting peopl3
Tbh the most probable is that you will just adapt the ways of the normoid and get happy somehow, it's not too late for you

Bored asf
Might doom later idk

>>22832579
i dunnoooo

I'm dull asf
Why am I missing half of my emotions I literally feel the most comfortable in toxic online environments and as soon as I join supportive circlejerks I feel like puking and insulting everyone

>>22832628
>Why am I missing half of my emotions I literally feel the most comfortable in toxic online environments and as soon as I join supportive circlejerks I feel like puking and insulting everyone
i know what you mean
i think it might be fear of commitment/intimacy & then disappointing others

>>22832630
I'm not a BPD daemon I just find this frailty disgusting. I'm spiteful on the inside but not sadistic

Waiting for everyone to go to sleep to get unwalkably drunk

>>22832640
it might be a BPD thing

>>22832656
Nobody bipolar would be able to follow solitary productive hobbies

>>22832657
BPD is borderline personality disorder
bipolar disorder is different, and you're right it's probably not that

get alcohol poisoning and fucking die you worthless tranny

>>22832665
aueh

>>22832662
>and you're right it's probably not that
i wouldn't know actually

>>22832662
Still not impulsive or emotional
I have this pragmatism and tendency of not caring that excludes me from all those emotional disabilities I think
>>22832665
I'm a grown ass man and could kill you with one strike

>>22832672
ugly self aware tranny award LOL

>>22832682
My incredible rationalism is what makes me objectively superior to your emotional, and irrational mind

>>22832672
i think you are impulsive

chasing feelings via drugs and explosives, also that clear example in the previous thread of some impulsive thing you did, which you regretted
i can't remember what it was
oh doing drugs right before a drug test i think
that combined with the not caring

>>22832697
I never act in affect, I am mostly aware of the consequences I am risking

>>22832701
I don't do those things impulsively. I also don't regret them. I would do almost everything just like that again

hmm...
i think a normie would try to argue those things are still impulsive
idfk though
i gotta make an electrothermal gun like you said

>>22832711
Impulsiveness is defined as acting in affect. For me it's almost the opposite, sometimes I think that something would be a bad idea then do it out of curiosity

I can't believe there's people saying being drunk makes one more miserable lol

Time passes so slowly when drunk but somehow thats okay

i wonder if i'll get drafted

just one disgusting vulgar desolate chopping block to the next
atleast i got to watch some youtube lets plays

>>22832778
>just one disgusting vulgar desolate chopping block to the next
Idgi
And idg how you have the attention to watch lets plays

>>22832788
>And idg how you have the attention to watch lets plays
when i was a kid i mean

>>22832801
Still don't geddit
Too drunk ig

>>22832806
Drubk beyond judgment

it is boozing time again i am dreadfully lonesome

>>22833629
I drank half a bottle of absolut
Also I'm scared of missing out on some e-battle so I dont fall asleeo

Everythinh is turning arrounf this maybe was drunlken too fast

>>22833784
stop drinking too fast

>>22833629
>i am dreadfully lonesome
when are you not?

>>22833815
I passed out
Well I have no memory of making it til 2 am

Wtf nice it died

I will go to the city with my mom to bring candy hand outs to a chill guy I met in prison and IK he's still there

>>22834520
I did this
Bought stuff for 120 bucks lol
Beef jerky and stuffs
They rejected the bubblegum and pringles though

>>22834496
stop passing out

>>22834975
How

>>22834984
idk try amphetamines in combination with boozing i guess

also nobody cares about my nugget injustice which makes me even more mad about it

>>22835005
I think this would result in puking
Also I can't risk it while on probation

>>22835006
I reddit but honestly deserved for eating at kfc

>>22835007
>I think this would result in puking
nah it wont
not that im speaking from personal experience or anything

>>22835008
i dont think i deserve to get scammed for eating some fried chicken

>>22835009
I still can't risk it
Eyeing a shard of 4mmc though
>>22835011
I think you do for financing jewish dogwater food

>>22835018
>I still can't risk it
pussy
>I think you do for financing jewish dogwater food
perhaps
sometimes im just lazy

>>22835031
The trouble if I tested positive would make me off myself in 0.1 seconds

>>22835084
what would happen?

>>22829346 (OP)
gonna be honest with you, i enjoy the state of being tipsy but i think all alcohol tastes absolutely fucking rancid, so it's a constant struggle for me to be able to stomach any of it, to the point where i only drink once a month or so.

the only thing i found that i can sort of tolerate are flavoured rums, which are just... mediocre, instead of being godawful.

>>22835090
Back to prison at worst, forced therapy probably. One on top of the one I already have to attend
>>22835091
I have the same problem but I learnt how to force gulp down 40%

You drunk yet my Swiss cheese.. ubermench?

>>22835108
Nyo, I can't drink before dinner

Busy e-battling
Yesterday I took a massive L while drunk fml need to restore aura

>>22835498
I started 5 hours ago. It's good to be a bit pissed when neighbors arrive from work. God I hate living in apartment, fuxking aids.

>>22835498
lmao what
i cant have breakfast if i havent drank first

>>22835538
I say don't drink before 11-12. If sleep rhythm is ducked, anything goes.

>>22835523
Why are your neighbors so loud
Just listen to music or something
>>22835538
I'm not an alcoholic bozo also can't be shitfaced in front of family

>>22835546
I want to watch stuff sometimes too tho.

>>22835563
>ooh my neighbors interrupted the latest family guy episode with their BPD relationship catfight I HAVE TO DRINK MYSELF INTO MISERY
sorry
Maybe I don't geddit bcz I'm not autistic and sensitive to my senses

>>22835577
>Maybe I don't geddit bcz I'm not autistic and sensitive to my senses
it's hellish

double edged sword i guess

>>22835546
>can't be shitfaced in front of family
just be a normal amount of drunk that you can play off in front of family then

>>22835577
Untermench.

Dinner tiem
Need to fuel the hate

>>22835599
I hate you now so. My beloved.

>>22835599
the only thing ive eaten today is benzos
perhaps i should try eating some food

>>22835608
Hur fick du Benzo?

>>22835615
jag är psykiskt sjuk :)

>>22835621
Vagt svar om något. Hört att benzo är svårt att få utskrivet. Det är ganska likt alkohol i effekt va?

>>22835632
Väldigt svårt att få utskrivet
tydligen är jag dock tillräckligt sjuk i huvudet för att läkarna kunnat rättfärdiga det
om något har de bedömt att det gör mig till mindre av en fara för mig själv och andra än i omedicinerat tillstånd
>Det är ganska likt alkohol i effekt va?
inte ens nära, dricker jag blir jag retarded och mer aggresiv, tar jag benzos känner jag inte längre någonting utan blir bara helt tom, vilket är underbart, de bästa känslorna jag någonsin har är när jag inte känner någonting alls

i gotta learn this language...

Thai curry in my tummy
I think I will try washing down the alcohol with rice drink instead of milk after gulping today, less fat
>>22835607
Wtf rude
>>22835608
I miss my bromazolam so much bruh
>>22835632
>>22835639
Benzos are like alcohol without the sensual impairments so you don't even notice you're retarded. They're ez to get illegally lolz

>>22835655
Googl troonslate mogs

So how do I score drugs?

>>22835655
no you dont

>>22835655
I heard Swedish is easy to learn actually.

>>22835668
It's over for you bozo archetyp market was just kil
Now you gotta be a chad and make them yourself

>>22835677
vad pratar du för skit, för tyskar och dylikt möjligtvis men generellt har jag hört att det ska vara ett av de svårare språken att lära sig

>>22835677
förväntade mig för övrigt någon form av response på min tidigare post men whatever
antar att du inte fann den tillräckligt intressant

>>22835687
Kändes som ett avslut kände jag. Men jag tror inte på dig då, om du svarar så.

>>22835689
så det blir när man ljuger för mycket i guess
när man väl säger något som är sant tror inte någon på det
nästan som att det finns någon barnsaga om det

Why are these ppl egomaxxing in my blog

>>22835699
eheheh...

>>22835689
eller vänta, vilken del är det du inte tror på?

>>22835703
Att inte bry sig.

>>22835705
tror inte jag skrev något sådant
anyway gotta skiddadle
kommer tillbaks om några timmar om du vill återuppta konversationen

>>22835699
thread aint your blog no more bucko
it belongs to me now

>>22835710
Hostile takeover, kek.

>>22835710
Nobody steals my shit bitch
>>22835718
Not funny

Now that the food has settled, time to start boozing

>>22835750
Boozing at 9 pm? Wtf?

>>22835767
Ideal time to start imho

it made the headache go away

My new pronouns are it, just like the entities deep inside the sea, constantly getting crushed by the overwhelming pressure of water just like the pain of living...

>>22835817
i like the way you speak, funny man

>>22835721

>>22835817
Horny minx vibes. Quite gay.

Daily reminder that Alkohol raises cortisol, messes up your sleep and fucks up all your gains.
Dont drink, never goon.

>>22835820
>replies this to my biggest trvke
It's over
>>22835832
If I'm gay all of you are trans fucker

>>22835842
Good
I'm cortisolmaxxing

>>22835845
I'm a Virgin. Heaven here I come motherfuckers!

>>22835858
Idgi

>>22835862
Stop posting hot weeb images!

>>22835866
I need to bring the point that I'm edgy across

>>22835874
I'm so edgy I root for the Nazis in Band Of Brothers. Beat that.

>>22835877
Idk what that is but rooting for nazis would violate my wannabe machiavellian pragmatism codex

>>22835886
You didn't watch Band Of Brothers and The Pacific? Two of the best shows ever made. Damn....

>>22836088
I was 5 years old when this aired

>>22836385
It's timeless. Two great shows about brotherhood.

>>22836396
Will I understand friendship after watching it

when I crack open a beer I get this head rush feeling that's better then the actual beer lol a beer is about as close as one can get to canned happiness

>>22836406
Yes.

>>22836413
I wish I felt this
>>22836416
Maybe I'll watch it I have all the time rn (I won't bcz I'm a lazy freak)

>>22836422
Your loss. Not like I'd travel to Schweiz, kidnap you and tie you up in front of a TV.

>>22836437

>>22836422
>Maybe I'll watch it I have all the time rn (I won't bcz I'm a lazy freak)
i do that
things used to feel so much longer and more interesting when i would watch them

>>22836452
I miss the ability to binge shows and be actually interested

>>22836471
If you can't enjoy BoB and The Pacific you're unironically lost.

Well what about something lighter? American pie 1-3? Can't say how many times I've watched those.

>>22836475
Anhedonia is creeping up on me

>>22836471
yeah
>>22836479
FUUUUUUUUUCK
i don't even do drugs anymore either

>>22836487
Drugs are the effect for me not the cause

>>22836490
i'm too anhedonic to drug
i guess that's something
i think my dad is similar, he used to drink but he basically just makes chatGPT videos in the laundry room like a moneymaking appliance at this point

>>22836479
i do this....
good evening it is time to drink again

>>22836493
>he basically just makes chatGPT videos
What
lol
>>22836496
Good evening
Make sure you pass out

>>22836507
that ius just how it be

I took the 4-mmc after throughly thinking about it
Everything is turning even before

>>22836542
What is 4mmc?

MDMA and meth crossover but without toxic metabolites like mdma

>>22836554
You doing hard drugs? I think you might have an addiction problem. I now understand the post about getting a phone number.

>>22836565
I had those drugs all the time and made them buddy. They found nothing when they raided my house lol. Also I don't think I'm addicted but I can't imagine a life with complete abstinence from drugs. I can go weeks without carvings but have shit discipline when it hits also I do all kinds completely randomly

Oh yeah I missed this

I will gulp the last 20%bdon

dear lord oh my heavens

>>22837340
Do you even believe in god

>>22837360
not really but im not entirely opposed to the idea

Holy shiet
Why do I always wake up so early
>>22837720
Well I am

But I wanna score drugs!! >o<

My teeth hurt
Time to shower

>>22837969
Fed

>>22837971
lol no

>>22837972
>score
Who tf says that

First court mandated therapy session today

What a horrible night to have a curse

Tension headacheee

Tiem to attend therapy

i cut myself deep enough that i think i went into shock, light head and arms felt cold/numb.
my other cuts look deeper but this one was the most fun

>>22838200
Kys aspd freak

My bus came late and I will be late to my first session fml

>>22838220
why so hostile, for a faggot anime poster you would think you would be nicer. what did your dad not fuck you today or something?

>>22838228
Why are you acting like you are a 14 year old girl?

>>22838494
because thats what your dad likes

>>22838228
My machiavellian ways make me look down on people who cut themselves unless it's exclusively for attention/image purposes
Also I'm a big hairy man

>>22839122
>attention
nah more just sharing my experience, was a bit of fun and the best thing is that it doesnt leave as much of a mark.
cut for the effect not for the looks kids

>>22839134
I just said I don't like ppl who do it for the effect... are you esl?

>>22839142
nope just dont care to much about your thoughts

well i would of liked to talk, i cant post an image of it it you really care that much but id rather post mad shit like this

>>22839197
can*

>>22839197
Based as fuck.

Therapy was so random
He was genuinely shocked when I said the only thing I regret is getting caught in such a retarded way

>>22839244
cry more faggot, you are an attention seeking whore, respond faggot

>>22837976
I learned it on the streets

>>22839246
What should I say
>attention seeking
Yes
>whore
No
>faggot
No

>>22839249
if you need others to think for you life has no meaning. why cant you think for your self

>>22839251
I don't need others but attention is interesting

This fucker is mocking me
Asking me for my ID every time
Do I look like I age backwards

https://files.catbox.moe/l66a69.mp4

I am not a Napoleon

Sybau

I'm winning

where do you find your images

>>22840013
secret

I set up my laptop that has a broken screen and use it with my external one
Finally had enough energy to do this but was hard af drunk

Weekends are so much more interesting on 4chud than weekdays are there really ppl using 4chud exclusively on weekends lole

me rn

It's kinda insane how lonely women on d*sc*rd actually exist en masses since rona
It triggered some kind of lonely girl zoomer epidemic and suddenly 'cords are filled with girls and autists that both hate each other

they suck at e-battling though

Just exed 300ml at once
I will either puke
or pass out
or puke while passed out and die

only have extremely toxic environments to interact with lole

How do you find smaller discord servers? The big ones used to have community sections with lists of smaller servers but they dont anymore

>>22840367
idk I'm in the same toxic circles since ever and it's all about e-battling

Malabar front

I'm smiling

bump

>>22843707
oh this thread is still up

uhhh alcohol taste bad
do people genuinely enjoy the taste or do people pretend to like it