>>22949982Anon, asking /pol/ for advice on women is like asking jeets their advice on ice fishing.
First step is confiding in a mental health professional, someone who can help you identify your unhealthy patterns and thought-traps. Then, as you develop a stronger sense of yourself, you should absolutely try to find a romantic partner you feel comfortable confiding in. You can and should learn to let your guard down with someone you love. Its scary, but to be loved is to be seen in full, keeping your walls up will prevent you finding real comfort and connection with your partner.
Now close this tab. Godspeed.