Get pregnant!
But i will Not marry you and also Not Take any of the responsibilities
When i Had miscariage i saw that my Support system is non existent and that i got kicked to the curb Essentially

Im Just vent Posting again tho because i have No one to Talk with about my sorrows
I feel drained of my Life force and Like the world rejects me, and If i gave birth the world would reject that child together with me If it was a bastard
Yet the pressure is still on me to get preggo asap because le time is running Out or Something
I dont wanna Hurt anymore and i want my Future child to also Not Hurt
I Sometimes Wonder If my miscariage was better Off going to god then being rejected By everyone

I feel Like i could throw my Guts Up right now
When i feel Like this and re evaluate what Happened then i often wanna Run far far away.. its Just a Fantasy and wouldnt be a solutions BC the Grass is Not greener anywhere

No one cares LOL
Only people who wanna have Sex with you pretend to Care BC they wanna bang you or people who want to make you worse pretend to Care to have more Control
So Go fuck off and shoot urself dumb cunt or whatever No one cares about ur miscariage sob Stories No one will Miss u LOLE

>>22919580 (OP)
OP image is becoming the symbol of ranting.
Time for my shitty opinion nobody asked for. I sure do feel bad for women, but a lot of the time they do not understand that they also have to hold responsibilities just like everyone else. It is a persons own fault if they do not take their responsibilities. If two irresponsible people have a kid when they don't want to. They both are to blame.
Unless it was rape.

I cant anymore
I need to Push Up my Feelings and the unfortunate reality to get the impulsivity to end my Life for good

>>22919585
why would you have a child before marrying somone, it sounds like you're rushing to chain yourself to him with a kid

>>22919656
It's hard to know if you or other people are the cause of the problem. External influences arise as specific internal states. Therapists, psychologists etc all treat undesirable internal states as self caused as a problem, and they rarely adress enviromental problems. If other people are truly the problem in your life changing your enviroment should be helping you a lot. If you are the problem then you will be fucked up no matter where you end up

I cant stay appearently but i also cant Go Back to le abuser household from my parents
There is really No place for me

>>22919663
He Said He doesnt wanna marry me in the next 10 years yet He wants to make a child with me saying He cant wait much longer Bc His biological Glock is ticking and that He will have to leave me If i cant
It Rings many Alarm bells in my head

stop yapping

>>22919685
that's pretty retarded like he wants to have a child but isnt 100% sure about it so if he doesnt like it then he will ditch you like a nigger. i would stay away

>>22919580 (OP)
it seems to me that someone’s back on the crack pipe.

>>22919742
I also have the though that He would ditch me Like a nigger
>>22919751
Im sober and crying at the Work toilet
I told my coworkers gonna have a quick mental Breakdown in the toilet and they Just Said OK but maybe Clean the toilet while Ur at it

>>22919760
You consented to getting a baby inside of you. You consented to take drugs. You consented to not take life seriously when you had to. Now you are having a mental breakdown in a toilet.

>>22919760
>we live in a society
Pretty much.
Its almost insane that u "think" that he "might" ditch u.
He will, and thats a certain lmao.
>women am i right?

>>22919760
you should probably quit your job, move to norgay and marry the cutie boy r*tsu-chan and have a bay with him. he’s half asian so he’s half as likely to abandon you.

>>22919776
I don't consent to this

>>22919767
I was 15 Back then nigga i didnt think of consequences but now i do..
>>22919772
Then why would He ask to make a baby with me before doing so
Just Pump and dump?

Don't have a baby with a boy thats not man enough to marry you

>>22919779
to bad that consent is a mere social construct. but either way you do you man.

>>22919782
>15
Fair. Most likely the outcome of a shitty enviroment. A lot of people acts as victims when they are adults and are too lazy to act on their responsibilities.

Im so lonley and sad and in desperate need of protection and stability

>>22919782
Obvly.
He will get u preggos and then vanish.
Spread his seed lmao
That womencant use the brain is insane...
But equal right ye?
....
Fuck around and find out.
U got it told

>>22919785
Laws, authority and peoples retalation to your words and actions are very real.

>>22919782
you where 25 back then. old enough to know what you were getting into.

>>22919791
all social construct doe.
>>22919792
when you started to go baby crazy I mean

>>22919784
I dont want to do this without marriage anyway but He Tried to pressure me and then got upset and called me a whore saying i Have to make Up for being such a whore
>>22919786
Only a fool would make a mistake two Times
I learned trough bleeding and suffering
>>22919788
I cant get my Mind around this concept but i Had the fear this was the Case because He insisted He doesnt wanna marry me
>>22919792
Im 18 now i was 15 Back then

>>22919793
Your opinion of someone is a social construct, but if they get mad at you and punch your face in. That's real.

They Always say the only ones uncondtionally Loved are children animals and women
I must be a man then

>>22919795
yes violence is natural order, I agree.
>>22919794
when I guess I’ve cummed on a photo of 15 year old austrian girl before. easily wouldn’t even make the top 10 most shameful things I done this week.

>>22919797
They say that, but abuse on children, animals and women is pretty common in the world
>>22919801
Stop being a subhuman weirdo

>>22919805
I’m too far gone to ever give up now.

Seek guidance from a professional and not schizoids on a Himalayan basket weaving forum.

>>22919812
And you don't think she already has gotten "help" from the state? From so called professionals?

>>22919812
Professionals get paid to Act Like they Care its theyre Job
At least Here i know people give away theyre free time to read and maybe reply to my sob Story wich makes it feels more human and less Like a Service

>>22919816
It’s not about whether they really “care” because yes it is just their job. A “professional” or counselor of some kind should be a person that is unattached from the people and the emotions in your situation and help you navigate the path forward. A good one would only give the scaffold to let you determine what outcome is best for yourself. Though as one of the schizoids on this underwater Nepalese looming board, I can’t make you do anything. Sorry things haven’t gone well.

>>22919794
If you already bear his children, why would he merry you?
What does he gain from goving you rights for Unterhalt usw.
He doesnt get shit, only the women gets something out of marrige lmao
If you really dont get this sinple concept... lost cause.

>>22919856
So basically i am Just Not important enough for him
That checks Out

>>22919580 (OP)
Anyone suggesting you see a shrink should be killed. The world isn't all them. I elected to be a soldier once upon a time so seeing the enemy, slaying them and knowing somewhere better is safe, is fair.

The cowards try to make themselves my normal, what I defend and spread. Low standards.
They haven't succeeded. Not entirely. And as I see it there are areas free of them.

And for the large part standards prevail everywhere. Are primary. In charge. The problems pervading but not providing. Parasites, perverts, trying like here to be prominent. Decided that's what they are, their race, species, kind. Wrong. Theives and rapists. Whatever worst they can gather as.

Don't let them in as reality. They're questions as they're right. (Asking if they are right.)
And they are not. Answer in force can fix perhaps, but at least show others less corrupt that cowards aren't all there are.

Be glad for whatever nicety you know, get, can find. It may have been hard won. Civilisation just for a little bit of beauty.
I used to hate it. A bit ungratefully for progress. Complex life.
Some hold back greatness, enjoyment. Impair to exceed.
Some provide. Make.

Try to thank what's nice by knowing what they've made. Passing it on. Improving it. If a lot of bad, then look for the good and save that, a higher priority than what wrong tagged along, taking credit, claiming good from it.

Look after yourself. When nice for you then a kid could absorb the excess good, and what you get, be good itself, some match so a place has masters, gardeners, maintenance, future and advancement.

Maybe with overpopulation, the best should stay alive rather than be replaced by adaptations. Infertility from trying to prevent aging. Stay at a state. Reproduction as backup should remain. But kids could adhere to enemy instruction, intrusions like internet, out competing rearing. Bad organisation pushing wrong, like google advertising rap. Can see some with money, numbers, and stolen technology, slave

>>22919905
Even If this was nigger babble i actually understood half of the advice
I will consider it and try to Look for the good in the Bad

>>22919580 (OP)
s, are wrong by what they showcase. What they offer to adopt. Make prominent. Their aims are degenerate and selfish. To make all stupid, so they can administrate. Reap. Stupid easy to manage. Rationed good things, good cut from itself and offered with wrong.
Addicting slaves.

Don't be dependant on such wrong.

That part of being a good lover if not parent.
Having an alternative.
Having an alternative to wrong.
Your right.
Remember that.
Establish that.
Give it to good. Your man, your child, yours. Build the good, deny bad the position of provider, be the provider, be good, and care for good given, keep it seperate at least in your mind from bad. Keep what is good out there, a place in the world. Visited sometimes as free of otherwise.

>>22919898
Yea
He was never serious about you, like at all.
Used u good, like all badboy chads, took what he wanted and moved on.
Its amazing that women never see that coming, and think that they are soooo special.
And then years alter... why are men such pigs buhu.
Maybe vett them beforehand?
Maybe some selfcontrol?
Maybe dont jump on every dick out there?
Nah women are smart, funny and know what they are doing.
Fucking clowns

>>22919940
Calm down incel

>>22919940
I never Said i knew what i was doing
I explizit stated i need a responsible man to Take Care of me and Provide for me for a time so i can finally get some Rest (perhaps even my dad If He has a Change of Heart though i doubt it)

>>22919794
I think you have bad taste in men

>>22920088
to be fair she was a dumbass 15 yr old but yes now you're 18 and have connection move on bro

>>22920092
>old but yes now you're 18 and have connection move on bro
What

>>22920096
ain't the baby dead?

>>22920098
Is it? I'm not reading everything posted in this thread.

>>22920098
Ye its dead since 3 years
It was Not old enough to Count as stillborn but i thought i was dying when it came Out blood was everywhere and the dumbass nurse Just flushed it down the toilet...
Thats how much Wörth a child has to this society

>>22920103
In the past you would just bash the baby's head with a rock and call it an "accident". or maybe choke it to death with a pillow and call it "Sudden infant death syndrome". Now normies just do it in a more socially sophisticated way by killing the "baby" before it becomes a socially recognised baby. Quite interesting isn't it. I think abortions are natural, infantcide is natural. People just don't want to admit they are baby killers

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pain_in_babies
>It was only in the last quarter of the 20th century that scientific techniques finally established babies definitely do experience pain – probably more than adults – and developed reliable means of assessing and of treating it. In the 1980s, it was widely believed by medical professionals that babies could not feel pain, with medical procedures such as surgeries being regularly performed without anesthesia.[2]

>>22920103
That's rough it sounds like you need therapy, you don't sound crazy.

I couldn't imagine the pain. Move on from this man, don't look in the past you're not going that way.. A good thing I was told was its called rummaging or reminsiing or some shit

but its basically thinking about things, like oh this mother fucker did this or looking back like the nurse should have told me I could do xyz with the baby, or why doesn't he do this.. That time has passed when you're doing this you're probably wasting HOURS waiting for a asteroid to hit, thinking about how you'll do it differently when it does.. but what if it never does and you spent countless hours every day of your life preparing for the astreoid.. I do it everyday I'm not perfect but I try not to I'm just sharing.. when instead you could accept the astreoid hit at that time, but it hasn't now and the best thing you can do for yourself is imagine say a blue elephant when this thought comes into your head, think about ex? Blue elephant.

so you're not wasting years preparing for an asteroid that might or might not hit when instead you can do what you enjoy and get therapy if you feel you need it and live.

Then when the asteroid hits you'll be fucking ready :).

Because man I've had times where I've reminsied or whatever and my reaction to the asteroid the size of a baseball was to shoot a nuke at it

>>22920126
I will try to practice maybe self Care.
Where i did when i was seperated i actually did feel a Bit better
Only rough Thing is i start College soon and will have to perhaps live in my car for a while depending on how Things are going
I will try to Sue my parents for Money since they are obligated By law to Care for me If i Go to College even If im 18 since i dont qualify for gov Support

>>22920141
why did they kick you out at 18 that's fucked up

This old sad man i call my dad would prob give me Money on His own but He Always Runs Out BC Hes Not responsible.. so It would be better to let the state handle it
Its a Bit unfortunate BC He used to pay so much Money to my mom wich went to greece vaccations with her new Bf while i was homeless but it is what it is

>>22920145
No No they kicked me Out at 14 because my Mom convinced my dad that im mentally ill and would Ruin His Life Like i did Hers
She was a raging alcoholic though and blamed it on me

>>22920150
bro.

>>22919580 (OP)
Yeah, no functional male is gonna wife up a junkie who’s been blowing cocks for crack since middle school. Good luck with that.
The only optimal scenario is you OD'ing alone in a welfare motel while the state raises your crotch goblin. Peak delusion.

>>22920125
>"Christ is King." is anti-Semitic hate speech "scientific study" by real "scientists"
Science is fake and gay

>>22920323
I dont do drugs anymore beside Weed 2 Times a week
And i have more Impulse Control and start STEM College this year
In 3 years i could start working good paying Job
>>22920372
The jews killed Jesus and they are still salty about that

>>22920398
What stem thingy are you going for?

I really meant science is fake and gay. The only things I can think of now that twist and screw up "100% objective, truthful science" are people who research something and like twist their hypothesis to meet in the middle with the actual results of their experiment and then say "Ok, I've successfully more or less got the general results required for more funding. Gib money plox." and the people who just skew results towards the results they need by adjusting experiment conditions and the people who just make over-generalized vague conditions but other people cite a specific underlying theme in the results report as fact. In the last case, in case it's not too clear, I'm referring to people who say "milk causes cancer" saying it's verified science from an Oxford based authority. The latter two conditions – people changing experiment conditions to meet a desired result and people making large, pointless over-generalizations – I'm referring specifically to the ching ling nation.

TL;DR: science is fake and gay because Chinks are making it fake (to look like a first world, well developed country) and it's gay because half the "scientists" are blue haired anime protagonists who want to prove they're the descendant of an ancient dragon lizard that lives on the moon but can turn into a beautiful woman with mega tits.

>>22920421
This is one of the most retarded things I have read lately.

>>22920671
Why? It's true. Or are you saying chinks making up data is retarded, which, it is, but we're expected to think their degrees are the same value as ours.

>>22920676
You are a dumb nigger. Everyone makes shit up about everything and they have done that with religion for thousands of years.

>>22920680
>Everyone makes shit up about everything
But they don't make anything up when it comes to science, is that what you're saying? Science is the 100% bona fide, genuine, objective truth, all the time. Definitely never skewed to meet up with people's personal agendas.

>>22920686
????
The point is to not devalue science as a whole just because of what some other subhumans do.

>>22919580 (OP)
yeah it's pretty obvious that most men are trash. historically the only reason women had to put up with men is because they were forced to. take care of yourself and don't let any low value men take advantage of you in the future

>>22920694
Oh no. That's more or less correct. But there are lots of subhumans in this world. Not just chinks. Many who believe in religion. Many who believe in the scientific religion. They are equally worthless.

>>22920700
Are all germans this retarded? I would rather believe in the memed jewish brainwashed worst form of science than some retarded mormonism shit where people just try to pray their tumours away. Clearly they are equally bad

>>22920407
Industrial engineer
Its partly bullshit Job and partly a real job, i adapt to economic needs and the middle man Just earns more then the worker

Oh and a Lot of companys especially in stem areas have a woman quota
Perhaps i can use that to my Advantage

>>22920698
Oh wise leaf are the people on 4chan los value men?

>>22920710
Sounds good.
>>22920711
Smart. I don't know anything about industrial engineers, but it sounds practical and useful so prob a good bet.

>>22920707
That's the dumbest shit I've read in my life. Christians are responsible for the vast majority of major advancements in healthcare throughout the 20th century and before that. Christians are the reason that modern medicine exists.

Try again retard fuck you are dumb every take I have seen from you has been dogshit tier idiocy.

>>22920711
It's almost like you aren't disadvantaged at all and are just fishing for sympathy because you are emotionally unstable. Many such cases.

>>22919805
>They say that, but abuse on children, animals and women is pretty common in the world
You said something pretty true there, Ritsu. Some also say that drunkards and children are the only ones who always tell the truth, but most times drunkards declarations aren't take into account for their state, and when children say something awful, but true, about their family, they are treated as liars
>>22919580 (OP)
Also, I've been reading the thread. It's a horrible story with horrible consequences for OP. She needs any kind of help; support from her loved ones, psychological and maybe psychiatric attention, spiritual guidance in a proper church. Everything would help, and no matter when, 3 years since that event and she is notoriously affected, and of course she would still be affected. So she better struggle as much as she can with everything she has. There's good people out there, and I hope that she meets many good people to live and be happy as she is meant to be
>>22920698
At least in ancient times the family or the tribe would force the subhuman who got OP pregnant to stay with her and take responsibility. Yeah, it might not be ideal too, but the way most things work in most western countries, due to the legal systems or degenerate costumes, it's also not ideal. Anyway, as I said up there, I hope the best for OP

>>22920718
I mean, its only Like that in Vienna really
I remember when i was 14 and applied to mechanic appreanticeship they didnt Take me because the Tires are too hevy for Girls or sumthing
Its better being homeless in Vienna then a worker in Linz or steyr

>>22920717
Smarest canadian. The western cultural sphere is influenced by christiannity, but has always had it's progressiveness challenged by christiannity. Saying christianity is responsible for majority of advancement in healthcare is the same as saying people with hair are responsible for most major advancements. They correlate, but there is no cause and effect.

>>22920728
*Not sure why I wrote healthcare, but I mean science.
Too much energy drinks

>>22920727
>racist, sexist Vienna
Not surprised

>>22920728
You're just about as smart, Ritsu. Even if Rajnesh retaliates again, ignore him.

>>22920715
>>22920717
In fact Christians are directly responsible for the existence of the modern era. If it had not been for Byzantine Christian monks, there would have been no Renaissance. If there was no Renaissance, the industrial Revolution wouldnt have happened. Christianity saved Europe, and defended it for nearly a hundred generations. Then useless sacks of dogshit like yourself come along and think all of this happened by circumstance and luck and gave it away in a decade or so. I don't think retards like you even get that far thinking, frankly.

Christianity built or paved the way for all the amenities that you enjoy in your modern life and the entire world that surrounds you dipshit. Show a bit of respect for better people than yourself.

>>22920737
Kys
>>22920738
>Renaissance
Yes and whose ideas were being reborn again? Pagan greeks right. Not christians. They were busy being schizophrenic and destroying statues.
>industrial Revolution
Not related to christians at all. In fact I don't see an industrial revolution happening if it weren't for protestantism. Aka christiannity had to be humbled and restricted for european states to progress.
>Christianity saved Europe, and defended it for nearly a hundred generations
Christiannity wasn't defending europe kings and nobility were. Just like pagan states before christiannity came along and started brainwashing people.
>Christianity built or paved the way for all the amenities that you enjoy in your modern life and the entire world that surrounds you dipshit
No it didn't and the consistent decline of christiannity in it's power and authority mirrors the consistent progress of humanity what a weird coincidence.

>>22920760
ritsu do you ever talk to your old /bant/ friends still? not the ones that post on the board now but the ones who used to post here from like 2017-2019 or around those times. are you still friends with any of them?

>>22920772
Like 1 person, that's about it.

>>22920774
oh that's sad, which one is it? and what happened to all the others, did they delete discord or something? idk what happened to this board I have not been here in maybe 5 years but this place looks sad and dead and not fun anymore. I'm surprised you are still here and still posting using your name. do you ever miss the way the board was back in those days?

>>22920793
They left and spread out, some of them prob sticking together in various discord servers. People move on with their lives. I post here occasionally because I'm bored. I'm not the same person as back then and I miss those times.

>>22920801
oh ok, that's too bad. I thought you would've stayed friends with more of them. I remember you used to post a lot and were always talking to forest, the irish jojo poster, and karen and the rest of them.
>I'm not the same person as back then and I miss those times.
have you changed for the better or have things gotten worse?

>>22920808
I remember those people. I talked with Karen semi recently he posted on bant a few days ago. Irish jojo poster I have seen on some discord server but I haven't talked with him in years. Forest also doesn't post on bant anymore.
Prob for the worse.

Lol all These Boys who are now 20-24 got also groomed on bant international random By old boomer Pedos Like normie or craig or Other Name fags
No Wonder yall so fucked up

>>22920812
yeah I don't think most of the nice people from back then still post here anymore. I miss irish jojoposter. but it's nice that karen is still around sometimes, I hope he is happier now. same with forest wherever he ended up.
>Prob for the worse.
hm same here. because of stuff that is mostly out of my control so there is not really much I can do to make it better. is it the same for you too, things happening that you cannot control and makes life worse? or is it because of choices you made?

>>22921099
When I was 15 some jew named AP who was on bant here was grooming me. I don't know if anyone even remembers AP anymore.

>>22921100
You should prob leave bant since it's completely different now and 100x more dogshit. I'm trying to post here as little as I can, but I sometimes get tempted to post anyway.

>>22921099
>>22921101
very sad.
>>22921106
I can tell. I really only came back to see if a few of the old posters I liked are still around. I never added them on discord back in the day, too late now. I should've added them since I will probably always wonder about how they are doing. every time I find somewhere nice to spend time it always gets ruined. the other places I've been posting on have become terrible too which is why I am here now. oh well. I have nowhere else to go really.

>>22921117
I mean, /bant/ is not that bad. There's always at least one interesting thread, and there's always fellow anons who say tons of bullshit and stuff. Friday it's the best day because it's Loleday day

>>22921117
Dont worry bant is also Ur Home

>>22921106
>You should prob leave bant since it's completely different now and 100x more dogshit. I'm trying to post here as little as I can, but I sometimes get tempted to post anyway.
This is called "mental retardation". Get checked :)

>>22921125
it's a lot worse than how it was when I used to post here regularly way back in the early days. maybe not quite as bad as some other boards have become like /r9k/ but it's just not as fun as it was.
>>22921148
thank you reimu (or at least I think you are reimu?) I am just a sad and sentimental person

>>22921168
I can get it. To be honest I never truly was a regular user of 4Chan despite knowing about the website and occasionally lurk in it since, like, 2014? until this year I've become more active, specially on this board. I don't regret despite everything

>>22921187
idk I've had some fun times on here and also on /cgl/ /cm/ /r9k/ plus a few other boards, really the site as a whole is not as great as it used to be. most of the oldfags moved on long ago. there are still some cool people and good posts, I just don't feel like wading through an ocean of poop to find a few flakes of gold.

>>22921233
It still has some use. So yes, just peek an eye once in a while to see if there's something worth to look or post. If not, then so be it

I want impregnate bernkastel...

>>22921265
yeah I think I will do exactly that, stop by every now and then when I'm bored

i want to be impregnated...

>>22921233
>>22921265
>>22921284
<3

>>22921320
I beg your pardon?
>NTR captcha
...

>NTR Personal Record
For the faggiest thread on the board

>>22921320
>1 post by this ID
hm?