Im closer to 30 than I am 18 im scared. Im gonna be old and I don't feel like an adult I don't know anything or how shit works and im gonna be dead before I know it.

what a horrible world we live in

>>22908848 (OP)
your mind stops maturing at your mid teenage years.
Sometimes it feels like high school was a few years ago
im 28 i graduated high school 10 years ago

>>22908848 (OP)
You should force yourself to learn some useful skill. You might eventually even start to like it.

>>22908853
Almost half my life is over and I'm a goofy akward retard not this stable pillar of knowledge I think I should be. I don't want to be old.

>>22908856
It doesn't help the feeling of helplessness in the face of the merciless march of time.

>>22908862
you still have to do it

either do what he said & find something to do, or fix the loneliness
but please for the love of god do atleast one of those two

alot of people end up in their forties or fifties still feeling that loneliness, and also have no choice but to work some dead-end job

>>22908868
I'm am doing something. I am in school for engineering I like it but it feels pointless the future is uncertain and I'm just tired. I'll be 26-27 when I graduate I feel like I'm too slow.

I feel like I'm going to throw up every time I think about how short 4 years is.

>>22908868
egocentrism is retarded.
OP could get into a relationship and then feel absolutely nothing because the problem is fulfillment and fomo not coping and giving yourself a false sense of fulfillment by getting into a relationship or having kids.

>>22908950
ah damn
i dropped out of highschool, i'm 21 now
i wanted to be an engineer at one point

but yeah, try to grit your teeth and graduate, you've come this far
in the meantime, do whatever you have to do to cope with the loneliness & keep working
coping isn't good in the long run, but when you have some genuinely important shit to do, it is

just don't burn out, whatever you do

>>22908956
How long time feels depends entirely on what you do with your time.

>>22908957
egocentrism?
>>22908957
>OP could get into a relationship and then feel absolutely nothing because the problem is fulfillment and fomo not coping and giving yourself a false sense of fulfillment by getting into a relationship or having kids.
yeah, sometimes it's just fomo and stunted development, and the relationships turn out to be anticlimactic
it's worth finding out though, maybe OP could get something out of it
just don't do anything retarded like commit to children immediately & you can always change your mind later on

>>22908960
We are already more than halfway to 2026 and it feels like yesterday was January 1st. How to I stretch the time out? Working makes time feel longer but not in a good way.

>>22908966
>How to I stretch the time out?
fulfillment & having a place in the world & doing things you want to do
i know it's a vague answer but yeah
it seems like you don't know what you want & it's making you anxious
just try things honestly, don't overthink it too much
join a fencing class or something

>>22908968
>join a fencing class or something
or hwatever
just the first thing you can think of that sounds intriguing or fun

>>22908966
do less, achieve less, be a loser unironically.
Every small achievement wipes away the feeling of something taking ages.
Recently ranked in martial arts, it felt like i was never gonna rank now it feels like i ranked too quickly even though the instructor said i was long overdue.
The people on this website that talk about shit from 10 years ago as if it happened last week talk about it like that for a reason. They literally do absolutely nothing worth while with their time and then wonder why they're so depressed

>>22908966
It's just going to get shorter in terms of how you perceive it
>>22908968
That will make the time go by even faster, are you not familiar with the phrase time flies when you're having fun? Focusing on a task results in the same effect.

>>22908968
it all depends on the pace
doing the things you wanna do makes time move at a normal pace

>>22908973
the biggest question to ask yourself: Is doing absolutely nothing worth it? or would you rather have a nice roof over your head and be able to purchase things and enjoy your favorite activities even if it's just for a few hours on the weekend?
sadly those are the only two options because that's just how the world works

>>22908976
That's subjective, but practically speaking yes. You've gotta work to live. There are exceptions to the rule though. Plenty of assholes sitting on millions of dollars that they made who didn't really do anything to earn it so to speak. It's a symptom of a society where perceived value has long surpassed actual and practical value.

>>22908970
that's also why you hear so many people say: "I am really talented just very lazy" a shit ton on here.
Choose your time wisely. It's only gonna speed up no matter what as you get older

>>22908977
yes, very true

idk, im fuckign useless

>>22908979
I am lazy. I'd probably do absolutely nothing if it weren't for the fact that I have physical deadlines and times to be places.

>>22908994
if you're doing that stuff on time even if it's by the skin of your teeth than you arent lazy
the definition of a lazy person that we have only exists because a bunch of people are in agreeence that normal human responses to things must mean you dont care. Everyone procrastinates or has in the past. It's a normal human reponse to stress. Laziness would be straight up not doing it and then saying you didnt care later.
Our country was designed to be like an automated business so even if you're tired you're expected to preform as if you're a perfect person and not make mistakes

>>22909001
10 minutes late but you get so much done at work that you being late doesnt even matter?
Well to your boss your work output doesnt mean shit. He cares about if you arrive at your designated time because on paper that means you're doing your job

>>22908968
I don't have time to join a fencing clas or really do much else other than work and school it's maddening. Im just so tired I want to fall down and be eaten alive by Rumia or something.

>>22909015
sorry
>Im just so tired I want to fall down and be eaten alive by Rumia or something.
i feel you

>>22908848 (OP)
i feel like i haven't really grown up since i turned 18
idk i just thought i'd be more responsible or wiser or have things more figured out by now

>>22909015
graduate first and you'll get a ton of time.
Plenty of hema athletes are engineers.
European martial arts are like 1000x more expensive than anything traditional

>>22908848 (OP)
the olds of the future are gonna act young
we're gonna get stuff done anon is not as hard as it seems