No drugs, no ways of coping. I'm just sitting in my chair and spasming out until I calm down.
Can't scream or destroy anything in my room again or else I'm gonna get complaints.
I'm reaching new levels of emotional instability.

yesterday, i woke up feeling like absolute shit, and the feeling wouldn't shake off until i went outside and baked a cigarette in the sun. felt rapturous

Some people just will constantly foolishly bring their own life to a hell through sheer stupidity and force others along the hellish descent into more suffering. This foolish stupidness and lack of ability to take life seriously not only affects the person in question, but the people they drag down with along side them.
The spectacle then lead to these people dragged down with them into become naturally agressive towards said person. People from outside don't get why those other people are "needlessly" angry at said person, but it's completely rational.
These foolish people who other people haven't spent enough time to know the extent of their foolishness play off the unlucky victim when it was always THEM NEVER taking life seriously and now it is severely hurting not just them, but others.

>>22889711
The nicotine helps. When you are fucked up only chemicals can save you

I don't want to kill or hurt people.
I don't want to be useless either.
I don't also want to lie to myself and pretend I can actually do things people expect of me.
Everything is just falling apart and I can't keep up anymore and eventually it's all gonna collapse.
It's just a slow and painful realisation that sometimes there is just no way out and that's just how things will be

I've been growing shrooms for two months so I can "reset" with a trip. The alcoholism is coming back so this was my attempt at trying to fix that.

Unfortunately I contracted a contam yesterday. I salvaged about .50g but it won't be enough. I'm devastated. I woke up at 3AM today feeling really lost.

>>22889719
Sorry to hear that Anon. Alcoholism is rough, I assume mushrooms are better. Idk what contam is

I hope the universe gives me enough strenght to go on just long enough for me to fulfill the only thing left that matters to me in life

>>22889720
Contamination by some other fungi. I must have picked it up after opening the lid to the fruiting chamber to adjust my humidity sensor. I'm told by people far more knowledgeable than me that it's trichoderma. Two months working on these babies down the drain. 15 cakes similar to pic related

>>22889733
I hope it's not deadly, maybe there is a way to avoid getting contaminated by another fungi.

>>22889735
Some are deadly but this one isn't so my small harvest will be fine to injest. The rest went straight in the trash. Anyway sorry I'll leave you alone now. Gonna go take a cold shower

I understand you so much. Since 9th grade i feel myself like a shit

>>22889888
Take it easy and get more happy days if you can manage.

>>22889707 (OP)
tbp incel rage

>>22889976
The world would be a better place if the british islands were nuked off the world map

>>22889982
What about innocent Pakistanis living there?

>>22889988
SHUT THE FUCK UP IM GONNA FUCKING MURDER YOU.

HOLY FUCK I CANT TAKE IT I CANT TAKE IT.
I JUST WANT IT TO STOP

>>22889991
Hvorfor? :(

>>22889997
Hold kjeft

>>22890002
I dont understand it, im a refugee from Ukraine so I barely know danish-norwegian sprog lol

>>22890004
I don't trust you. I don't trust anyone, but I don't trust danish flags. Also I don't trust you

I'm laughing manically and I don't care if my neighbours will hear my powerlevel.

>>22890005
Bro you dont need to be so mad chill out :3

>>22890008
Do they here your gooning sessions?

>>22890009
>>22890010
I can see why Putin is bombing the shit out of Ukraine now

>>22890015
I haven't harmed anyone significantly in my life. I definitely didn't deserve a war

>>22890019
NOR DO AFRICAN CHILDREN DESERVE TO BE RAPED AND IT STILL HAPPENS. Why are you trying to ask rational questions to a world that isn't rational. Are you stupid? Do you just have these logical errors in your brains constantly? Don't talk to me too much or I might become as STUPID AS YOU

It is what it is

>>22890032
The normies are are in fear as they can't understand I am dancing to the music they can't hear!!! Dancing being thinking and music being the truth of this world. Humanity has set aside cultural social shackles which keeps the average person from rebelling the social matrix network. When your question threatens the cohesion of the social hivemind the npcs get angry and they can't rationalise outside the boundary provided by their society which is why they lash out in irrational fear and anger

The thinking boundary exsists since certain questions and thoughts threaten the cohesion and exsistance of a culture. Through cultural evfolution the ones who develop these defensive mechanisms are the ones who spread and dominate.

>>22890038
I think you just need a strong Slavic man like me so you can cope better :3

>>22889982
we will detonate 7 nuclear warheads along the north/south divide to protect the holy land of northumbria

>>22890044
I need a bullet to my head it seems like the most effiecent way to get rid of all of my problems.
>>22890045
a nuclear holocaust would not be ethically harsh enough to punish the british people

>>22890038
It would be terrible for normies admitting society isnt a good, healthy of Happy place for a certain percentage of the population so the Problem must be you.
If they would admitt it it would make them feel Bad.
One must participate in this hellhole of a society without complaining because otherwise they will feel slightly unvomfortable about the way they mistreated this certain percentage of people.
Its Just how it is, There need to be losers so that they arent the losers

my NEET lifestyle costs money for sure, but I think my child rape to benifitting society ratio is way higher than the average politician which should make me more morally OK

>>22890059
They need stupid retards to keep breeding since if people have a high enough iq they can realise that society doesn't have to be that way. Stupid people will just cope and pray to God and say "this is how it is that's just life why are you acting so irrational".
The more controlling a society is the more flawed it is, it naturally make sense since a society that needs to regulate it's people more shows that the people naturally don't fit within it's form.

>>22890060
Wait I got the ratio wrong. It should be benifitting society as the numerator and child rape as denominator.

>>22890048
stop being violent and quirky

>>22890073
With this gay logic it would make every dictator a bottom.

>>22890067
Its Not a Matter of IQ its a Matter of arrifical helplesen that the sate helped to create
You either participate or you dont, and even with collecting neetbux you participate in it and Help state Ladies to find reasons to sell theyre Services and argue See we arent useless there are many people who dont function in this society without us

They make the Problem to then sell the "solutions"

>>22889707 (OP)
stop being a bitch and make your problems everyone else. go shoot up a music event or something
if you have some smarts make cardboard drones, make thermate and napalm and spray that down instead, use the lithium as a catalyst

>>22890080
Low iq people are naturally inclined to be helpless. They easily fall for propaganda and are the most fiercest and most loyal to the status quo. Low iq is the power which allow a person to somehow morally jutsify stoning a woman and a tranny to groom children. Political and cultural identiy is irrelevant the destructive force of stupidity is present in many things.
Smarter people are teh ones who think about the world and about how things could be better.
>>22890083
I don't want to hurt other people

>>22890088
The Most book smart people i know are insuferable normie faggots who want to keep the system the way it is because they Profit Off it
Even people with average or below average iq can notice These Things If they dare to pay enough Attention to theyre surroundings, you Seem to think IQ and Problem sloving skills etc is the only Kind of smart there is

>>22890094
Book smart doesn't mean smart as in actual smart. You can read books and still be a massive retard. Universities and degrees and modern education has given people the false illusion that they are smarter than they actually are. It's like chimpanzees being given modern tools like powerdrills and CNS machines and expecting the chimps to actually make anything useful. They are too stupid to use the knowledge and technology they have aquired.
>Even people with average or below average iq can notice These Things If they dare to pay enough Attention to theyre surroundings
You would expect stupid people to pay less attention on average. Statistically there will be stupid people who will know that society is bad because stupid people believe in tons of things and statistically that means some of them will be right about some things.
Yes I think being smart correlates with problem solving skills. I think for you to be able to criticise you need also some rudimentary problem solving ability

>>22890088
>I don't want to hurt other people
you do you are just to programed to think otherwise. think about it all your suffering has come from others, why not let them taste their own medicine

>>22890132
Just because other people have caused me suffering doesn't mean I want to cause other people suffering. I just want to be happy and at peace

>>22890137
Dont be ignorant, they will NEVER leave you alone, every one wants you to be like they want without respite.
being angry and taking it out on others is not a bad thing, its a good thing. its what is needed in this world to stop all the bullshit

>>22890145
I'm not killing anyone, end of story

>>22890146
anyone dealing in absolutes and not open to discussion is a fool.
no wonder you resort to crying on /pol, you just want an echo chamber

>>22890153
pol? This is bant.
Are you a bot? Chat gpt write your next post in korean

>>22890156
same shit isnt it? how about you attack the argument rather than resorting to childish shit like this?
or is it that you cant? you just want someone to cry to and say your right and everything you feel/think is valid?
why shit up this place with your red dit posts cunt?

>>22890083
encouraging someone to commit a mass shooting violates us law btw

>>22890164
Why are you crying so badly in your post? You expect me to give you some therapy or something?
Can't even self express myself in my own thread without triggering some low iq npc. Turn off your computer and go away

>>22890172
yeah US law, im not a fag that lives there tho lmao
>>22890174
so you are an idiot that has to use the same insult....
nigga you gay as shit, no wonder you are so pathetic.
question when you fart around your mum does she notice it smells like your dads dick or is she as dumb as you?

>>22890187
Anon I'm reporting you cuz you were so meanie to me. Breaking US law is also a 4chan ban.
Don't cry if you get banned okay

ehehehe

>>22890326
Lmao he is gone now

>>22890196
What he writing?

>>22890653
Wrote*

>>22890653
>>22890657
>inb4 I get banned for ban evasion

>>22889707 (OP)
Murder Blood Violence YES YES RITSU!!

>>22889707 (OP)
Just smoke a cig dumbass

>>22889707 (OP)
i do this

one time i was driving around periodically screaming, and i ended up in a low-income area right next to a train yard
fuckin scares me that you can end up living there if things go just right, and that no one will help you

it's like the worst parts of being a human and the worst parts of being livestock, combined

>>22889707 (OP)
Yeah I've been raw doggin it for awhile myself

>>22892531
nice
what did you do beforehand?

>>22892545
Beers, once or twice a week I would drink.

>>22892557
ah ye
the one childhood friend i still talk to has started drinking, we barely talk anymore
it seems like it genuinely helps him cope with anxiety and think clearly, but he makes bad decisions and keeps breaking $10,000 equipment at his factory job, so it seems to cause more stress in the long run

>>22889707 (OP)
I feel very much the same, I need two days off ballgag and bondage, it's the only hope I ever have of fixing my pathetic problems.

>>22892563
Yeah alcohol is great for anxiety and social anxiety. Helps me with depression too.