Lights out people. My life is over. Ruined it all on my own. World didn't help, I don't like it.

Just need a good method to become available.

Live in the yukon and befriend a sasquatch

>>22841268 (OP)
you could always join a boat crew
salmon/crab fishing or working on a cargo ship
cargo ship might be peaceful

>>22841273
I'm nearly 40 mate. The last 3 years have seen my body go to waste. I've traveled, worked, learned, lived. The disgrace I feel is purely personal.

My mind is set, it's merely about a swelling of willpower to try an unsavory method, or a proper clean method to become available.
>>22841279
They'd never hire me, even if it wanted to. The world doesn't work than way.

>>22841268 (OP)
What happened?? Stop being vague and cryptic.

>>22841281
is there anything you would've done differently when you were younger? or any advice?

>>22841287
In this world the best thing to go is get a job as soon as your old enough, and then to work with no gaps for the rest of your life. If you can retire, lucky you.
Dont worry about the deeper aspects of the world. Watch the news, vote, try to have friends

>>22841298
thanks
i'm falling behind in those regards for sure, gotta focus
>>22841268 (OP)
what is this image, by the way?

>>22841283
If I told you, you'd call me insane, even if you knew it was true.

>>22841308
sometimes i feel this way when i feel compelled to say something
you should say it though

i have nightmares where something bad is about to happen
i try to get their attention & scream, but they can't see me, and i have no voice
i get gradually more panicked until i wake up

>>22841306
>this image
the one in your OP, i mean

>>22841311
Its a fire alarm and a paper bag?

>>22841315
that would've been my first guess
i thought maybe it was something other than a fire alarm, idk
thanks

Hey seriously anything can happen, don't be discouraged at your current situation. Dying won't help it'll only make your loved ones sad. Try anything, start a YouTube, write a book etc. help others avoid ending up where you are now and document yourself getting out of the current hardships!

Never give in!

>>22841298
Almost 40 years of life and still doesn't know the difference between "your" and "you're."

>>22841325
Phone posting, faggot.
>>22841321
Im well aware of the possibilities of this world. For someone of my age, caste, and privelege there is nothing on the horizon desirable

That's enough whining for now. I'll get my chance eventually

>>22841338
I'm not sure what you mean by this. What are the parameters for a suitable method?

>>22841332
It's all temporary. You can build on yourself and be great just don't give in!

>>22841357
Nope, my mind is washing away with every day.

>>22841423
What are the parameters? It's very easy to kill yourself. Just get a shotgun and blow your head off like poor Ronnie.

>>22841427
You want to bring me one?

Yes my mind has been sullied and ruined. Lights out.

6am and have nothing i want to do award

Would absolutely blow my brains out award